Only for a few hours more, Alanna thought, crossing her fingers behind her back.
She’d expected Gerard to return and join her at some point, but seeing him standing, stony-faced behind his grandmother’s sofa, soon convinced her that this was not going to happen. A view substantially reinforced when the places flanking Mrs Harrington became occupied by Felicity Bradham and a tall grey-haired man that Alanna guessed was her father.
The party reached a climax when a large birthday cake was wheeled in on a trolley, and ceremoniously cut by Niamh Harrington so that slices could be distributed to the departing guests.
In its wake came an enormous basket of flowers—‘Paid for by all the locals, including the tenants,’ Joanne whispered. ‘Feudal or what!’—and presented by Lord Bradham, who then led the company in singing, ‘For she’s a jolly good fellow’.
Despite all evidence to the contrary, Alanna said silently, reminding herself, as people began to leave, there was now only the family dinner to endure.
As she’d expected, she was seated once again about as far from Gerard as it was possible to get, and if she’d been falling in love with him, that would have rankled.
But, under the circumstances, it was probably no bad thing, she thought, noting with amusement that Felicity had been seated next to him.
Besides, her placement meant that she was in the same congenial company as the previous evening, which delighted her, and away from Mrs Harrington’s watchful gaze, which pleased her even more.
Now all she had to do was try to appear oblivious to the presence of Zandor who was seated between Caroline Healey and Gerard’s mother on the opposite side of the table, but not, thankfully, in her direct eyeline.
The meal began with chilled avocado soup, continued with poached salmon mayonnaise, followed by duck in a rich cherry sauce, and completed with individual vanilla and honeycomb cheesecakes.
Gerard had explained that after the dessert there would be a pause before coffee was served, so that a birthday toast could be drunk before his grandmother opened the gifts waiting on a side table, Alanna’s photograph frame among them.
An offering that would almost certainly find its way to a charity shop in the near future, she thought with a mental shrug.
An expectant silence fell as Gerard rose to his feet, glass in hand. He spoke briefly and affectionately about his grandmother then proposed the toast to her health adding, ‘And, of course, many happy returns of the day.’ Words that were echoed round the table as everyone rose to drink before singing a chorus of ‘Happy birthday to you’.
After which they all resumed their seats but with one exception.
Gerard, still standing, cleared his throat and smiled round the table.
‘Now I have another toast to propose. And, I hope, another happy surprise for Grandam’s birthday.’
He paused. ‘Earlier today, Alanna and I became engaged. And I would like you all to welcome my fiancée to the family and drink to our future happiness.’
The shock wave that ran through the room was almost tangible, and if anyone else had been involved, Alanna might even have found it amusing.
As it was, she had a curious sensation that she’d been turned to stone.
She wanted to leap to her feet, shouting, ‘No, it’s not true. I never agreed to it. I never would.’
But she seemed to be pinned, silent, to her chair.
Nor was she the only one. Niamh Harrington was rigid, her fresh colour fading to reveal two harsh spots of blusher.
While across the table...
In spite of herself, Alanna found she was looking at Zandor, her nerve-ends tingling as she saw the harsh line of his mouth, and met the stark brilliance of his gaze which went beyond shock to anger and something terribly, unbearably like pity, mingled with contempt.
And saw too the faint shake of his head, as if emphasising silently his earlier warning: ‘It’s never going to happen.’
A challenge issued and accepted as Alanna felt rage and resentment take swift and uncontrollable possession of her.
How dared he look at her like that? she thought as she got to her feet. What damned right had he—or anyone else in that room—to judge her? Or ordain her future?
Well, to hell with the lot of them.
She walked, forcing herself to seem quietly, happily self-possessed, to where Gerard stood, and slipped her hand through his arm.
‘Darling,’ she said softly. ‘How naughty of you. I thought we were going wait—to keep it our little secret for a while.’ And lifted her smiling face for him to kiss her on the mouth.
In the next instant, the ongoing silence was broken by Maurice Dennison, rising from his chair.
‘Congratulations, my boy, and every good wish to you, my dear,’ he said heartily. ‘We couldn’t be more happy for you both—could we, everyone?’
And as he glanced round the table, the others stood in turn, murmuring ‘To Gerard and Alanna’ as they drank. With Zandor, the last one of all, merely raising his glass in a negligently token gesture.
Which Alanna knew was intended to fool no one—least of all herself.
‘I can’t believe you did that.’ An hour later, a stormy Alanna faced Gerard on the terrace under the guise of a romantic moonlight stroll. ‘I thought we had an agreement.’
‘We still do,’ he said urgently. ‘I swear that hasn’t changed.’ He spread his hands. ‘But you’ve no idea of the pressure I’ve been under.’
‘Actually,’ she said, ‘I think I have. But I’ve allowed my inbuilt aversion to being used to take precedence on this occasion.’
‘Well, thank you, anyway, for going along with it.’
‘As opposed to calling you a liar in front of your family?’ She sighed. ‘Oh, Gerard, what a mess.’
He said with faint stiffness, ‘It doesn’t have to be. My suggestion we should become engaged, even on a trial basis, was perfectly sincere. And that’s what’s going to happen. We have to give ourselves a chance.’
‘Not easy with half your relations asking if we’ve set the date yet, and the others behaving as if you’ve had a mental breakdown,’ she said bitterly.
Except I’m the crazy one for agreeing to this engagement fiasco when I know I haven’t the slightest intention of marrying you.
Aloud, she added, ‘And as I’d rather not face them again, will you take me round to the side door, please, so I can go straight up to my room.’
‘Yes, if that’s what you want.’ He paused. ‘But they may find it strange.’
‘In which case,’ Alanna said coolly, ‘it will fit in nicely with the rest of the evening’s events.’
Alone in her bedroom, with the door safely locked, she took off her dress and hung it carefully away, then put on her robe and lay down on top of the bed, staring into space as she recapped everything that had happened.
* * *
After Gerard’s announcement, the opening of Niamh’s presents, which followed, seemed a total anti-climax.
She certainly exclaimed and enthused, but it was clear her heart wasn’t in it. When she unwrapped Alanna’s photograph frame, she studied it in silence for a moment, then looked up, smiling.
‘How thoughtful,’ she said softly. ‘I shall keep it for a picture of your wedding, dear girl.’
If, of course, you can find one small enough, Alanna supplied