Shoving a fistful of golden-blond fluff behind her ear, she turned away from her reflection. Perhaps if she just avoided any and all reflective surfaces, she could pretend she looked the way she always did—cool, elegant, in control. For some reason, it felt very important that Ben Cooper see her that way when he came on board tomorrow.
Ready to finish up for the day, she saw that someone had left a newspaper folded on a seat in the front row. Hoping against hope that it was a New York Times, Tory veered from her course to the door to pick it up. She saw immediately that it was a local weekly paper, the Island Gazette, but decided to read it anyway. It might not be quite the lifeline to the outside world that she’d been looking for, but it would do.
She didn’t see the photograph until she’d settled down in the bar with a glass of single-malt scotch on the rocks. She almost swallowed the whole lot in one gulp when she flicked the page over and saw the boy. There were a number of colorful shots making up the double-page spread on recent pre-Carnival parades on various islands. But her gaze flew to the central photograph—a shot of a delighted crowd cheering on a parade.
There, in the front row, his face turned toward the camera, was a small boy with bright blue eyes and dusky skin. Perhaps it was the startling blue of his eyes against his dark complexion or the fact that he was surrounded by dozens of brown-eyed, brown-skinned children or the fact that he seemed to be looking directly down the lens of the camera. Whatever it was, it made the breath catch in the back of her throat, and she sucked in too much whisky as she tried to recover. She coughed till her eyes watered, the paper rattling in her hands, and she brushed the tears away impatiently. It was dark in the Emperor’s Club, the very masculine cigar bar she’d chosen to enjoy her drink, and no matter how she angled the paper, she couldn’t get enough light on the image. She surged abruptly to her feet and strode out into the corridor, then stopped to stare intently at the photograph under the brighter light.
Blue eyes. A small, neat nose. Dark brown curly hair. A cleft chin. And…She peered closer and a chill stole up her spine. Just visible on the side of the boy’s neck was a birthmark.
Her head shot up, and she glanced first left and then right, trying to get her bearings. She was on the sixth deck, one level above her own. Feeling a strange compulsion, she found the nearest staircase and wove her way through the corridors back to her cabin.
The instant she was in her room she booted up her laptop and scrolled through her digital library until she found her folder of family snaps. She’d scanned in a bunch of images from old family albums a while ago, liking the idea of having them easily accessible no matter where she went. The shot she’d been looking for filled the screen as she double-clicked on it. Her heart pounding stupidly against her rib cage, Tory compared the two faces—the little boy from the paper and the little boy on her computer screen. The similarity between the two was uncanny. Same nose. Same chin. Same eyes. Same birthmark.
The boy in the crowd, whoever he was, was the spitting image of her twin brother, Michael, at age seven.
She knew it could just be a coincidence. Lots of people had blue eyes, even among the islanders, where brown was the predominant color. Plenty of people had cleft chins, too, although it was a reasonably rare genetic trait. But the birthmark…Her eyes traveled from the newspaper photograph of the boy to the old shot of her brother. Just visible against the neckline of Michael’s T-shirt was the dull red of a port-wine-colored birthmark. The same birthmark that her father had and her grandfather before him and his father before him. It was a Fournier family legacy, that birthmark, passed on from father to son for more generations than anyone could remember.
So what was it doing on the neck of this blue-eyed, smiling boy?
Her gaze dropped to the caption beneath the photograph. Crowds welcome the arrival of Carnival season, it read. She felt a ridiculous sense of disappointment. What had she expected, after all—that the boy’s name would be there, listed alongside everyone else in the crowd?
Tossing the newspaper onto her bed, Tory ran her fingers through her unruly mop of hair. What she was thinking was crazy. Surely it was. There was no way that boy in the photograph could be her brother’s son.
And yet…
She remembered the way her eyes had zeroed in on him right from the start. The jolt of recognition she’d felt when she’d looked into his face. He looked so much like Michael. And that birthmark…What if he was Michael’s son? What if there was still a piece of her brother alive in the world, a living legacy? Tears burned at the back of her eyes at the thought. Michael’s son. It would be amazing. A miracle. A gift.
Suddenly the utter absurdity of what she was contemplating hit her, and she recalled her mother’s parting words at the airport: “I hope you can let go of him at last, Tory. You can’t carry all that sadness around with you forever.”
She scrubbed her face with her hands, then shook her head at her own thoughts.
What she’d been thinking was impossible. Too crazy. Too convenient. An artifact of her inability to move on from the loss of her twin, nothing else. For eight years she’d missed him every single day. But it was time to move on. What had just happened showed her that beyond a doubt.
You’re here to say goodbye, not build castles in the air, she reminded herself.
Snatching up the newspaper, she tossed it in the bin. Moment of craziness gone, she assured herself. Never to be seen again.
Except that night she dreamed of Michael.
They were standing on a beach, the sand stretching away on either side of them, endless, limitless, the water in front of them a bright, crystal blue. Michael was crying, a lone tear sliding down his sun-tanned cheek, his arms held before him in bewilderment, as though something had just been taken from him and he couldn’t quite believe it.
She ran to his side, threw her arms around him, welcomed him back. But it was as though he couldn’t hear or see or feel her. He just kept staring at his outstretched, beseeching arms.
“Where is he? I’ve lost him,” he said, and her heart broke at how shattered he sounded.
“Who have you lost, Michael?” she asked, trying to make him acknowledge her. “Tell me.”
But he turned away from her and walked away.
“Where is he?” she heard him yell at the sea, his voice half angry, half fearful.
And then she woke up.
She was damp with perspiration, her face wet with tears. Kicking herself free of her tangled sheets, she staggered into her bathroom and flicked on the light. She looked terrible—puffy-eyed, shaken.
“It’s just a stupid dream,” she told her reflection.
But the memory of it stayed with her and kept her staring at the ceiling until her alarm went off at seven.
She sat up and saw the chef’s whites she’d laid out the night before. Today was the day Ben Cooper came aboard. So much for feeling cool and in control and elegant. She’d had next to no sleep, her hair was a disaster and she was feeling more vulnerable than she’d felt in years.
Great, she thought sourly. Way to go, Tory.
He was going to take one look at her with those cocky, all-seeing eyes of his and know he had her whipped before he even started.
BEN SET OUT HAPPILY enough for his one week sojourn aboard Alexandra’s Dream, flying out of the airport on the neighboring island of St. Maarten early in the morning. His good mood lasted until he spotted Monty Blackman as he disembarked into the airport terminal on St. Bart’s. The man stood out like a sore thumb with his garishly bright shirt in hot-pink and lime-green stripes and his baby-blue golf pants. Was the guy color-blind?