I give a shrug. ‘Getting there.’ It’s not ideal to be this anxious to leave the wedding venue when I’ve barely been here half an hour. ‘What are you doing here anyway? I was coming to find you in the kitchen.’
Now her bump’s getting bigger, Bart’s nephew Kip, who is Lily’s new boyfriend, is supposed to be taking over Poppy’s wedding work here. And since Kip started work as wedding manager, and Poppy’s got more pregnant, she’s supposed to stay in the part of the farmhouse where she and Rafe live, for at least some of the time.
Poppy wrinkles her nose. ‘Kip and I are still in the hand-over phase. I’ve been working with Zoe all year to make today perfect. It’s hard to let go.’
Lily pulls a face. ‘We’d have to tether Poppy to the Aga to keep her away today.’
I sense I’m treading on proverbial eggshells here. ‘Zoe’s asking for spare cupcakes. Does that help at all?’
Poppy sighs and rubs her tummy. ‘Okay, we’ll have to go back to the kitchen for those. But remember, I’m not broken, I’m simply growing a small person.’ Poppy and Rafe have only known about their surprise baby for a couple of months, and it seems like they’re still catching up.
From the ease with which Lily chimes in, it’s an ongoing problem. ‘Eighteen hours on your feet at a wedding isn’t ideal when you’re this far pregnant, though.’
‘I’m fine. Most pregnant women these days go straight from work to the labour ward.’ Poppy brushes away Lily’s concern and nudges me towards the front door. ‘Come on, Holly, let’s get those cupcakes. The first rule of weddings – if the bride’s hungry, feed her. Otherwise she may explode.’
‘Great.’ I store that nugget for when Becky gets married. And make a mental note to forget it the day after.
As I follow Poppy outside and along to the part of the house she and Rafe live in, Immie is ahead of us in the courtyard, showing a group of early wedding guests towards the holiday cottages. It’s great to see so many of our friends all pulling together in such a brilliant team. The people where I work are more colleagues than friends, and we rarely go out after hours. I’m asking myself when Rose Hill became so buzzy? Or when my fabulous life in London became so quiet in comparison? Although even if it’s temporarily shrunk to nothing, I definitely wouldn’t swap it.
After the cold breeze that blasts us as we hurry up the cobbled yard, the farm kitchen is deliciously warm. Jules wasn’t joking about the cameras weighing a ton. As for me being a lightweight, I’m holding my hands up to that already.
I slide my bag onto the table, rub my cramping shoulder, push the kettle onto the Aga and reach for a mug. ‘I’ll make you some tea while I’m here, Pops.’ At least then she’ll have to stay to drink it.
Poppy shuffles a stack of cake containers. ‘I’ll give you vanilla ones. We can’t risk chocolate smudges before the ceremony.’ She frowns at me as she hands me a box. ‘You look like you could do with one now.’
I’m already regretting skipping breakfast. ‘Chocolate stains won’t show on leopard print, will they?’ It’s worth a try.
Poppy answers that with a beam. ‘That’s my girl. How many?’
‘No more than two.’ I’m feeling mean that I’m only passing her ginger tea in return. ‘I don’t want to spoil my appetite for the vanilla ones.’ Now I’m back in the normality of the kitchen, sinking my teeth into soft chocolate butter cream, I’m reluctant to leave.
Poppy squeezes my arm as she sinks onto the bench. ‘It’s lovely to have you home, Hols. We’ve all been hoping we might tempt you into coming back here full time.’ By the time she drops that bombshell, she’s looking innocently out of the window. ‘To live, I mean.’
‘What, and leave London?’ If I sound shocked, it’s because a move back is in the wrong direction entirely. We spent all our time at school plotting how to get away. For Poppy, it was all about the lure of the bright lights. Whereas for me, I was desperate to get to a place where I could be anonymous. Where I wouldn’t always be the girl whose much more popular sister died.
She laughs. ‘I did it and I survived. It’s different when you get a bit older.’ From the way she bites her lip and looks guilty, she’s going to push it. ‘It isn’t as if London’s brilliant for you right now.’
I sigh and try to shut out that I just had the same fleeting thought. Then I make sure I get the right tone of bouncy. ‘I might be back in my old flat share, in a room the size of a shower cubicle. But I’m at the hub of the action. What’s not to like?’ The worst thing is that my social life dematerialised when Luc left. And a year on, it’s not looking up. All enrolling at woodwork classes and zumba did for me was give me splinters and a pulled hamstring. But coming back to live here isn’t an option. I try to sound jokey, yet firm. ‘Me moving in with the oldies and working in an ice- cream kiosk? That would go down a storm when my parents are doing their best to leave home themselves.’ So happily, it’s not a choice I’ll need to address.
Poppy leans towards me. ‘This is why we’ve all got our fingers crossed for you today, Hols. Strictly between us, now we’ve expanded, there are too many weddings at Daisy Hill for Jules to handle on his own.’
Originally Daisy Hill Farm held summer weddings in the fields, but they’ve now added in the main farmhouse and converted a barn. There are also the weddings at Bart’s Manor too. And it looks like I might have been completely set up here. As Poppy wiggles her eyebrows expectantly, my heart sinks.
I let out a sigh, because it’s all so impossible. ‘It’s really sweet of you to think of me.’ But leave London and become a wedding photographer? How the hell do I express that those are the two last things I’d do – in the world, ever – without sounding ungrateful? ‘I’ll do my best today. And get back to you on that one.’
‘There is another thing.’ The way Poppy’s screwing up her mouth tells me I may need to brace myself for bad news.
‘Yes?’ I’ve got no idea what’s coming, but it can’t be any worse than the last suggestion.
‘You’d be way more likely to find a new partner here than in London. Especially given who’s staying in the cottages.’ She wiggles her eyebrows madly.
What the hell is she hinting at? ‘Surely you can’t mean …?’
She grins. ‘Yes, I’m talking about Rory. Truly, once you get past the joking around he’s all heart, and way too nice to be on his own. You two always had the hots for each other. Twenty years on might be a good time to finally check that out?’
I let out a shriek. ‘We TOTALLY did not!’ However much I want to stamp on this, I can’t bring myself to say the word ‘hots’. ‘The guy drives me round the bend. If we were stranded on a desert island together, I swear I’d swim to get away from him. And you know how much I hate water.’
Poppy’s making no effort to hide her laughter as she looks down at her bump. ‘They don’t call me elephant memory just because I’m huge, you know. Deny it as much as you like, but I remember the way you two always had your heads together, back in the day. And he always looked out for you too. That time you got off your face on cider punch at Hannah Peveril’s birthday because you thought it was lemonade with colouring in, he was the one who insisted on walking you round until you sobered up, then driving you home.’
I stifle a shudder. ‘Trust you to rake that up. That night was so awful, it still makes me groan with embarrassment even now.’ And moving neatly on from Mr Sanderson … ‘My mum went ape about that, and Hannah’s dad never forgave me for throwing up all over his Gertrude Jekyll prize roses.’
But Poppy’s seen what I’ve done there and she’s not having it. ‘Better still, Rory delivered you home in one piece, without driving into any ditches or off any precipices.