“That won’t change things for Sarah or Greg.”
“You can’t blame yourself.”
“I do, though. I should have been aware of what Greg was doing.”
“You trusted him—like I’ve trusted men under me. Greg broke that trust, not you.”
“Yes, but that doesn’t help me to sleep better at night.”
“Daniel…”
“Daddy, Daddy.” Jassy crawled into Ethan’s lap. “Did you watch me, Daddy?”
“I’m always watching you.” He wrapped his arms around her. “Do you remember Daniel?”
Jassy nodded and said, “Hi.”
“You have the most beautiful blue eyes,” Daniel said, mesmerized by their brightness.
“I got my mommy’s eyes,” she told him.
“Sarah has them, too.” He didn’t even realize he’d spoken the words out loud until he saw Ethan’s face.
“Mommy and Sari are just alike, but Daddy and me can tell them apart. We know Mommy, don’t we, Daddy?”
“You bet we know Mommy.”
Daniel stood. “I’d better go.”
“Why don’t you come back to the house with us? Serena would love to see you.”
Daniel shook his head. “Thanks, but I’ve been working on a case and I have some loose ends to tie up. After I see the lieutenant on Monday, I’m flying to France to see my parents.”
“Sarah will be there,” Ethan added with a sheepish grin as if he knew exactly what was on Daniel’s mind—a woman he couldn’t get out of his head.
“Ah, Ethan, I think you’re reading me like a book.”
“I recognize the signs.” Ethan got to his feet with Jassy in his arms. “Take some time. Don’t give up a career you love out of guilt, and stop blaming yourself for things you have no control over. Most important, talk to Sarah.”
Daniel didn’t tell Ethan he already had. He didn’t want his friend caught in the middle. He’d deal with the situation in his own way.
“I’ll think about it,” he said, reaching over to kiss Jassy’s cheek. “Kiss your mom for me.”
“No.” Jassy frowned. “You can’t kiss my mommy. Only Daddy kisses Mommy.”
“Jasmine Marie,” Ethan scolded gently. “That’s not nice.”
“I’m sorry.” Jassy hung her head.
Daniel touched her soft cheek. “It’s okay and I promise to never kiss your mommy.”
“Okay.” Jassy glanced up at him, her eyes bright again. “I kiss Sari for you. Sari needs lots of kisses.”
Daniel’s stomach tightened at the innocent words, but he felt the simple truth in them, too. How nice it would be to kiss Sarah Welch. He shook Ethan’s hand and strolled away, a slight curve to his mouth.
Only in my dreams, Jassy. Only in my dreams.
CHAPTER FIVE
SARAH HAD A GREAT TIME. She relaxed and enjoyed her afternoon with her twin. They talked, shopped, laughed and made fun of each other with sisterly love. In the mall, they ordered a decadent chocolate-fudge sundae then spent two hours in a beauty salon getting a pedicure and a manicure. Sarah also had her long hair cut into a casual style that hung around her shoulders.
They ignored the many stares and glances they received, but they were secretly amused. Two identical redheads were an eye-catcher.
Since she was on call, she had to take a couple of phone calls, but other than that they had the afternoon to themselves. Later, she went by the hospital to check on Brooke. Her family was there, so Sarah knew she was okay.
They picked up food to cook on the grill for dinner and Ethan played chef, then Jassy put on a show with her jumping and flipping. Sarah and Serena talked until after midnight and Sarah felt herself opening up, confiding and exposing the destructive emotions inside her. All this time and she’d thought she was fine. It took Daniel’s words and Brooke’s question to make her realize she was far from a full recovery.
She’d made a start with her sister’s help and she intended to go forward now. Sarah felt as if she’d been living in a darkened room and someone had suddenly opened a door, letting in the fresh air and sunshine. She could feel its warmth slowly seeping into the coldest part of her. The feeling was liberating. She realized it was only a small step and she had a long way to go, but she was ready to face life again with Serena and her family behind her.
All too soon, they were saying goodbye and Sarah experienced a moment of sadness for all the years she and Serena had missed. But they had each other now and that’s what counted.
She held Jassy close, not wanting to let her go.
“Oh, I forget,” Jassy said, planting a big kiss on Sarah’s cheek. “That’s from Daniel.”
Sarah felt the blood draining from her face. It was one of those unexpected moments that left her vulnerable and speechless. Ethan hadn’t said anything about his visit with Daniel. Evidently she’d been mentioned.
“He wanted me to give Mommy a kiss, but I said no, that only Daddy kisses Mommy. I tell him I kiss you.”
“Oh, I see,” Sarah murmured in a low voice. Daniel really wanted to kiss Serena. Who wouldn’t?
Ethan took Jassy out of her arms. “Come here, munchkin, before you get yourself in a lot of trouble.” Ethan hugged Sarah. “Call Daniel,” he whispered, and took Jassy to the truck.
Serena was talking to Gran and Sarah was only vaguely aware of their voices. Call Daniel. What had Daniel told Ethan?
“I enjoyed this surprise visit,” Gran was saying.
Serena kissed Gran. “Remember you and Sarah are coming to spend the week during spring break.”
“I’m looking forward to it.”
Serena hugged Sarah and they held on tight. “I’m a phone call away,” Serena said.
“I know, and thanks.”
Serena leaned back. “You’re going to be fine and you look marvelous.”
Sarah curtsied. “Thank you. I look like my sister.”
They laughed and it felt so good to have that happy feeling again. Serena ran to the truck and Jassy waved frantically.
Sarah waved until they were out of sight. Linking her arm with Gran’s, they went back into the house.
“I thought I’d go to Hazel’s,” Gran said. “They’re playing bridge at her house.” Gran was an avid bridge player and she tried to never miss a game.
“Sure, Gran,” Sarah replied. “Go ahead. I’ve got a lot of work to catch up on.”
“Are you sure? I don’t want you to be lonely.”
“I’m fine, Gran.”
“I do love your new hairstyle.”
“Thanks. Now go have fun and—” Her phone rang, cutting her off. “See, I’ll be busy.”
“’Bye, darling.”
“’Bye, Gran,” Sarah called after her, and clicked on her cell phone.
It was Brooke and she was upset because the police were waiting to question her again and she wanted Sarah there. Sarah grabbed her purse and jacket and headed for the hospital.
She