Freedom Following Disappointment
The author of John had to drink the cup of disappointment in its most bitter form. His dream died. It is hard to have a dream die. A dream deferred is like a raisin in the sun.
While every life carries secret sorrows, there are serious and lasting disappointments that can shake the foundations of life, heart, and soul. It is one thing to have your favorite team lose in the World Series, or to have your chosen candidate lose at the polls. It is another to face the lasting hurt of a dream deferred. What has happened has happened. And the way out of this disappointment is the way through marked by the road signs of freedom. Man is born to disappointment as the sparks fly upward.
Faced with hard news, individuals and groups may respond in one of three ways: blame, deny, ignore. Who is at fault? It cannot be true. True it is, but it does not matter. “This is her fault.” “Things are fine, you are mistaken.” “Oh, that doesn’t matter.”
Yet this Gospel offers freedom following disappointment. Freedom in emotion and confidence and vision.
Have you looked recently at your emotional life? Spelunking in among the damp stalactites and dank stalagmites of the visceral cave of emotion can bring exhilarating freedom. Have you shown a flashlight on anger, fear, sorrow, or joy lately? Emotion fires freedom.
So does confidence. What you lose in Christ in certainty, you more than recover in confidence. Confidence is born of obedience, the obedience of faith.
One of our greatest lasting disappointments is the hard truth that the past is immutable. What is done is done.
My cyclist friend went over his handlebars head first at twenty miles an hour. As he tumbled forward into bone breaking pain he thought, “This cannot be happening. Where is the rewind button on this tape?” But facts are stubborn things, as John Adams said.
One man begins his group meeting by bowing his head and saying softly, “I always wanted a better past.” After a moment, he raises his head and affirms, “Now I have a better past, one day at a time.”
You cannot change the past and all its disappointment. But you can live in freedom from the past, by honestly facing it, and moving on.
Here is good news! John faced disappointment and so can we. John admitted disappointment and so can we. John replaced disappointment over the past with the freedom to decide for a new future. John had the courage fully to face the delay in Christ’s return, the disappointment of the earliest church’s highest hope. That same courage became the heart of his gospel: the courage to be, in freedom. This same courage can become yours as well.
A global village needs this for salvation: a global village green, full of grace and freedom.
Here is the point of John’s plundering of the Gnostics: the Gnostic dualism of fate has become a dualism of decision.
Faith’s freedom from the world is the decision, the choice, the selection, the predilection, the preferential option to love.
These things are spoken that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life in his name.
This week you can choose to grow in faith, and so find a fuller part of your second identity. This week you can choose to grow in love, and so open a fuller part of the world’s imagination.
Faith is personal commitment to an unverifiable truth. It involves a leap.
Faith is an objective uncertainty grasped with subjective certainty. It involves a leap.
Faith is the way to salvation, a real identity and a rich imagination. But it does involve a leap. Now is the time to jump.
Love is faith’s freedom in the world.
Love is faith’s freedom from the world.
Love is faith’s freedom to transform the world
All of us are better when we are loved.
Notes from Raymond Brown’s Lectures on John
Union Theological Seminary
Spring 1978
March 14, 1978: Nicodemus
This brings us to the problem of inadequate Christians, or “crypto-Christians.” These are probably also baptized, confessing Christians whose faith John still does not trust. In the midst of this question of adequate faith, Nicodemus will arrive on the scene. For John, Nicodemus’ faith is not wrong, it is just not adequate. In John’s mind, Jesus is the only one ever to have come from God. The Nicodemus dialogue may be a description of the form of Christianity which John opposes.
Jesus was certainly a teacher, but that is just not enough. These titles are wrong if you stop there. Jesus was more than a teacher. Ignatius always worries about those within Jewish Christianity who think of Jesus as a great teacher, but not as the Word spoken from God’s Silence. But there is hope left for Nicodemus, who is “coming out of the night and into the light.”
How do we enter the Kingdom of Heaven? You must become like a little child? Those who are more dependent are more open. Those who are independent are less open. Utter dependence: you must be begotten by God. Here baptism, as with Paul, is an imitation of Christ. To born again or to be born from above is radical! But our questions were not in the author’s mind. The sacraments are visible things which serve to represent invisible things. Eternal life is God’s own life given to human beings, and you cannot be a “child” without that gift. It is a divine begetting. For Augustine “unless” meant there was no exception. His logical conclusion was therefore that “all must be baptized” and therefore little children unbaptized are in “limbo.” Now, did John ever think of such a problem? Probably not. One principle involves human life from a human parent. God’s life comes from God. But this is not universal. American Protestant individualism therefore reads this individualistically, “God is my personal savior.” But a first century Jewish author would never have thought in any other way than thinking about the “salvation of a whole people.” The real issue is: how do you become a part of a saved people? Answer: by being born from above.
There is a parallel in Luke 18:18. A member of the Sanhedrin asks about eternal life. Matthew 25 is another example. Born Again: this refers to a divine engendering. Male or female? Nicodemus however misunderstands both words. The Greek word anothen: from above or again? Nicodemus thinks “again” but John means “from above” (though early Christians did themselves speak so). One enters by divine action. This is the main point. Why God’s people? Because God has chosen his people. The sense and meaning of grace has changed. The divine begetting creates people of God and children of God.
Here the Gnostic background is possible. True life in John’s sense does go in a Gnostic direction. “By nature divine”—this is Gnostic. But is John saying that? No. Rather, we become children of God through God’s graciousness. Now the immortal soul was later deemed naturally immortal. This is immortality from creation. Not in John. Natural birth is “of the flesh.” This is not pejorative, but in itself it cannot reach to God.
1. Begetting. 2. Breathing upon. Spirit. Breath. Wind. God is breathing again. The ancients would have been likely to take this far more literally than do we. John has no such sense of a giant sacramental system working through the chapters of the Gospel. Baptism is your eternal birth. Water from within is what brings the baptism, making present a particular action of God. You feed things through the Eucharist. How does this fit into John’s conception of Jesus? Jesus is the source of God’s life. The life giver, in and through all the sacraments, is Jesus. In the Nicodemus story, John is talking to both insiders and outsiders.
The play on words, spirit and wind is central. There is different lighting at different points in this scene. “We testify to what we know.” John 3:13: Elijah and Elisha are being attacked (along with Enoch and Moses) here. Or are they? Elijah went up to heaven. What about the horses and chariots? Can anyone go into God’s presence? Some say