“Fire’s out,” someone called out. There was much more activity than the camp usually saw after dark.
“Do you think you can hold down some food?” she asked again, turning back to her patient.
There was no response.
When she knelt at his side, his breathing had gone shallow and he didn’t respond when her fingertips brushed his forehead.
He’d fallen unconscious again.
Nathan—Emma found she thought of him by his Christian name after their late night conversation—did not rouse at all the next day as they came within sight of the Wind River Mountains, majestic snowcapped peaks miles to the north. She knew they would grow bigger as the caravan approached.
By the time they’d made camp that evening, she was exhausted from her efforts attempting to cool his fever and forcing water down his throat.
And he’d begun coughing, a deep racking cough that worried her.
Rachel came for Emma after supper. The rest of the camp was settling for the night, the sounds of conversations and music and laughter quieting as dusk deepened.
“Get out of that wagon,” Rachel ordered. “It’s time you had a break. That man isn’t going to die if you leave his side for a half hour.”
But Emma was half-afraid he might.
“He’s still burning up. His fever should have broken by now.” She was worried, her fear taking on an urgency that made her movements jerky.
After sharing a few moments of conversation with the man last night, she felt…responsible for him.
He moaned, a low, pained sound, then coughed again. She tried to support his shoulders as the hacking shook his entire body. She bit her lip, not knowing what to do…
“If bathing his face in water was going to cool him off, he’d be frozen by now. You’ve soaked his shirt through at least twice,” Rachel said.
It was true. Wetness stained the collar of his worn shirt.
When Emma still refused to disembark from the wagon, Rachel disappeared. Emma couldn’t hope it would last very long.
“Wake up, Nathan,” she whispered. If she’d hoped using his name would rouse him, it was in vain. He remained still in the wagon bed, his cheeks flushed with fever.
She brushed the damp waves of his hair away from his temple. If he’d been awake, she never would have dared so familiar a touch. But he wasn’t awake, and that was the problem, wasn’t it?
“Emma.”
Ben’s stern voice from behind startled her and she hid her hand in her skirts as if she’d been doing something improper. Which she really hadn’t been.
Her brother stood with hands on his hips. Emma could see Abby and Rachel standing shoulder to shoulder several yards behind him, both wearing matching expressions of concern.
“Come down for a while,” Ben said. Except it sounded more like an order than a request. And she was tired of others dictating her actions.
“I’ll stay for a bit—”
But her voice faded as he spoke over her. “You’ve been cooped up in the wagon for two days. It’s time to come down. Abby can sit with Mr. Reed for a few minutes.”
He hadn’t even heard her protest.
“But—” Emma swallowed back the entirety of her argument as her brother reached up and clasped her wrist.
She allowed herself to be assisted—hauled—from the wagon, but when Rachel offered to accompany her to the nearby creek, Emma insisted she stay in camp.
Perhaps Rachel sensed Emma’s upset because she didn’t follow.
The muscles in Emma’s back and legs burned as she walked briskly through the small space of prairie and then down through the brush to the meandering creek.
The tension in her shoulders remained.
There were other women nearby, some bathing protesting children in the cool, clean water, some scrubbing clothes. Emma would never have been brave enough to come alone, not with the threat of Indians. Not to mention the troublemakers among them—whoever was committing the thefts in the wagon train.
But she knelt on the bank somewhat apart from the other women. She knew many of them, had helped some of them when their children had been sick.
But she couldn’t stomach making casual conversation with anyone tonight.
She splashed water on her face, shivering at the coldness against her overwarm skin.
Ben and Rachel didn’t understand. Nathan Reed couldn’t die.
Ben hadn’t sat at their father’s side as the man who’d once been so full of life had faded away. Oh, her brother had been there at the end—those painful moments had been burned into Emma’s brain so that they were unforgettable—but he hadn’t been constantly on call at Papa’s bedside.
Rachel couldn’t know how many hours Emma had spent praying for Papa to recover. To come back to them. And he hadn’t.
Watching Nathan Reed struggle was bringing all of those memories back. It was like living through Papa’s decline all over again. But this time, it was happening much faster.
Just yesterday, Nathan had been a virile, powerful man. And now he was laid weak with fever, the disease killing his body.
And she couldn’t do anything to stop it.
“God, please…” she whispered, her face nearly pressed into her knees on the creek bank. She didn’t even know what she was praying for. That Nathan would be healed, or that she would be relieved of the guilty burden she still bore from Papa’s passing?
When she couldn’t stand the heaviness in her chest any longer, she stood up on shaky legs. How long had she stayed by the water, prostrate and crying out silently? She didn’t know.
Most of the women had left, only a few remained far down the creek, speaking quietly. The dusk had deepened around her and urgency gripped Emma as her feet turned back toward the wagon. Whether it was the fear of the unknown wilderness, or fear for the man, she didn’t know.
Ben had pitched the family tent near the wagon and stood nearby, for once away from Abby.
“You should send someone for a doctor.”
Ben frowned and she rushed on, “Some of the other travelers we’ve passed said there are doctors traveling with other trains. If someone took a horse and rode ahead, we could find one and bring him back—”
“Emma, it’s almost full dark.”
“In the morning, then,” she insisted. “Nathan—” She only realized she’d used his name when Ben’s frown deepened. “Mr. Reed’s symptoms are not the same as the children’s.”
Now Ben crossed his arms over his chest. How could she convince her brother of the danger Nathan was in?
“He has measles. He’s broken out in the rash. But his unnatural fever and now his cough—those aren’t from the measles.”
“If he’s developed some other disease, you shouldn’t be around him,” Ben said, worry now creasing his brow. He started toward the wagon, taking a step and then pausing. Likely he’d just remembered his fiancée was the one in the wagon with Nathan.
“I doubt he’s contagious,” she said, and hoped with all her might that it was true. “But he needs doctoring—more than I know how to do.”
After all, she was just a woman.