She felt the angry heat as it flooded her cheeks. “What are you talking about? I left—you, my job and Seattle. I didn’t run away. And I certainly am not going anywhere now. This is my home. Especially now that I’ve found my family here.”
“Just don’t. Because I’ll find you. You know I will.”
She did know. But so what? She had zero intention of running off, so his point was totally moot. “I like it here,” she insisted, hoping it might get through this time. “I’m going nowhere.” She wrapped her arms around herself against the night chill and cast a longing glance toward the warmth and light beyond the threshold. “Are you coming in?”
“Not now,” he replied, so imperious he set her teeth on edge. He spoke at her more than to her and he stared over her shoulder instead of meeting her eyes. She wondered as she’d wondered a thousand times, why, of all the men in all the world, had she gone and given her heart to Marcus Reid?
Probably her upbringing—or lack of one. Her mother had put her in the foster care system when she was a baby. And her father, the notorious kidnapper, murderer and serial husband, Blake Bravo? He’d been long gone by the time Hayley was born. Unavailable. That was the word for dear old dad. Unavailable in the most thorough sense of the word.
Which, she supposed, made it not the least surprising that she’d chosen an emotionally unavailable man to love.
“All right, then,” she said. “Since you won’t come in, good night.” She started to turn toward the haven of her apartment.
But then he muttered distractedly, “I need to think. Then we’ll talk.”
She faced him once more. “That’s fine with me.” Though what, exactly, they would talk about was beyond her. What more was there to say? Not much. Not until after the baby was born, when they could discuss fun topics like custody and child support.
Oh, God. She dreaded all that. And she’d been avoiding facing what she dreaded.
Because she understood Marcus well enough to know that he’d never turn his back on his child. Even though he’d always insisted he didn’t want children, now he was actually having one, everything would change. He was going to be responsible for a child. And Marcus Reid took his responsibilities with absolute seriousness.
He left at last. She went inside and shut the door and ordered her pulse to stop racing, her heart to stop bouncing around under her breastbone.
Marcus knew her secret now. Getting all worked up over the situation wasn’t going to make him go away.
Chapter Three
Marcus,
I don’t know where to start. So I guess I’ll just put it right out there. If you’re reading this it’s because you’re a father. I’ve just had your baby and this letter has been mailed to you because the baby is born and doing fine. The sticker on the envelope should tell you whether it’s a boy or a girl.
I’m so sorry. I know you’re furious with me about now. I don’t blame you. I should have told you before I left Seattle, but…well, I just couldn’t make myself do it.
So you’re learning this way. In a letter.
Try not to hate me too much.
Try not to hate me too much….
Marcus read that sentence over twice. And then a third time.
After that, he loosened his tie. Then he dropped back across the hotel room bed and stared at the attractively coffered ceiling and thought how she was wrong: he didn’t hate her. True, what he felt for Hayley right then wasn’t pretty. It was fury and frustration and a certain wounded possessiveness all mixed up together.
But hate? Uh-uh. He wished he did hate her. It would make everything so much simpler.
He raised the letter and read the rest. She’d listed the address and phone number of the hospital she would be using. And also the information he already had—her own address and number.
She wrote at the bottom:
Try to understand. I realize this isn’t what you wanted. I swear I was careful. I guess just not careful enough.
Hayley
That was it. All of it. It wasn’t much more information than he’d already had.
He balled up the letter, raised his arm and tossed the thing into the corner wastebasket. Slam dunk.
What the hell to do now?
He was due back in Seattle tomorrow, for a series of meetings, the first of which he had on his schedule for 11:00 a.m. His company was poised for a big move into the Central California market. They were high priority, those meetings.
But then again, so was the kid he’d just found out he was having.
And so was Hayley. She needed him now, whether her pride would let her admit that or not.
Still flat on his back across the bed, he grabbed his PDA off the nightstand and dialed—with his thumb, from memory. She answered on the second ring.
“’Lo?” Her voice was husky, reminding him of other nights, of the scent and the feel of her, all soft and drowsy, in his bed.
“You were already asleep.” He didn’t mean it to come out sounding like an accusation, but he supposed that it did.
“Marcus.” She sighed. “What?”
“I’m flying out at 6:00 a.m. tomorrow. I’ve got meetings in Seattle I can’t get out of.”
“You’ve always got meetings you can’t get out of. It’s fine. I told you. I don’t expect—”
“I’ll clear my calendar in the next couple of days. Then I’ll come back.”
“You don’t have to do that.”
“Yeah. I do. We both know I do. I’ll see you. Thursday. Friday at the latest. If you need me before then, call me on my cell. You still have the number?”
A silence, then, “I have it.”
“When’s the baby due?”
“January eighth.”
“You’re not working, are you?” He heard rustling, pictured her sitting up in bed, all rumpled and droopy-eyed, her hair tangled from sleep. “Hayley?”
Reluctantly, she answered, “Yes. I’m still working.”
“You shouldn’t be. And now you’ve finally told me about the baby, you don’t need to be. I’ll make arrangements right away.”
“Give me money, you mean.” She sounded downright bleak. She’d damn well better not try refusing his money. “I’m managing just fine. I like working and I feel great and I’m going to stay on the job until—”
“Quit. Tomorrow.”
“Uh. Excuse me. But this is my life you’re suddenly running. Don’t.”
“I’m only saying—”
“Don’t.”
He had no idea where she worked, or what she did there. His own fault. He’d just had to play it noble seven months ago, which meant only allowing the detective to get the basic information.
So that now he was forced to ask, “Where do you work, anyway?”
“I’m an office manager. For a small catering company. There’s the owner, the chef, the dishwasher and me. We’re in a storefront off of K Street. Around the Corner Catering. We do a pretty brisk business, actually. We’re hooked up with a staffing agency so we offer full service. Not only the food, but the staff, from setup to cleanup.”
“A