Больше чем… Исповедь эмоционального мазохиста. Тамара Тинникова. Читать онлайн. Newlib. NEWLIB.NET

Автор: Тамара Тинникова
Издательство: ЛитРес: Самиздат
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Жанр произведения: Поэзия
Год издания: 2018
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мазохиста», ч. I, III, стих. 1 «Иллюзия».

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      См. «Стихи эмоционального мазохиста», ч. I, III, стих. 2 «Всю жизнь душа скиталась по подвалам».

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      См. «Стихи эмоционального мазохиста», ч. I, I, стих. 3 «В буреломах усталой души».

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      См. «Стихи эмоционального мазохиста», ч. II, III, стих. 2 «Рассыпаюсь, как хрупкое время в песочных часах».

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