After being at the hospital for about an hour, the doctor came out and said, “I’m sorry, Mrs. Maxwell, but he didn’t make it.” The doctor said he died from a heart attack. Tammy was happy; she felt he got exactly what he deserved. They had a nice funeral for him even though he didn’t deserve it.
Two weeks later, Nikki and her mother moved to North Carolina. Tammy was hurt because she didn’t want her to go. Tammy was losing her best friend, but she felt happy because she knew Mr. Maxwell would never be able to hurt anyone again. Tammy cried because Nikki was gone. Tammy’s mother told her everything was going to be fine, that she would see Nikki again one day and that Nikki’s dad was in heaven with the rest of the angels. But Tammy knew God didn’t let him in, not after what he did to her. After that, Tammy never spoke of Nikki or Mrs. Maxwell again.
Chapter 2
When Tammy was thirteen years old, she was hanging out in clubs. Most of them were on Georgia Avenue in Washington, District of Columbia. So you know Tammy had it going on because by law, she wasn’t even old enough to be there, smoking, drinking, and even doing drugs. She was hanging out with grown people, some old enough to be her parents. But Tammy fit right in; the age wasn’t there but the maturity in mind and body was. She dated a lot of men. Once, she dated two guys that were brothers which caused a lot of problems. One of the brothers was very upset that he wanted to kill his own brother over her. But that didn’t bother Tammy at all; in fact, she felt damn good about it. Tammy knew she had it going on, being thirteen and having grown men fight over her, “I bet the girls in school never had that to happen with them.” So when Tammy went back to school on Monday, she had something to talk about, and it wasn’t just spending the night over a friend’s house. She was hanging out with grown men and had a boyfriend that was over twenty-one. Some of the girls didn’t believe Tammy when she would talk about her weekends, and some of the girls were jealous of her, which she didn’t care, but she brought pictures back to prove to them that she wasn’t lying.
As the years went by, Tammy had a lot of men in her life, no more boys for her, but she was never happy with just one sex partner. As time went on in the relationship, she became very bored with them, and she had to move on to new and more exciting things. On her eighteenth birthday, she went out to a club to celebrate the fact that she was a woman. Tammy had a couple of drinks to where she was feeling no pain. She met this guy named Fred; he was a very nice guy but a little strange. Tammy would see Fred every weekend when she would hang out uptown Northwest Washington, District of Columbia.
When Tammy was with Fred, that was when she finally found out what those girls in school were talking about all those years ago. Fred made her feel warm and tingly all over; he did things to Tammy that she never even dreamed of, things that she had only seen done in X-rated movies but had never experienced before. He went down on her and was licking her clit, and it felt so good to her. Tammy started feeling something warm on her butt, and her pussy was wet; she thought her period had come on.
Fred and Tammy dated for about eight months, and then, Tammy thought her world had come to an end after she got off from work; she was a receptionist at a doctor’s office in Lanham, Maryland. She wanted to surprise Fred since it was Valentine’s Day. She went by the store and brought some roses, strawberries, chocolate candy, and some champagne that was for dessert. And for dinner, Tammy brought two T-bone steaks, potatoes, corn on the cob, and everything that she needed for a salad. Tammy said that was all she needed from the store because everything else her baby needed, she had it for him. Then she was on her way to her baby’s place for a night of tasty food and a lot of love-making. It was no longer just sex; you see, Tammy loved Fred, and Fred loved her. Well, that’s what she thought until Tammy reached his apartment door, and she heard voices. One voice was Fred and the other was the voice of a woman, so Tammy sat the bags down, hoping that they wouldn’t hear her, and she took the key that Fred gave her to use when he wasn’t home to let herself in to his apartment. She left the bags outside the door, took her shoes off, and walked slowly to where the voices were coming from, the bedroom. She stood there listening to the man that she loved confess his love to another woman. Fred was telling her that he loved her and the baby that she was carrying, that he wanted nothing more but to make them a family. Tammy turned around with tears in her eyes and walked to the kitchen and got the largest knife she could find. She walked back to the bedroom door and busted in on them; they were having sex. Tammy asked him how he could do this to her. “How could you hurt me like this?” And that everything he told her was nothing but lies.
Then Tammy heard the woman ask Fred, “Who is this bitch and what is she doing here?”
Tammy told her that she was Fred’s woman, and she had her bitch. Fred told Tammy that they needed to talk. He said he was sorry, but he loved Tanisha and that she was carrying his baby. He told Tammy that she was a very nice girl, but he wasn’t in love with her, and if he led her on, he was sorry. Fred looked down at Tammy’s hand and saw she was holding a knife. He asked her what was she going to do with that knife? She told him, “If I can’t have you, then that bitch wouldn’t either.” Tammy stabbed Tanisha in the stomach seven times and told her here is your bitch.
Fred took the knife from Tammy, pushed her away from Tanisha’s dying body, and he cried holding her in his arms, telling her that he was sorry and that he loved her. He pleaded with her not to die, but she was already dead. Tammy told Fred that now they could be together. He turned around, got up off the floor, and smacked the shit out of her and told her that she would pay for this with the rest of her life.
Fred called the police, and Tammy was taken off to jail and charged with first degree murder. Tammy told Fred that she loved him and that she was sorry. She tried calling him from jail, but he wouldn’t accept her calls. The next time Tammy saw Fred was at her trial; he was a witness for the state. Her trial lasted about two weeks, and she was found guilty and sentenced to ten years in prison. She continued to call Fred, but still, he wouldn’t accept her calls; eventually, he had a block put on his phone. So Tammy wrote him a couple of letters, and they came back unopened. Fred finally wrote Tammy back. He called her every name in the book but a child of God. And he stated that if she didn’t leave him alone, he would have charges brought up against her. He told her that she was lower than dirt and that she took something from him that he could never get back, which was Tanisha and his unborn child.
Well, Tammy did what Fred asked of her; she left him alone for now. She must be on her best behavior so that she would have special privileges while she was incarcerated because she had to do whatever it took, so she could get out of this shit hole because she was not finished with Fred not by a long shot. Fred was the only man she ever loved, and he just used her. Well, Tammy said she was going to use his ass and see how he likes it. And when she finished using him, then she was going to make him pay. She had ten years to think about it, and she was going to get rid of his ass just like she did with Mr. Maxwell.
Chapter 3
Tammy sat in that hell hole everyday with no one to talk to; she was put in solitary confinement due to the fact that some of those stupid ass women, or should I say women wanting to be men, wanted to make her their little bitch. Tammy was in the shower minding her own business when she notice some of the women leaving the shower room, then a couple of big ugly ass women came into the shower room. The head leader of the bunch was Bertha; she was a big ugly bitch too. Bertha informed Tammy that she wanted her and that she was going to be her bitch. Tammy told Bertha to get the fuck out of her face, and Bertha slapped Tammy so hard all she saw were stars and heard the “Star-Spangled Banner.” Tammy grabbed her homemade knife out of her towel and cut that bitch across her face. Bertha will remember the day she asked Tammy to be her bitch. Okay, so Tammy got her ass whipped, but she didn’t feel that bad because the bruises will go away, but Bertha was marked for life.
The guard came in. Tammy was holding the knife, and that’s how she ended up in solitary confinement. She had been in there for two weeks, but it seemed like a month already. Well, after thirty days in the hole, Tammy finally saw daylight, and of all the people, she ended up in the cell with that big ass ugly Bertha and one of her girls. The first night, while she was sleeping, they got her and had their way with her.