He smiled back. ‘Possible. But not probable. Look, let’s not spoil tonight with such talk. Let’s just eat some wonderful food together and drink this wonderful champagne. I want to get you delightfully tipsy so that I can take you back upstairs and have my truly wicked way with you.’
Although Tara’s stomach flipped at the prospect, she stayed calm on the surface, suspecting that Max was watching her for her reaction. As much as she was curious, she wasn’t sure if the reality would be as exciting as the fantasy. And even if it was, what about the consequences? Did she really want Max thinking she would do anything he asked? What next?
‘You think that’s the answer to my co-operation?’ she asked coolly. ‘Getting me drunk?’
‘Is it?’
‘I hope not.’
‘Then how about this?’ And he extracted a small gold velvet box from his pocket.
Tara stared at the ring-sized box.
An engagement ring. He’d bought her an engagement ring. He was going to ask her to marry him!
The shot of adrenalin which instantly charged through her bloodstream made a mockery of her denial to her mother that marriage to Max was not what she wanted at this moment in her life.
Clearly, her body knew things which her brain did not.
‘Go on,’ he said, and reached over to put the gold box on the white tablecloth in front of her. ‘Open it.’
Something about the scenario suddenly didn’t fit Tara’s image of how a man like Max would ask her to marry him. It was all far too casual. He was far too casual.
She sucked in a deep breath, then let it out slowly, gathering herself before opening the box. When she did, and her eyes fell upon a huge topaz dress ring, she was ready to react as she was sure Max expected her to react, with seeming pleasure and gratitude.
‘Oh, Max, it’s lovely! Thank you so much.’
‘I knew it would match that dress. That’s why I wanted you to wear it tonight. Go on,’ he said eagerly. ‘Put it on. See if it fits.’
She slipped it on the middle finger of her right hand.
‘Perfect,’ she said, and held it out to show him. The diamond-cut stone sparkled under the candlelight. ‘But you really shouldn’t have, Max. You make me feel guilty that I didn’t buy you anything. I had no idea you were such a romantic.’
‘I think I’m catching the disease from you.’
‘I don’t know why you keep calling me a romantic.’
‘When a girl of your looks reaches twenty-four still a virgin then I know she’s a romantic.’
‘Maybe. Maybe not. I consider myself more of an idealist. I didn’t want to have sex till I really wanted it. I wasn’t waiting for love to strike so much as passion. Which it did. With you. I didn’t realise I was in love with you till the following morning. How long did it take till you realised you loved me?’
‘The moment you smiled at me in that shop I was a goner.’
‘Oh, Max, now who’s being the romantic?’
He smiled. ‘Aah, here comes Jarod to take our order. Let me order for you tonight, darling. Now that you’re breaking out in other ways, I think it’s time you tried some different foods.’
‘If you insist.’
He grinned. ‘I insist.’
Tara sat back and sipped her champagne whilst Max went to town with their meal order. He’d always liked ordering the rarest and most exotic foods on the menu for himself.
Clearly, Max was happier now with her than ever. Tara glanced down at the topaz ring and told herself it had been silly of her to want it to be an engagement ring.
Max was right. She was a romantic.
‘You don’t like it,’ Max said.
Tara glanced up to see that Jarod had departed and Max was looking at her with a worried frown.
‘Of course I do,’ she said with a quick smile. ‘It’s gorgeous.’
‘So what were you thinking about that made you look so wistful?’
She shrugged. ‘I guess I’d like to spend more time with the wonderful man who gave it to me.’
‘Your wish is my command, my darling. How would you like to quit that job of yours and come with me when I go overseas?’
Tara’s mouth dropped open.
‘I take it that stunned look on your face means a yes?’
‘I…I…Yes. Yes, of course. But Max, are you sure?’
‘I wouldn’t have asked you if I wasn’t sure.’
So why haven’t you asked me this before now?
The question zoomed into her mind like an annoying bee, buzzing around in her brain, searching for the truth. What had changed in their relationship that he suddenly wanted her with him all the time?
Tara hated the answer that would not be denied.
The sex. The sex between them had changed.
‘Why now, Max?’ she couldn’t stop herself asking whilst her stomach had tightened into a knot.
He shrugged. ‘Do you want the truth? Or romantic bulldust?’
‘Romantic bulldust, of course.’
He laughed. ‘OK. I love you. I love you so much that I can no longer stand leaving you behind when I go away. I want you with me, every day. I want you in my bed, every night. How’s that?’
‘Pretty good. Now how about the truth?’
Max looked at her and knew he would never tell her the truth, which was that he was afraid of losing her if he left her behind. He suspected she had never felt anything like she’d felt with him today. How, now, could he expect her to patiently wait for him to come home? She might not actively look for other lovers, but men would always pursue Tara…
‘The truth,’ he repeated, doing his best to look in command of the situation. ‘The truth is I love you, Tara. I love you so much I can’t stand the thought of leaving you behind when I go away. I want you with me, every day. I want you in my bed, every night.’
And wasn’t that the truth!
Tara tried not to burst into tears. She had a feeling that sobbing all over the place was not what Max wanted in a mistress. Because of course, if she did this, if she quit her job and let Max pay for everything whilst she travelled with him, that was what she would be. Possibly, that was all she would ever be. There was no guarantee their relationship would end in marriage, no matter how much Max said he loved her.
Still, there’d never been any guarantees of that. He’d never given her any. And he wasn’t giving her any now.
Tara thought of what her mother had said about how he would never give her what she wanted. Once again, she tried to pin down in her mind what she actually wanted from Max at this stage in her life. That ring business had rocked her a bit. Suddenly, she wasn’t at all sure. The only thing she was sure of was that she didn’t want to lose Max. Now more than ever.
‘I’ll have to give Whitmore’s two weeks’ notice,’ she said, her voice on the suddenly breathless side. Her heart was racing madly and her mouth had gone dry. ‘I can’t just leave them in the lurch. February is top tourist season for the Japanese.’
‘Fine. But what about next weekend? I have to go back to Auckland, negotiate with some owners there about a hotel. If I arrange plane tickets for you, would you