Her father, even though he was not a practicing Mormon, had
an attitude that may have been influenced by the English class system.
Later he would wonder why one of his children would marry a Basque,
another an Italian, another a Mexican and the other a poor girl.
Why didn’t they just marry some nice white Anglo-Saxon types?
In John’s Gospel the Word became flesh for the salvation of all
but the world of darkness that did not receive him remains
unsaved just as did Judas and the Jews upon whom John is hard.
Paul and John give different accounts of the Kingdom and the Cross.
Paul has his atonement view of the Cross that Christ died
in order to redeem all the fallen children of Adam and thus
the Kingdom was to come for all humans for there are
no longer Jews or Gentiles, Greeks or Barbarians but
with Christ’s death and resurrection we are all members of
his body and can be members of the family of God and man.
John has a prophetic view of the cross that because Christ
was a prophet he made enemies of the authorities as did
so many of the prophets and thus they put him to death.
John and his people think that the second coming has
already happened at the resurrection and that Christ is
here now judging us and all those who fully believe
and keep his commandments are in his community or
his Kingdom now and mother could see these two views
in her mother’s universalism and in the Mormon’s exclusivism.
I.2.8 Dyadic Johannine Glory
Mother greatly loved her father and knew that he greatly loved her.
He seemed harsh and callous at times but she knew him better.
Gramma and Aunt Mid were helping mother get ready for her
junior prom and they came downstairs and Grandpa was reading
his paper and Gramma asked him: “Well Levaur, how does she look?”
And Grandpa stood up and came over to her and looking
at her from head to foot he said: “Sissy, you are so beautiful.”
And he was so proud of his daughter and a lump welled up
in his throat and he nearly started to cry and mother had seen
him that way before and she began to wonder why he would cry.
Slowly over the years it began to dawn on her that he had the gift
of tears and that it was not sorrow or pain that would make him cry.
It had to do with the pride and glory of a beautiful love relation.
Just as Paul was touched by glory of the angelic face of Stephen
and just as the Roman Soldier said: “Truly this man is the son of God.”
so Grandpa was touched by a moment of glory that made him tremble
and perhaps all his feeling for his lost mother was in his sobbing.
And in John’s Gospel the Son glorifies and thus reveals the Father.
And the Father’s love helps to glorify the Beloved Son’s wonder.
And in John there are several dyadic one-on-one loving moments
such as when Magdalene did not recognize him after the Resurrection.
But in the way he said her name “Mary” as no one else could
ever say it she recognized her Lord and Master in a glory moment.
Did the beloved Mormon community somehow foster that kind of
sentiment that could feel the holy aura around a love of noble beauty?
Did it even go back into the Franciscan roots of English poetry and
had it to do with that shamanic presence that could heal and vitalize?
Mother thoroughly loved her father and even though he would become
a black-sheep bum-lamb wandering about as an alcoholic who
spent his last days at Pocatello in the Insane Asylum she knew
that in spite of it all our Heavenly Father loved him as did she.
I.2.9 Pauline Triadic Glory
In 1936, when mother was eighteen, Franklin Delano Roosevelt
was elected president of the United States and at once big things
began to happen even in the little town of Carey where the Mormons
were totally Republican and cared for as land owners by bankers.
Mrs. York, a Democrat, took over as head of the Carey Post Office
because jobs like that go to people of the party that makes it in.
They continued working on the big dams up Fish Creek and up
Little Wood River and Aunt Omas’ boarding house was filled
with migrant workers and many town’s people got new jobs.
Louie Arrian, a Basque, owned and ran the Carey pool hall and
he hired a young Basque poker player, Joe Goicoechea, to run
his games at the tables and Joe had been in jail for delivering
whiskey during the prohibition and in jail he learned card playing.
And Gramma Coates knew he was back in town for she had
known him as a youth up at the head of Fish Creek where
he often stayed with his uncle Pete Cennarrusa and Joe’s
father had died when he was only five and he and Leona talked
together in the shamanic presence and she liked him very much.
And she told mother what a nice, intelligent young man he was.
And then one day Joe and Joneva met and started talking together.
And she told her father she was talking with him and her father
couldn’t believe that his lovely young daughter would waste
her time on a vagrant, drinking, poker playing man with no
property or good job and he had to be fairly quiet because he saw
that Leona was their cupid and thus he could not speak his mind.
And when Joneva spoke with Joseph she sensed in him a
reverence she had never known before and it was as if he reverenced
her with the reverence his mother had when she said her rosary.
And in the triadic relation between Joseph, Leona and Joneva
there was a kind of triadic glory that gave glory to God in all things.
With coffee and cigarettes each morning he devoutly said his prayers.
I.3 With Her Catholic husband
I.3.1 The Holy Ideal and the Justice of Peace
In her last year of