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Автор: Эмили Дикинсон
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then? Why, nothing, only,

       Your inference therefrom!

      XI.

       THE OUTLET.

       My river runs to thee:

       Blue sea, wilt welcome me?

       My river waits reply.

       Oh sea, look graciously!

       I'll fetch thee brooks

       From spotted nooks, —

       Say, sea,

       Take me!

      XII.

       IN VAIN.

       I cannot live with you,

       It would be life,

       And life is over there

       Behind the shelf

       The sexton keeps the key to,

       Putting up

       Our life, his porcelain,

       Like a cup

       Discarded of the housewife,

       Quaint or broken;

       A newer Sevres pleases,

       Old ones crack.

       I could not die with you,

       For one must wait

       To shut the other's gaze down, —

       You could not.

       And I, could I stand by

       And see you freeze,

       Without my right of frost,

       Death's privilege?

       Nor could I rise with you,

       Because your face

       Would put out Jesus',

       That new grace

       Glow plain and foreign

       On my homesick eye,

       Except that you, than he

       Shone closer by.

       They'd judge us — how?

       For you served Heaven, you know,

       Or sought to;

       I could not,

       Because you saturated sight,

       And I had no more eyes

       For sordid excellence

       As Paradise.

       And were you lost, I would be,

       Though my name

       Rang loudest

       On the heavenly fame.

       And were you saved,

       And I condemned to be

       Where you were not,

       That self were hell to me.

       So we must keep apart,

       You there, I here,

       With just the door ajar

       That oceans are,

       And prayer,

       And that pale sustenance,

       Despair!

      XIII.

       RENUNCIATION.

      There came a day at summer's full

       Entirely for me;

       I thought that such were for the saints,

       Where revelations be.

       The sun, as common, went abroad,

       The flowers, accustomed, blew,

       As if no soul the solstice passed

       That maketh all things new.

       The time was scarce profaned by speech;

       The symbol of a word

       Was needless, as at sacrament

       The wardrobe of our Lord.

       Each was to each the sealed church,

       Permitted to commune this time,

       Lest we too awkward show

       At supper of the Lamb.

       The hours slid fast, as hours will,

       Clutched tight by greedy hands;

       So faces on two decks look back,

       Bound to opposing lands.

       And so, when all the time had failed,

       Without external sound,

       Each bound the other's crucifix,

       We gave no other bond.

       Sufficient troth that we shall rise —

       Deposed, at length, the grave —

       To that new marriage, justified

       Through Calvaries of Love!

      XIV.

       LOVE'S BAPTISM.

       I'm ceded, I've stopped being theirs;

       The name they dropped upon my face

       With water, in the country church,

       Is finished using now,

       And they can put it with my dolls,

       My childhood, and the string of spools

       I've finished threading too.

       Baptized before without the choice,

       But this time consciously, of grace

       Unto supremest name,

       Called to my full, the crescent dropped,

       Existence's whole arc filled up

       With one small diadem.

       My second rank, too small the first,

       Crowned, crowing on my father's breast,

       A half unconscious queen;

       But this time, adequate, erect,

       With will to choose or to reject.

       And I choose — just a throne.

      XV.

       RESURRECTION.

       'T was a long parting, but the time

       For interview had come;

       Before the judgment-seat of God,

       The last and second time

       These fleshless lovers met,

       A heaven in a gaze,

       A heaven of heavens, the privilege

       Of one another's eyes.

       No lifetime set on them,

       Apparelled as the new

       Unborn, except they had beheld,

       Born everlasting now.

       Was bridal e'er like this?

       A paradise, the host,

       And cherubim and seraphim

       The most familiar guest.

      XVI.

       APOCALYPSE.

       I'm wife; I've finished that,

       That other state;

       I'm Czar, I'm woman now:

       It's safer so.

       How odd the girl's life looks

       Behind this soft eclipse!

       I think that earth seems so

       To those in heaven now.

       This being comfort, then

       That other kind was pain;

       But why compare?