He closed his eyes and prayed the verse, Put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. He was stuck between the old and the new, hoping he could earn his new self from here on out, no matter the cost.
Aubrey’s hands trembled while she stood there waiting for his answer. He wondered if she’d guessed it already. “What do you think?”
She clicked her tongue then frowned. “I—I can’t say. It could be a million things.”
“But you have a guess, don’t you?”
Her hands fell to her sides, and he couldn’t tell if the right one still shook, or if it was the firelight dancing upon it. “I suppose.”
“Then tell me. I’ll tell you if you’re right.”
“Are you in trouble, Cort?”
Cort’s insides began to quiver. He’d been in trouble for so long. But to hear someone else say it? Defeat rained down upon him and he was drenched with shame.
“Has it got something to do with the law?” Aubrey spoke this with more certainty. Did he just imagine her spreading her hand upon her dress pocket where she kept her pistol? The woman did not trust him in the least.
Why would she?
“I’d followed in the wrong crowd, Aubrey, until I gave myself to Jesus. But it wasn’t long after that when I found myself in the wrong place at the wrong time.” Cort stepped closer and Aubrey’s hand slid up to the mouth of the pocket.
“Was it the law, Cort?” She spoke through her teeth.
“Yes.” He clenched his fist, knowing she’d only see him as a criminal now. “I don’t blame you for wondering or even for being scared. Trust me when I tell you that I would never bring you harm. I hope to never bring harm to anyone.”
“What did you do?”
While she might eventually trust him, he couldn’t tell her what had occurred. He had never spoken it to anyone, nor would he for fear of destroying his brother’s family. He had given his word, and now he must stick to it for any kind of true redemption. Besides, claiming his innocence would make him appear more guilty. Cort reached his hand out instinctively, hoping to clasp her arm with an assuring touch.
Aubrey twisted her body away from him and stumbled backward. “What did you do, Cort?” She spoke louder now.
“Please, Aubrey. Don’t make me say it. It’s in the past. I’ve been given a second chance.”
“A second chance?” She narrowed her eyes.
He thought back on the prison fire. After he’d been given permission by Sheriff Conway, he had run faster than he’d ever run before. That was as good as freedom, right? Conway had always liked Cort and knew that he was nothing like his brother. The sheriff had tried getting the whole story out of Cort during his few weeks behind bars. The law was on his side in that respect. As Cort ran from the burning cell and his only friend, he’d sobbed and prayed.
Aubrey dug her fist into her hip, her elbow sharply bent. “A second chance by who?”
“By who?” Cort backed up a couple of steps. “By the good Lord, Aubrey. Only by His grace, and only by Him.” He walked toward the ridge. There was nothing else he could say tonight.
The whipping breeze was no less torrid than the curtains of sunshine that fell from the cloudless sky. Aubrey guided Cort’s horse at a steady pace and waved to her new neighbors. The man gestured with his hat in his hand, and the woman just lifted her chin. Sunlight glinted off their plow, which sat amid piles of sod cut for building. Her stomach churned with anxiety. She had never used a plow before, and the thought of using a hand plow rather than a horse-drawn one seemed tedious and difficult. But a plow of some sort would be necessary for her home, even if she couldn’t afford a plow or a horse. Borrowing from her neighbors might be the only option. Were they friendly? How long would their house take before she could start on hers? Aubrey couldn’t make out their features. From the corner of her eye, someone else caught her attention.
Cort.
He covered the land with long brisk strides, heading away from the neighbors toward her land. He’d set out earlier while Aubrey was giving Ben his breakfast. Cort had said he was helping the neighbors after she’d asked to ride his horse to Alva. They had carefully avoided each other this morning, speaking only as needed. But why was he headed back so early? Hopefully he wouldn’t get Ben all riled up.
Their conversation last night was not what she’d expected. Instead of upheaving his secret past, she’d unveiled his dependence on God’s grace. And for some reason, that was enough. He was a faithful man. With that came respect and admiration. Faith had been hard to come by living under Ed Huxley’s roof. Most days, her inability to forgive him only pushed her to a corner of guilt, not toward God at all.
Another reason why she needed to leave Kansas. She didn’t like herself while living with him. Maybe Pa would be easier to forgive at a distance?
She looked back one more time. Her breath caught.
Cort began to hesitantly wave his arm in her direction. Before she could get her hand up to wave back, the horse let out a loud whinny and jerked to a stop. Aubrey gasped, tightening her grip and facing forward again.
A toppled-over wagon stood in their path a few yards ahead. It hadn’t been there on her last ride to town. The ribs of the covered wagon lay crushed on one side while the canvas flapped in the breeze.
“Come on, boy.” Aubrey gently stroked the horse, but he stuck his hooves into the ground and refused to budge. “Are you spooked?” A rustle from the wreckage sent a shiver down Aubrey’s spine. It’d been a couple of days since the race. What if someone was trapped in the wagon? Or what if it was a ploy to get her off the horse and rob her? She’d lived her whole life with a thief, and this seemed to be an excellent opportunity for one.
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