Maureen pulled herself forward, her arms resting on the desk, her hands clasped. Her eyes remained closed. Even when she opened them seconds later, it was as though she faced a thick fog bank, the white vapors slowly lifting, a figure coming to meet her. It was an image at first, swirling her back in time…and then a remembered face. A remembered time. A remembered place.
Allen—the memory of all her yesterdays, the unhealed wound of her quiet tomorrows. Allen—tousled and barefoot in a blue wet suit, a surfboard under one arm. Allen—defiantly facing her mother, declaring his undying love for Maureen. Allen in uniform, turning back to wave as he boarded the plane that would carry him back to his ship. The ship that would take him to Cyprus.
Allen! Allen, out of her life so long ago, yet crashing back into her thoughts again and again. Refusing to leave on this harried evening as she sat alone at Fabian Industries.
It had not been like that with Carl Davenport, the vigorous, fun-loving man she had married. There had been good moments with Carl, but when he died, her grief had been measured. She had grieved for Carl, a dignified sorrow for someone who had been special. She remembered him periodically with sadness for his fast-paced commitment to racing, to living, even to her. With sadness for the dynamic, energetic way he lived, the foolish way he died.
Whenever she thought of Carl, she recalled a laughing, spirited man who lacked nothing financially, and yet who sacrificed everything careening around a race course. Sometimes on holidays or special occasions, Maureen still visited Carl’s mother in her isolated fifteen-room estate, enduring the long hours of a mother’s reflections while the elderly woman talked as though her son would walk into the room any minute.
With Allen, it was different. She had no ties with Allen’s family. The twenty-year-old memories were her own. She had grieved deeply for Allen, and when she remembered him now, she did so with searing intensity and always with thoughts of his child—a grown young woman now whose image she couldn’t conjure up to comfort her. That part of Allen that she could only think of as “Meggy.”
Allen. The well-remembered face of her first love with its Athenian features, a lock of wet black hair cresting over his broad forehead, the mesmerizing dark-brown eyes, the amused tilt of his head as he waved goodbye. A remembered time: high noon on the hard-packed beach. The sliver of a midnight moon peeking through the trees. The five o’clock flight that left on time. And the remembered places: Huntington Beach Pier, the iso lated campsite at Big Bear, the crowded terminal at John Wayne.
Now with missiles and mergers and mayhem crowding in on her, it could well be Allen Kladis who would unknowingly take her down, topple her corporate climb— A sharp knock on her door announced Eddie McCormick’s arrival. Without waiting for Maureen’s reply, McCormick shoved open the door and came in, a dark-haired stranger behind him.
She caught her breath. It was like seeing Allen walk into her room, the stranger’s likeness to Allen was so striking. Her palms dampened; her locked fingers tightened. She looked away, her eyes focusing on Eddie McCormick.
“Davenport, what in blazes went wrong this evening?” McCormick roared.
She steeled herself for a dressing-down and prepared to fight back, but at the sight of Eddie’s ashen face, she bit her tongue. The once robust man came across the room in a halting gait, strands of his sparse gray hair falling limply across his forehead. A year ago he’d been a giant of a man, but his illness was taking its toll.
“Well, Davenport, do you have an explanation for what happened tonight with that missile?”
“Eddie, I didn’t give that order.”
“Who then? Some idiot in your de-department”
She heard the quiver in his voice, knew that his anxiety was peaking. She considered offering him a chair, but thought better of it. These days he took common courtesy as unwanted sympathy. She did pity him, but not in the usual sense of the word. She ached for him. She hated his struggle for control, his need to blame.
Lately he had taken to standing with his hands folded, his stronger one gripping his left wrist in a futile attempt to control the tremors. Tonight he stood with his left hand in his pocket, but she could still see the jerking of his upper arm.
Parkinson’s disease is a cruel adversary, she thought.
She was accustomed to discussing industry problems with Eddie, but the thought of Allen Kladis’s brother standing in the shadows, listening to her, was disconcerting. She tried to keep a clear head, saying, “The order to launch was phoned in to the air base, but no one in my department gave that order, Eddie.”
“A gremlin?” he scoffed.
She ignored his sarcasm. “I talked with Roland Spencer at the Pentagon. He insists that someone at Larhaven made that call.”
McCormick dropped in the chair across from her. “I didn’t want the Pentagon involved.”
“Our contract is with the Pentagon. You are familiar with the last communication from them. No more tests on the Fabian missiles until the problems are corrected. I had nothing to gain by giving an order to the contrary.”
“My position,” McCormick said. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you? Taking over before Larhaven does?”
She didn’t argue. That had been the original plan. He would take an early retirement, and Maureen, groomed and qualified to fill the job, would have been Fabian’s first female CEO. Her disappointment at missing that opportunity was as keen and sharp as his mood swings.
Moving to the top had slipped through her fingers. Once Allen Kladis learned that she was on the corporate rung at Fabian, what chance did she have? Allen had always liked competition—but from his first love? If he had wanted to see her again, he would have come back long ago, wouldn’t he?
Sighing, she said, “Eddie, what matters now is who gave that order at Larhaven. And whether it will affect our government contracts.” She aimed her barb at the stranger. “As far as I’m concerned, Eddie, we’re still in business until Fabian and Larhaven sign on the dotted line.”
“Seems to me it is a bit more involved than signatures,” the stranger said.
Maureen allowed herself to look at him again, forced herself to do so. She drew in another quick breath. He was a shorter, heavier version of Allen, and equally attractive if it weren’t for the cunning twist of his mouth. In that flash she likened him to his father. She had seen the head of the clan twice—a stocky, powerful man, a tad over five-eleven, with an authoritative voice and steely black eyes. His wide mouth had curled at the corner—exactly the way this man’s was doing now.
She wanted to cry out, to ask about Allen.
The stranger eyed her curiously. He was casually dressed in dark slacks, an open-neck shirt, a forest-green sports jacket. He held up his hands and shrugged. “I’m a Kladis, but I don’t give the orders.” His voice was deep, half-amused, and his eyes mocking as they met hers. “That’s my brother’s department.”
Even without the name, she would have guessed it. The family resemblance was definite, the voice quality so much alike. “Allen Kladis?” she asked, thrusting the name between them, challenging him, hoping that