The girl shivered. ‘I know, Ray—I know.’
He gave a sudden short, bitter laugh.
‘People would say we were crazy—not to be able just to walk out—’
Carol said slowly: ‘Perhaps we—are crazy!’
‘I dare say. Yes, I dare say we are. Anyway, we soon shall be…I suppose some people would say we are already—here we are calmly planning, in cold blood, to kill our own mother!’
Carol said sharply: ‘She isn’t our own mother!’
‘No, that’s true.’
There was a pause and then Raymond said, his voice now quietly matter-of-fact: ‘You do agree, Carol?’
Carol answered steadily: ‘I think she ought to die—yes…’
Then she broke out suddenly: ‘She’s mad…I’m quite sure she’s mad…She—she couldn’t torture us like she does if she were sane. For years we’ve been saying: “This can’t go on!” and it has gone on! We’ve said, “She’ll die some time”—but she hasn’t died! I don’t think she ever will die unless—’
Raymond said steadily: ‘Unless we kill her…’
‘Yes.’
She clenched her hands on the window-sill in front of her.
Her brother went on in a cool, matter-of-fact tone, with just a slight tremor denoting his deep underlying excitement.
‘You see why it’s got to be one of us, don’t you? With Lennox, there’s Nadine to consider. And we couldn’t bring Jinny into it.’
Carol shivered.
‘Poor Jinny…I’m so afraid…’
‘I know. It’s getting pretty bad, isn’t it? That’s why something’s got to be done quickly—before she goes right over the edge.’
Carol stood up suddenly, pushing back the tumbled chestnut hair from her forehead.
‘Ray,’ she said, ‘you don’t think it’s really wrong, do you?’
He answered in that same would-be dispassionate tone. ‘No. I think it’s just like killing a mad dog—something that’s doing harm in the world and must be stopped. This is the only way of stopping it.’
Carol murmured: ‘But they’d—they’d send us to the chair just the same…I mean we couldn’t explain what she’s like…It would sound fantastic…In a way, you know, it’s all in our own minds!’
Raymond said: ‘Nobody will ever know. I’ve got a plan. I’ve thought it all out. We shall be quite safe.’
Carol turned suddenly round on him.
‘Ray—somehow or another—you’re different. Something’s happened to you…What’s put all this into your head?’
‘Why should you think anything’s happened to me?’
He turned his head away, staring out into the night.
‘Because it has…Ray, was it that girl on the train?’
‘No, of course not—why should it be? Oh, Carol, don’t talk nonsense. Let’s get back again to—to—’
‘To your plan? Are you sure it’s a—good plan?’
‘Yes. I think so…We must wait for the right opportunity, of course. And then—if it goes all right—we shall be free—all of us.’
‘Free?’ Carol gave a little sigh. She looked up at the stars. Then suddenly she shook from head to foot in a sudden storm of weeping.
‘Carol, what’s the matter?’
She sobbed out brokenly: ‘It’s so lovely—the night and the blueness and the stars. If only we could be part of it all…If only we could be like other people instead of being as we are—all queer and warped and wrong.’
‘But we shall be—all right—when she’s dead!’
‘Are you sure? Isn’t it too late? Shan’t we always be queer and different?’
‘No, no, no.’
‘I wonder—’
‘Carol, if you’d rather not—’
She pushed his comforting arm aside.
‘No, I’m with you—definitely I’m with you! Because of the others—especially Jinny. We must save Jinny!’
Raymond paused a moment. ‘Then—we’ll go on with it?’
‘Yes!’
‘Good. I’ll tell you my plan…’
He bent his head to hers.
Miss Sarah King, M.B., stood by the table in the writing-room of the Solomon Hotel in Jerusalem, idly turning over the papers and magazines. A frown contracted her brows and she looked preoccupied.
The tall middle-aged Frenchman who entered the room from the hall watched her for a moment or two before strolling up to the opposite side of the table. When their eyes met, Sarah made a little gesture of smiling recognition. She remembered that this man had come to help her when travelling from Cairo and had carried one of her suitcases at a moment when no porter appeared to be available.
‘You like Jerusalem, yes?’ asked Dr Gerard after they had exchanged greetings.
‘It’s rather terrible in some ways,’ said Sarah, and added: ‘Religion is very odd!’
The Frenchman looked amused.
‘I know what you mean.’ His English was very nearly perfect. ‘Every imaginable sect squabbling and fighting!’
‘And the awful things they’ve built, too!’ said Sarah.
‘Yes, indeed.’
Sarah sighed.
‘They turned me out of one place today because I had on a sleeveless dress,’ she said ruefully. ‘Apparently the Almighty doesn’t like my arms in spite of having made them.’
Dr Gerard laughed. Then he said: ‘I was about to order some coffee. You will join me, Miss—?’
‘King, my name is. Sarah King.’
‘And mine—permit me.’ He whipped out a card. Taking it, Sarah’s eyes widened in delighted awe.
‘Dr Theodore Gerard? Oh! I am excited to meet you. I’ve read all your works, of course. Your views on schizophrenia are frightfully interesting.’
‘Of course?’ Gerard’s eyebrows rose inquisitively.
Sarah explained rather diffidently.
‘You see—I’m by way of being a doctor myself. Just got my M.B.’
‘Ah! I see.’
Dr Gerard ordered coffee and they sat down in a corner of the lounge. The Frenchman was less interested in Sarah’s medical achievements than in the black hair that rippled back from her forehead and the beautifully shaped red mouth. He was amused at the obvious awe with which she regarded him.
‘You are staying here long?’ he asked conversationally.
‘A few days. That is all. Then I want to go to Petra.’
‘Aha! I, too, was thinking