Day after day and night after night
And you cannot put up a fight
This is all I have to say
And I’ll be seeing you someday
Voice In My Mind 1/18/92
In my mind
I hear a little voice
What he says rings in my ear
Gee, I can see for miles in here
Not many people understand
Not many are willing to lend a helping hand
Can’t they see
I need somebody
Who can help me
This voice inside my mind
Says what he believes
I know that truth is not kind
But what he says is true
Gee, I can see for miles in here
Those words go through and through
They bring out miles of tears
I realize through all my pain
Does this mean I’m insane
Or are my thoughts too small
I see it’s true
I hear it too
When it rings in my ear
Gee, I can see for miles in here
The Sight Of Dissolution 1/18/92
All through my life I never had a clue
That I would end up with someone like you
Someone special and full of love
With the innocence of a white dove
Now here I am and full of fear
That you’d leave me before the end of the year
I know I haven’t been faithful and true
And I’m aware of all the pain I’ve put you through
Sure that you would have been better off all along
All of my doubts are long since gone
Knowing how your love for me is true
Realizing deep down that I do love you
The Long Awaited For Happening 3/1/92
In the cool summers breeze
I suddenly felt the warm loving touch of your hand
That first came across my shoulder with ease
Then slowly it found its way down my chest
And into the forbidden line of which no other has crossed
In the moment of first excitement, the best
I found myself caressing and loving my partner to be
Then in complete ecstasy our souls became one
I knew then that we would be each other’s forever throughout eternity
Suicide 3/13/92
The night, much like my life, is long and cold
There was no way out unless you’re bold
Many people have thought the thought
Some have tried but have been caught
For me all is lost
And the price of living and the cost
A punishment so harsh and cruel
To put my innocent soul in the wicked world like a tool
Just here to do my part
Then in an instant depart
I have long since waited for this final hour
When I can stand on the top of this tower
And not fear the final outcome of impact
Carrying out my life like some twisted act
Never sure of what I was doing
Always looking for that one special thing
Now that reality has finally hit
I realize this is my only way out
Jump now and forever forget
The pain of Satan and love and all the rest of it
For now my life is finally over
Suicide, With The Lord On My Side 3/14/92
But then in the last moment
When I thought it was over
He made his appearance
He came to me and said
It’s not your time to go
There’s so little that you know
I’ve made plans for you
And you know it’s true
I sent you to earth for a very good reason
You are special to me, just as my son
I’ve tried so many times to let you know
Now this is my last chance to show
As I stared at the awesome light of the Lord
He sang to me in the most beautiful chord
I sent Jesus my one and only son
To save the human population
To save them from the pain and agony
Only given out by Satan the one who defied me
Jesus died on the cross for you and everyone
And look at what Satan has done
He’s tried to tear you away from me
So many of you cannot see
That it hurts me so much
That you have lost trust
Then I looked up and said to him
Thank you Lord for all you’ve done
Now I know that I am a very special one
That you would do so much
Just to save us from Satan’s clutch
I’m sorry for my sins and I hope that you can forgive me once more
Please allow me another open door
He looked down at me with a gracious smile
He said of course I can forgive you, I’ve trusted you and loved you all the while
Every time you do something wrong
All you have to do is be strong
Please just do me a favor, do what you can
and try to never go towards Satan
I’m giving you another chance ‘cause I am your Lord
You’re going back to earth to help spread the word
Of all that has happened here
In that time if you should save one soul down there
A hundred more will open up here
As I said thank you Lord I then awoke
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