Paul remembered that Clara Dawes was the daughter of an old friend of Mrs. Leivers. Miriam had sought her out because she had once been Spiral overseer at Jordan's, and because her husband, Baxter Dawes, was smith for the factory, making the irons for cripple instruments, and so on. Through her Miriam felt she got into direct contact with Jordan's, and could estimate better Paul's position. But Mrs. Dawes was separated from her husband, and had taken up Women's Rights. She was supposed to be clever. It interested Paul.
Baxter Dawes he knew and disliked. The smith was a man of thirty-one or thirty-two. He came occasionally through Paul's corner—a big, well-set man, also striking to look at, and handsome. There was a peculiar similarity between himself and his wife. He had the same white skin, with a clear, golden tinge. His hair was of soft brown, his moustache was golden. And he had a similar defiance in his bearing and manner. But then came the difference. His eyes, dark brown and quick-shifting, were dissolute. They protruded very slightly, and his eyelids hung over them in a way that was half hate. His mouth, too, was sensual. His whole manner was of cowed defiance, as if he were ready to knock anybody down who disapproved of him—perhaps because he really disapproved of himself.
From the first day he had hated Paul. Finding the lad's impersonal, deliberate gaze of an artist on his face, he got into a fury.
“What are yer lookin' at?” he sneered, bullying.
The boy glanced away. But the smith used to stand behind the counter and talk to Mr. Pappleworth. His speech was dirty, with a kind of rottenness. Again he found the youth with his cool, critical gaze fixed on his face. The smith started round as if he had been stung.
“What'r yer lookin' at, three hap'orth o' pap?” he snarled.
The boy shrugged his shoulders slightly.
“Why yer—!” shouted Dawes.
“Leave him alone,” said Mr. Pappleworth, in that insinuating voice which means, “He's only one of your good little sops who can't help it.”
Since that time the boy used to look at the man every time he came through with the same curious criticism, glancing away before he met the smith's eye. It made Dawes furious. They hated each other in silence.
Clara Dawes had no children. When she had left her husband the home had been broken up, and she had gone to live with her mother. Dawes lodged with his sister. In the same house was a sister-in-law, and somehow Paul knew that this girl, Louie Travers, was now Dawes's woman. She was a handsome, insolent hussy, who mocked at the youth, and yet flushed if he walked along to the station with her as she went home.
The next time he went to see Miriam it was Saturday evening. She had a fire in the parlour, and was waiting for him. The others, except her father and mother and the young children, had gone out, so the two had the parlour together. It was a long, low, warm room. There were three of Paul's small sketches on the wall, and his photo was on the mantelpiece. On the table and on the high old rosewood piano were bowls of coloured leaves. He sat in the armchair, she crouched on the hearthrug near his feet. The glow was warm on her handsome, pensive face as she kneeled there like a devotee.
“What did you think of Mrs. Dawes?” she asked quietly.
“She doesn't look very amiable,” he replied.
“No, but don't you think she's a fine woman?” she said, in a deep tone,
“Yes—in stature. But without a grain of taste. I like her for some things. IS she disagreeable?”
“I don't think so. I think she's dissatisfied.”
“What with?”
“Well—how would you like to be tied for life to a man like that?”
“Why did she marry him, then, if she was to have revulsions so soon?”
“Ay, why did she!” repeated Miriam bitterly.
“And I should have thought she had enough fight in her to match him,” he said.
Miriam bowed her head.
“Ay?” she queried satirically. “What makes you think so?”
“Look at her mouth—made for passion—and the very setback of her throat—” He threw his head back in Clara's defiant manner.
Miriam bowed a little lower.
“Yes,” she said.
There was a silence for some moments, while he thought of Clara.
“And what were the things you liked about her?” she asked.
“I don't know—her skin and the texture of her—and her—I don't know—there's a sort of fierceness somewhere in her. I appreciate her as an artist, that's all.”
“Yes.”
He wondered why Miriam crouched there brooding in that strange way. It irritated him.
“You don't really like her, do you?” he asked the girl.
She looked at him with her great, dazzled dark eyes.
“I do,” she said.
“You don't—you can't—not really.”
“Then what?” she asked slowly.
“Eh, I don't know—perhaps you like her because she's got a grudge against men.”
That was more probably one of his own reasons for liking Mrs. Dawes, but this did not occur to him. They were silent. There had come into his forehead a knitting of the brows which was becoming habitual with him, particularly when he was with Miriam. She longed to smooth it away, and she was afraid of it. It seemed the stamp of a man who was not her man in Paul Morel.
There were some crimson berries among the leaves in the bowl. He reached over and pulled out a bunch.
“If you put red berries in your hair,” he said, “why would you look like some witch or priestess, and never like a reveller?”
She laughed with a naked, painful sound.
“I don't know,” she said.
His vigorous warm hands were playing excitedly with the berries.
“Why can't you laugh?” he said. “You never laugh laughter. You only laugh when something is odd or incongruous, and then it almost seems to hurt you.”
She bowed her head as if he were scolding her.
“I wish you could laugh at me just for one minute—just for one minute. I feel as if it would set something free.”
“But”—and she looked up at him with eyes frightened and struggling—“I do laugh at you—I DO.”
“Never! There's always a kind of intensity. When you laugh I could always cry; it seems as if it shows up your suffering. Oh, you make me knit the brows of my very soul and cogitate.”
Slowly she shook her head despairingly.
“I'm sure I don't want to,” she said.
“I'm so damned spiritual with YOU always!” he cried.
She remained silent, thinking, “Then why don't you be otherwise.” But he saw her crouching, brooding figure, and it seemed to tear him in two.
“But, there, it's autumn,” he said, “and everybody feels like a disembodied spirit then.”
There was still another silence. This peculiar sadness between them thrilled her soul. He seemed so beautiful with his eyes gone dark, and looking as if they were deep as the deepest well.
“You make me so spiritual!” he lamented. “And I don't want to be spiritual.”
She took her finger from her mouth with a little pop, and looked up at him almost challenging. But still her soul was naked in her great dark eyes, and there was the same yearning appeal upon her. If he could