She wouldn’t tell him about the stitches. That would totally gross him out. ‘It was all perfectly normal in the end, thank heavens, but it had its scary moments.’
Joe looked away. She saw the rise of his chest as he drew a deep breath.
‘But it was worth it,’ Ellie said softly. ‘It was so worth every minute of those long hours to see Jacko.’ And suddenly she had to tell Joe more, had to help him to see the joy. ‘He was the most beautiful baby ever born, Joe. He had this little scrunched up face and dark hair. And he was waving his little arms. Kicking his legs. He had long feet, just like yours, and he was so amazingly perfect. It was the biggest moment of my life.’
You should have been there.
Oh, help. She was going to cry if she kept talking about this. Joe looked as if he was already battling tears.
It was Christmas Day. They should not be having this conversation.
Forcing herself to be practical, Ellie nodded to the new calf and its mother. ‘I’ll bring them some supplements later but, right now, I’m hanging out for breakfast. Are you coming?’
It took a moment for the furrows in Joe’s brow to smooth. He flashed a scant, uncertain smile. ‘Sure.’
‘Let’s hurry then. I’m starving.’
* * *
On the homestead’s back veranda, Ellie pulled off her gumboots and removed her hat and coat. Joe shouldn’t have been paying close attention. But, beneath the outdoor gear, she was dressed for Christmas in skinny red jeans and a frilly white top. Winking gold earrings swung from her ears and her dark glossy hair hung loose.
‘So I was thinking scrambled eggs and smoked salmon?’
Breakfast? With his emotions running high, Joe’s thoughts were on tasting Ellie’s soft pink lips and hauling her red and white deliciousness close. He wanted to peel her frilly neckline down and press kisses along the delicate line of her collarbone. Wanted to trace the teasing seams of her jaunty red jeans.
Yeah, right, Brainless. Clever strategy. You’d land right back where you started with this woman. Ruining her life.
‘Joe?’
He blinked. ‘Sorry?’
With evident patience, Ellie repeated her question. ‘Are you OK with scrambled eggs and smoked salmon?’
‘Sure. It sounds—’
‘Mummy!’ cried a high-pitched voice from inside the house. ‘Look, Mummy, look! A puppy!’
Ellie grinned. ‘Guess we’ll deal with breakfast in a little while.’
* * *
For Joe, most of Christmas Day ran pretty much to plan. Jacko loved his gifts—especially the little dog, and the colourful interlocking building set that Ellie had bought for him. The three of them enjoyed Ellie’s leisurely breakfast menu, and Joe and Ellie took their second cups of coffee through to the lounge room where they opened more presents from under the tree—mostly presents for Jacko from their respective families.
Ellie loved the fancy box of lotions and bath oils and creams that Steve Hansen’s wife had selected for her. And, to Joe’s surprise, she handed him a gift.
‘From Jacko and me,’ she said shyly.
It was very small. Tiny, to be accurate. Wrapped in shiny red paper with a gold ribbon tied in an intricate bow.
‘I know I said I didn’t have anything for you, Joe. I meant I hadn’t bought anything. This...this is homemade.’
Puzzled, he opened it and found a USB stick, a simple storage device for computers.
‘I’ve put all Jacko’s photos on there,’ Ellie said. ‘Everything from when he was born. I...um...thought you might like to—’
She couldn’t go on. Her mouth pulled out of shape and, as her face crumpled, she gave a helpless shake of her head.
Dismayed, Joe dropped his gaze and stared fiercely at the tiny device in his hand.
‘It’ll help you to catch up on Jacko’s first two years,’ Ellie said more calmly.
But Joe was far from calm as he thought about all the images this gift contained. Two whole years of his son’s life that he’d virtually ignored.
He saw that his hand was trembling. ‘Thanks,’ he said gruffly. ‘That’s—’
Hell, he couldn’t make his voice work properly. ‘I...I really appreciate this.’
It wasn’t enough, but it was the best he could do.
* * *
They phoned their families.
‘It’s bedlam here,’ Joe’s mother laughed. ‘Wall to wall grandchildren.’
‘Jacko loves the picture books you sent, Mum. And the train set from his cousins. They were a huge hit.’ The phone line was bad after all the rain and he had to almost yell.
‘We miss you, Joe. And we’re dying to meet Jacko, of course. Everyone sends their love. I hope you’re having a nice day, darling.’
‘We are, thanks. It’s been great so far. Everything’s fine.’
He and Jacko went into the lounge room and built a tall tower with the new blocks while Ellie phoned her mother. Joe had no intention of listening in, but she also had to speak loudly, so he couldn’t help but hear.
‘Harold gave you a diamond bracelet? How...how thoughtful. Yes, lovely. Yes, Mum, yes, Joe’s still here. No, no. No problems...No, Mum. Honestly, you didn’t have to say that. All right. Apology accepted. No, it doesn’t mean I’m giving in. Yes, we’re having beautiful seafood. One of Joe’s Army mates brought it out in a helicopter. Yes, I thought so. Very nice. And Happy Christmas to you, too!’
Ellie came back into the lounge room and pulled a heaven-help-me face. ‘I think I need a drink.’
‘Right on time.’ Joe grinned. ‘The sun’s well over the yardarm.’
They opened a bottle of chilled champagne and chose a CD by a singer they’d both loved years and years ago. And the music was light and breezy and the day rolled pleasantly on.
Jacko romped with his toy dog and played the new game of hide and seek, putting the dog behind cushions and then the curtains. Joe and Ellie made a salad with avocado, three kinds of lettuce and herbs. They set the dining table for lunch with the seafood platter taking pride of place. They added bowls for the crab shells and finger bowls floating with lemon slices.
They pulled bonbons that spilled rolled-up paper hats and corny, groan-worthy jokes. Jacko blew whistles and pulled crackers that popped streamers. The adults ate seafood and drank more champagne, while Jacko had orange juice and chicken. They laughed.
They laughed plenty.
Over plum pudding with brandy cream, while Jacko enjoyed ice cream with chocolate sprinkles, Joe told some of the funnier stories from Afghanistan. Ellie recalled the bush yarns the ringers had told around the campfire during last winter’s cattle muster.
Joe couldn’t drag his eyes from Ellie. She was glowing—and not from the wine. Her smiles were genuinely happy. Her dark eyes shone and danced with laughter. Even in an unflattering green paper hat, she looked enchanting.
And sexy. Dangerously so.
Seafood in the outback was a rare treat and she ate with special enthusiasm, sometimes closing her eyes and giving little groans of pleasure.
One time she caught Joe watching her. She went still and a pretty pink blush rose from the white frill on her blouse, over her neck and into her cheeks.
Watching