“Then we’ll simply have to brazen it out,” said Lucy. “Come on. Just act as if you own the place.”
Somehow, Kathleen found the poise to cross the room with a smooth, proprietary grace. Judging by the polite greetings drifting toward her and Lucy, she began to realize that she was carrying off the ruse. Mimicry had always been a gift of hers, helping her to absorb the same lessons in elocution, dancing, French and flower arranging her mistress had suffered through.
The difference was, Kathleen didn’t consider the lessons a punishment. She loved every moment of them. She loved knowing which fork to use, which foot to put forward in a curtsy, learning how to say pas de quoi and shaping her mouth around the word prism before entering a room. It all seemed so lovely and refined to Kathleen. She couldn’t fathom why Deborah detested her lessons so much. But then, her mistress had always been a quiet, circumspect young woman, overshadowed by her domineering father and, increasingly, by her high-society fiancé.
“Philip Ascot, as I live and breathe,” Lucy said, approaching the fair-haired man and holding out her hand.
“Miss Lucy,” he said, gallantly lifting her hand to his mouth. “You look fetching, as always.”
“This is my dear friend Kate from Baltimore.” Lucy took back her hand and presented Kathleen, pushing lightly but insistently at the small of her back.
Though she kept a social smile on her face, Kathleen felt sick. This was it. The moment of truth. Philip had only to take one look at her and he would recognize his fiancée’s maid. He would expose her right down to her homespun bloomers and the calluses on her gloved hands. Too late, Kathleen remembered that he had given Deborah the diamond-and-emerald earrings last Christmas.
Sweet Jesus and the bald apostles. She was in for it now.
Philip made a formal bow and took her hand. Through her peau de soie glove, she felt the brief touch of his lips. Then he lifted his gaze to hers. “Enchanted, Miss Kate. What a pleasure indeed to meet you.” He stared at her intently, a dashing smile on his face. But to Kathleen’s shock, there was not a flicker of recognition in that stare. Only…an interest that was just a shade shy of polite. As quickly as she could, she freed herself from his touch.
“We are quite surprised to see you here, since Deborah is ill,” Lucy commented. She had always been a plain-speaking sort; she got away with it because she was descended from a famous, blue-blooded family and was worth a fortune.
“Ill, you say?” He lifted an eyebrow. “This is the first I’ve heard of it.” He shrugged, dismissing the mention of the woman he was soon to marry. “Another fit of melancholia, I presume. I’ll look in on her tomorrow, perhaps.” With a broad, cold grin he turned his attention to Kathleen. “So how long are you with us?”
Kathleen wondered why she had never recognized the vaguely predatory air that lurked just beneath the surface of this man’s polished exterior. Perhaps, she realized with mild amazement, it was because she had never been the object of his interest before. When she was merely a maid, he paid her no more attention than a piece of furniture.
“Only a short while, Mr. Ascot,” she said evasively. “Now you must excuse us.” Without waiting for a reply, she took Lucy’s arm and steered her away. As they moved toward the refreshment table, her cheeks felt as if they were on fire.
“You’re trembling,” said Lucy. “Are you all right?”
“I’ve just had a rather rude awakening. I’ve been in the company of that man dozens of times, because of Miss Deborah. But he’s never even seen me before. He didn’t recognize these earrings, even though he picked them out. Not that I would want his attention, but it’s a wee bit disconcerting to know I attracted all the notice of a potted palm.”
“He’s an insufferable snob,” Lucy said, curling her lip. “I have never been fond of him.”
Neither had Kathleen, but she felt strange and hollow inside to know her existence was so insignificant to people like Philip Ascot. And he wasn’t the only one. Earlier, Phoebe had ignored the elevator operator. Lucy had accepted a glass of lemonade from the tray of a passing waiter with the same lack of regard. Lucy, who hadn’t a mean bone in her body, blandly smiled her thanks, but didn’t actually see the neatly dressed waiter, didn’t wonder what his name was, where he came from, whether his shiny shoes pinched his feet, or if he had a sweetheart or a wife.
To the upper crust, people like the waiter—even personal maids like Kathleen O’Leary—were ignored. Not out of malice, but out of sheer obliviousness.
Imagine going through life being invisible. As if she didn’t exist at all. The very thought chilled and horrified her. It was more than vanity that made Kathleen want to be noticed. It was a keen sense of survival. If she was invisible, how could her life possibly matter? She wished she could march through her days with the conviction of Lucy, or the self-importance of Phoebe, or even the quiet gentility of Deborah.
Instead, she found herself at an unhappy crossroads. Because of her education, stolen from the tutors and governesses hired for her mistress, Kathleen no longer fit in with the working classes. Yet due to the circumstances of her birth, she didn’t fit in with the privileged set, either.
Tonight, she decided, casting away the chilly shadows of doubt, tonight she would be a true lady, no one would be the wiser and Lucy would win her bet with Phoebe. Bolstered by that conviction, she resolved to set aside her doubts once and for all, and enjoy the evening.
She gave herself over to the experience, laughing and flirting with surprising ease and enjoyment. She met Mr. Cyrus McCormick, whose reaper works had made an even bigger fortune than Pullman’s Palace Cars. She exchanged pleasantries with Mrs. Asgarth, pretended to follow a lengthy gossip session delivered by Mrs. Cornelia Wendover and traded a promising smile with Andrew Ames, a slender, timid gentleman who owned a seat on the Chicago Board of Trade.
Even though it was the Sabbath, and the purpose of the evening involved the salvation of the soul, no one seemed to remember that. Helping herself to a flute of champagne, she took a drink, thrilled by the bubbly texture and tart flavor of it. Relaxing more by the moment, she began to feel truly accepted in the rare company of Old Settlers, estate tycoons, captains of industry and transportation moguls. She loved their power, their confidence, their unabashed flaunting of the fine things they owned. She admired the women in their Parisian gowns and Russian jewels. She envied the patina of culture that lingered on those who had spent time traveling abroad.
What a contrast this made with the society of her old neighborhood. In the West Division, there would be Mass on Sunday night, and afterward, perhaps a ceili with a fiddle band, plenty of cheap drink and dancing until everyone ran with sweat. As a small girl, she used to love a good ceili, but as she was drawn more and more into the orbit of the very rich, she had come to see the wild, Celtic celebrations as somewhat…barbaric.
Conscience-stricken by the disloyal thought, she plunged her hand into her reticule and secretly drew out her grandmother’s mass card. The painting of Saint Bridget, her face bright with a martyr’s glow, glared up at her accusingly. And what manner of colleen are ye, then, ashamed of yer own flesh and blood? Gran’s voice seemed as close as a whisper in her ear. With a start, Kathleen dropped the card on the carpeted floor.
Before she could retrieve it, the heel of a large foot, clad in a shining leather shoe with a gleaming white spat, came down on a corner of the card, pinning it in place.
Sweet Mary, she would burn in hell for certain, letting some tycoon trample her poor Gran.
The owner of the foot didn’t seem to know he was snuffing out a saint.
Kathleen wondered if she could slip the card out from under the foot without attracting his notice. Feigning a casual pose, she put out a dainty toe and attempted to drag the card toward her. No luck; the larger male foot held it pinned in place. She would have to stoop to pick it up.
Working as discreetly as a pickpocket, she unscrewed one of her earrings