On this plane we are so focused on life and death that we often fail to see the continuity that exists. People, spirits, souls don’t simply disappear. I believe that all children have an ability to make connections with the spirit world, and I also believe that those spirits who have passed during childhood have a special warmth and innocence that makes their love so special to those they left behind. They show it in many ways, as Hannah did by caring for her sister’s son, and if we all unlock our minds and move past our worries we will see that someone’s passing is an opportunity to open ourselves up to love that never ends – a love which children understand perfectly.
I believe that all children are psychic and that we as adults have a responsibility to nurture and encourage these gifts. As I share the wonderful stories in this book with you, I hope you feel the presence of these angels who walk beside us, and I hope you can find it in your heart to help whatever children there may be in your world to find their own spiritual and angelic path.
Chapter 2
The journey of life
When I am communicating with a child in spirit, a feeling of playfulness often comes through, which is a lovely thing to experience. In some cases the messages I receive are from a very early stage of life when I can sense a child waiting to be conceived. This might sound odd, but let me explain. When we are souls on a higher plane, we make decisions about whether we want to reincarnate and, if so, which parents we will choose. I’ll explain more about this later, but when a soul is waiting to be conceived by a particular couple I can often sense them waiting. On many occasions I’ve predicted pregnancies, and this can be a very emotional experience for me as well as for the person for whom I’m doing the reading.
I need to handle my answers with great delicacy when a woman asks, ‘Am I going to have a baby?’ I can see some things, but I’m not an obstetrician or gynaecologist. Maybe I will see a baby but can’t predict exactly when it will come. A woman’s emotional need for a baby can cloud matters, so that her own body may not even know what’s going on. Any medium who comes out with a definitive ‘yes’ or ‘no’ answer is really putting their head on the chopping block. But, having said that, I’ve done it many times.
At a reading, I may not know how long a woman has been trying to get pregnant, what doctors have told her or how fraught the whole subject is for her. This is one of the most difficult types of readings to do. The mere fact that a woman asks me if she will have children doesn’t necessarily mean that she wants them. I would never assume that the question meant that she was desperate to become a mother, or indeed that she had no children already.
Sometimes you have to make a snap decision about whether to tell a woman what you see for her. I might inch my way towards it. I remember reading for one lady and I asked her, ‘Do you see yourself having kids?’ She said that she did, and I followed up by enquiring whether she fancied having quite a few. It was a relief when she said ‘yes’ to that as well. ‘You better prepare yourself,’ I told her, ‘because you’re going to have six!’ This would have been shocking news for some, but she said that was the number she had always pictured herself with. I think we often know what’s in our future if we listen to our own inner instincts.
When a woman called Fiona came for a reading, I could see immediately that she desperately wanted to have a child and that this was the main question she was planning to ask me; in fact, it seemed to be the whole purpose of the reading. Almost before she sat down she had asked, ‘Will I have a child?’
There was no doubt in my mind. ‘I absolutely feel there is a child waiting here for you, in spirit,’ I told her. ‘The child’s energy is a little boy.’
Fiona started to cry. ‘But the doctors have told me that I can never have children.’
‘I’m not medically trained,’ I replied, ‘but I’m sorry – I don’t care what they’ve said. I can only tell you what I feel and what I can see. I wouldn’t say this if I thought it wasn’t the case. I could never be that cruel.’ I paused, then asked her a very important question. ‘Don’t you feel this is your destiny too?’
‘Yes!’ she cried. ‘I absolutely do and always have. I’ve always wanted to have children but have never been pregnant. I’ve been for tests and specialists have said it will never happen. It breaks my heart to think of a future without a child in it.’
‘There’s something stopping it from happening at the moment,’ I told her. ‘But you need to know that what the doctors are saying is nonsense because there’s a little boy waiting for you. Go and get him.’
It would have been completely wrong of me, both professionally and morally, to give her false hope. If the doctors were right, I was now setting Fiona up for even more heartache, but I truly believed that she would live her dream and that she would have a baby one day. If I had had even the slightest doubt of that I would never have told her what I did.
Fiona was shaking her head. She desperately wanted to believe what I was saying, but she had also had many years of hope crushed by disappointment and was wary of letting herself be optimistic again. I needed to make her believe that her negativity could be the very block that was preventing her from conceiving in the first place.
‘I can see him, Fiona,’ I continued. ‘I can see your little boy – he’s a cute wee thing, an old soul, and very intuitive. Don’t worry; it will happen because this baby is just sitting there waiting. In fact I can see twins waiting for you.’
It was a difficult moment because I didn’t want to push this poor woman too far. I left her to think about the message and continued with the rest of the reading, knowing that I had to wait and see whether Fiona would take up what I had said. There was a child waiting in the wings for her. Once she was in the correct emotional state and the divine timing was right, the baby would come.
About four years later I had an appointment to do a reading at what I thought was a new client’s house. I had a vague recollection of the woman who opened the door but couldn’t quite place her. I always recognise a face but am not always sure where from because I meet so many people in my work.
‘Do you remember me?’ the woman asked immediately. ‘My name’s Fiona. You told me I’d have twin boys, when every doctor I’d ever seen said it was impossible.’ She smiled at me. ‘Look,’ she whispered. She pushed the door wide and a wee laddie of about four ran towards us. ‘That’s one of them,’ said Fiona. ‘That’s Archie, one of the babies you saw, the one you said was waiting in the wings.’
As I watched this little miracle throw himself into Fiona’s arms, I could have burst into tears. He was a beautiful little blond child and I could see in his eyes that, as I had predicted, he had been here before.
‘I got pregnant a few months after you did my last reading,’ she told me. ‘I was amazed. I knew this must be the miracle babies that you had seen for me, but I could still hardly believe it. The doctors couldn’t believe it either, but they couldn’t dispute what was happening. I sailed through the pregnancy and they’re the most perfect boys you could imagine. They’re all I’ve ever wanted and everything you said they would be.’
It was lovely to be able to be part of that joyful story. I get goose bumps just thinking about it. How many other women have been told that they can’t have children or that they’ve missed their chance, so they stop trying, whereas if they just left it to divine timing they might find that a miracle happened? I’m not saying that medical advice is always wrong. Of course there are many couples who suffer infertility for genuine physical reasons, but I think that for some people there are mental blocks in the way of conception. The power of the mind can work both ways.
Archie and his twin brother