Oh, Mama, what’s wrong with us now?!
Oh pain, oh heart,
The sorrow, the stones.
How can you scream
When your hand is on the bathtub
And how to hurry
When you feel
You’re already in the dark
You were talking
But not about me
***
She’s talking about love again,
You’ve forgotten your loneliness.
Aren’t you tired of saying goodbye to him?
Who are you lying to?
You were just giving yourself away.
And now,
Take your misery
I see you every day
But my thoughts
Are just a punishment
You’ll be glad
To see what you’ve kept
But he won’t remember.
Sweetheart.
You’ll be alone again.
***
And he looked on indifferently,
I only wanted to know the truth.
The powder fire is burning again,
It’s like we’re alone
And I’m the only one who sees you
And I see you off and I miss you.
And you’ve forgotten
When you loved me
I accept what I know.
But I forget everything else.
It’s time to take a step
To the winds
When you hurt me
I’ll notice.
***
I sprinkle salt on my wounds,
And I’m in tears
And I suffer
And I’m willing to kill myself.
Now I see it!
It’s all in vain
The heart will forget.
I forgive.
I’ll feel better
I let go.
***
I never took offended
Did you?
Yes!
And rose again!
And fall to pieces.
And forgave!
And I called!
I was amazed
It pains me to see
There’s another life here
And I don’t know
The word grief.
But I’ve experienced
All I can
I’ll finish myself
You make me feel like I’m alone.
***
In the fervor of the wind,
Of unbridled days
We have forgotten
Who in the world of men
Ruling over us
And with our hands clasped
We answer-
That our friend
Only fear.
***
And loyalty again
And tears of forgiveness,
Who are you gonna tell?!
I don’t believe it!
I forget the sorrow
And love
But I suffer so much!
Crucified like two wings
Scream, run!
I’m alone again.
Spreading the ashes,
The muses are gone.
Don’t wait for me.
Another fate.
***
Minute sounds
And laughter…
We’re apart
That’s all she could think about.
She couldn’t wait.
I’ll be gone!
I’m used to being alone.
***
I squeeze my lips until they bleed!
And it doesn’t hurt.
I’m inside.
I smile and write.
I don’t want to do this at all.
I trample everything around me.
When the pain goes away
And I walk away.
I pick up the pieces of myself
All the things I leave behind
I forget
I go round and round again
I can’t let go
I’ll walk away.
***
Say you love me.
Say it all without words.
Tell me we can do anything.
Tell me what love is.
Tell me I’ll live
Tell me I know
Tell me what I want to hear.
Tell me I’ll forget.
Say it’s not a problem.
Say I’ll see the sunrise.
Say I’ll be forever…
***
And you’re at the door again, and he’s on the doorstep.
Why don’t you understand?!
You and I are not gods.
For our moment together.
I’ve already paid for it in tears.
I’ve kept all the things
That I can’t hide from everyone.
But tell me.
What am I to you?
***
Don’t you know what pain is?
What role will you play forever?
What fairy tale will you stop believing in?
Where the light will flicker
And you’ll be tired of looking for it.
Where shall I call you?
You don’t understand me anymore
And the meaning of my words
You won’t find
You’ll leave your life behind
Making up phrases
Hello sadness
So sad,
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