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© Sophie Crockett 2020
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Version: 2020-11-30
For Mammy – for always being there.
This book is dedicated to every woman who has been failed by the system. We are all survivors and must stand together.
‘I may not be a lion but I am a lion’s cub and I have a lion’s heart.’
Elizabeth I of England, Wales and Ireland
Recounting the events you are about to read has not been easy. As someone with Asperger syndrome and a sufferer of post-traumatic stress disorder, revisiting these episodes in my life has been a harrowing experience. Some events are like blocks in my head, others like a continuous flow. At times it has felt like someone else’s life, or a dark movie. In order to protect the identities of innocent parties, where appropriate, some of the names have been changed.
Contents
1 Cover
2 Title Page
3 Copyright
4 Dedication
5 Epigraph
6 Author’s Note
7 Contents
8 Prologue
9 Chapter 1
10 Chapter 2
11 Chapter 3
12 Chapter 4
13 Chapter 5
14 Chapter 6
15 Chapter 7
16 Chapter 8
17 Chapter 9
18 Chapter 10
19 Chapter 11
20 Chapter 12
21 Chapter 13
22 Chapter 14
23 Chapter 15
24 Chapter 16
25 Chapter 17
26 Chapter 18
27 Chapter 19
28 Epilogue
30 About the Publisher
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