“That’s incense,” she said, trying to focus on her task. “Scents are mental cues, bringing direct sensation to the brain. Just breathe it in like this.” She took a deep breath, then burst out coughing. Okay, maybe she’d lit a couple too many cones. Her eyes watered.
Nathan picked up three of the smoking cones, moistened his finger and extinguished them. “Before the fire department gets here, okay?”
“If you insist.” Cough, cough. “Now sit on the mat, and we can get started.”
He obeyed her, sitting across from her, his legs crossed in a decent imitation of her lotus position. Great definition on those legs.
“So, what did you decide? You going to let me help you?”
He gave her a look that made her nervous. He had something up his sleeve. “On one condition.”
Uh-oh. “What’s that?”
“That you work with me at Cactus Confections.”
“What?”
“Just assist me. I’ll show you the business and what I do and let you get a feel for the place.”
“I told you I won’t stay.”
“Think of it as research so you can help your dad hire my replacement.”
“That’s ridiculous, Nathan. We don’t need your replacement because you’ll be staying.”
“I think you’ll like it.”
“No way.”
“Take it or leave it. I’ll do what you want if you’ll do what I want. Even steven.” His blue eyes crackled at her.
“Even steven? That’s so high school.”
“Maybe so, but that’s how it’s gotta be.” His jaw was firm.
Okay, what would it hurt? She’d take a tour, admire the place for Nathan’s benefit while she straightened out his life. “You drive a hard bargain, Nathan Goodman.”
“I’m a businessman.” He waved at the lingering smoke. “And you set a mean fire.”
“Very funny.”
“Okay, how does this go?” He closed his eyes and said, “Ommmm.”
“If you’re going to make fun, then forget it.”
“Sorry.” He grinned mischievously at her.
“We’ve got to tap into your intuitive sense of what you need. It’s a mind-body-spirit thing. Right now, you’re all up in your mind. We need to engage your spirit and your body. Get all your parts working together.”
He pretended to ponder the idea. “Get my parts working together, huh?” There was a crackle of sexual interest in his eyes that she chose to ignore.
“We’ll start with meditation, then yoga, which should free your energy and increase your awareness. Then, we’ll…well, we’ll go from there.” She wouldn’t mention Gestalt therapy yet. Or his inner child.
“And you’ll come with me to the factory, right?”
“As long as you do what I say.”
“Yes, O Mistress of the Soul Search. Your wish is my command.” He pretended to salaam.
“Nathan,” she warned, fighting a smile. She hadn’t seen the playful side of him during their short weeks of courtship. He’d been so serious then. They both had been. He’d been just starting his career and she’d been trying not to blow it with him. Plus, they’d been so hot for each other that most of their time was spent making out, while resisting the hunger to go further. Nathan had thought they should wait because she was so young, and he wanted her to be “ready,” whatever that meant. And then, after he’d proposed, he’d wanted to wait until they were married. It had been so sweet…and sexy. Very sexy.
“So, let’s get meditating,” Nathan said, bringing her back to the present.
“Oh. Okay.” She had to stay focused. “Close your eyes and I’ll lead you through a visualization. Just follow along. If a thought comes into your mind, notice it, then let it go.”
“Okay.”
His broad chest rose and fell, his breathing deep and even. The muscles of his chest and legs rippled a little as he swayed slightly. Even his feet looked strong….
“Now what?” he asked, opening his eyes, catching her staring.
“Oh, um, where was I? Oh, yes. Close your eyes again.” The truth was, she’d never been that great at meditation, even when she wasn’t staring at a gorgeous, nearly-naked man. She found it impossible to slow her mind or settle it on one idea. She loved the music, the candles and the calm, even if the serenity of the experience didn’t last more than a few moments for her.
“Take a deep breath in through your nose, then blow it out slowly through your mouth, counting to seven slowly. Let your cares flow out with your breath. Slow, slow, let it flow out, disappear on the air…Going, going, gone.” She watched him breath out slowly, exactly as she’d instructed. God, he was handsome. Focus, she told herself. “Your breath removes toxins from your body. Now you must remove toxins from your thoughts….”
NATHAN DID what Mariah told him to do—sucking in air and blowing it out. He was more aware, all right. More aware of Mariah. He could smell her, even over the smoky incense and the cloying scent of the candles, and could practically hear her breathing.
“Now, imagine yourself in a peaceful place,” she said in that sexy voice of hers, velvet against his ears. “Absolutely serene. Nothing but pleasant sensations.”
Pleasant sensations, huh? In his mind, he moved to his pool. Cool water, soft motion. Very pleasant. Except then Mariah appeared in a tiny bikini, looking almost edible. Mmm, even more pleasant. She dived to him, all wet and wild. Soon that perfect mouth was doing something way more interesting than whispering in his ear. Oops, he was getting an erection. Did it show? He hoped to hell Mariah had her eyes closed.
He cleared his throat, and tried to think about baseball, or burning a batch of prickly-pear jelly, or bungling his tax return. Anything to stop his body from revealing its response to his meditation on Mariah.
It was no use. “I’m not getting anywhere with this,” he said, his voice raspy. “Maybe we should do something more active. Like jog a couple miles.” Or ice-cold showers.
“Relax, Nathan. It takes time to develop your ability to focus. Be patient. Whatever comes up for you, release it.”
He wasn’t about to “release” what had “come up” for him, that was for sure.
“Let your mind carry you to a place you’d like to be,” Mariah purred.
Instantly he went there—in bed with Mariah, with those trim legs wrapped around his back. Oops. He jumped to his feet. “I need water.” Ice water, strategically applied.
“No coffee, now, remember?” Mariah called to his retreating back. His retreating, muscled back, and his tight butt and strong thighs. At least she’d have a few seconds away from all that raw manhood. She’d hardly been able to keep words coming out of her mouth for the animal awareness she felt. Being this close to him made her whole body—scalp to soles—tingle.
On the other hand, her plan seemed to be working. Already, he was bored out of his mind, asking to do something more physical, jumping up for a drink of water.
In a moment he was back. “So, let’s move on to that yoga thing,” he said brusquely, slopping water as he gulped it down. “Something with movement to it.”
“Okay, but tomorrow we’ll try this again and you can build up your tolerance. Meditation is key to your self-discovery.”
He muttered something