True Colors. Diana Palmer

his mother. He’d humbled and exalted her, and she’d been too much in love and too weak to resist him. She hadn’t known that Tony and Myrna had sold her out. She’d given in because she loved him, because she thought he was in love with her, too. But he hadn’t been. Ever. It had all been a means to an end. He’d only wanted her.

      “I remember,” she said, stiffening as he drew her against his body. “Let go of me.”

      His voice deepened. “That isn’t what you want.”

      “It’s what your mother wants,” she replied, playing the only card she had left. She hoped that it would divert him, because her body was betraying her. It had been so many years since she’d been with Cy. She wanted him until it hurt, but she didn’t dare give in.

      He hesitated, and she pulled back.

      “Remember your mother, Cy?” she asked coldly. “Nothing’s changed. She still hates me.”

      “She doesn’t have to love a woman I sleep with,” he said, resorting to cruelty as frustration and pain gnawed at him.

      “But I’m not sleeping with you, Cy,” she said, holding her purse protectively over her sensitive breasts.

      He stood there, towering over her, struggling to breathe normally. It was just like before, just like old times. He was falling headlong into her web, and he wanted her so much that he couldn’t even save himself. He looked at her and ached like a boy.

      “Tell me you don’t want me, Meredith,” he said mockingly.

      She moved toward her door, fumbling in her purse for the key. “What I want doesn’t enter into it,” she said. Wearily, she unlocked the door and turned, her eyes big and sad in her tired face. He looked only a little less worn himself. “I don’t want that madness again, any more than you do. Go home, Cy. I’m sure your mother will be glad of the company.”

      “She didn’t come to see you, did she?” he probed. “That was a lie.”

      “It amazes me,” she said, searching his face. “Even now, you automatically think that if someone’s in the wrong, it must be me. Myrna should be proud. She’s taught you that the only truth is hers.”

      “At least she’s capable of it,” he replied.

      She smiled. “Once I thought you might love me,” she said. “But I knew the minute you sided with your mother that it was only desire. Love and trust are both sides of the same coin. One is nothing without the other.”

      He clenched his teeth. “You can’t accept the fact that my mother has any virtues, can you?”

      “You don’t know what she’s cost me,” she replied coldly, “because you don’t want to know the truth.” She smiled again. “Someday, you’ll have it. I swear you will. And when you know what she’s cost you, you’ll wish to God you’d listened to me. Good night, Cy.”

      She was inside with the door locked before he had time to reply. She wasn’t at all surprised to find that she was shaking.

      Outside, Cy strode back to his car, bristling with temper and frustration. As usual, she had him weak in the knees. She was just as much woman as she’d ever been, and his response to her was powerful, immediate.

      He fought himself out of the sensual fog by the time he got home, but something Meredith had said was disturbing him. You don’t know what your mother has cost you, she’d said. He frowned as he went into the house. Did she mean money? Or was it something intangible? Perhaps she meant her love. But he knew how treacherous she was. She’d betrayed him. Or had she?

      That was a thought he didn’t want to entertain. He passed the living room, still deep in thought.

      “Oh, you’re home,” Myrna said, rising from the sofa. “I waited up. You’ve been very preoccupied the past several days. I thought…you might want to talk.”

      “About what?” he shot at her.

      She swallowed. “About whatever’s bothering you.”

      He moved into the room, his dark eyes threatening. “Did you go to see Meredith?”

      That was a question she hadn’t wanted to answer. She could have lied, but what if one of the neighbors had seen her? It would be a risk to lie.

      “I…did,” she said finally.

      He scowled. “Why?”

      “You know I don’t approve of Meredith,” she said quickly. “I was only trying to convince her that bringing back old memories won’t help either of you. I asked her to go away.”

      “I gave her a job,” he reminded her.

      She twisted her hands together, her face tormented. “Oh, Cy, she’s not for you! Don’t make it worse.”

      “Make what worse?” he demanded. “What do you know that I don’t?”

      She actually paled. “Cy…”

      He moved forward, determined to get it out of her. Just as she panicked, the telephone rang, diverting him. Fortunately it was someone on business, and she excused herself quickly with a rushed “Good night.”

      By the time she got upstairs, her heart was beating her to death. It was like a nightmare. Why hadn’t she realized the implications of what she’d done all those years ago? Her chickens had come home to roost, now. She didn’t know how she was going to survive if she didn’t get Meredith out of town fast.