“What’s wrong, son?” he asked, his voice low and thick.
“What’s wrong?” growled Jamie, fury boiling and raging inside him, the sensation familiar and entirely welcome. “You actually have the nerve to ask me that? Everything’s wrong! Everything! And all of it’s your fault!”
His father’s eyes widened with shock. “Jamie, I—”
“Shut up,” said Jamie, his voice trembling with anger. “Just shut up. I went to your funeral. I stood next to Mum, next to your wife, and watched them bury you. Do you have any idea what that did to her?”
“No,” said Julian. “I can’t possibly—”
“I’m not done,” interrupted Jamie. “Not even close. You let us think you were dead. I watched you die, and that memory has lived with me every single day since. Our entire lives turned to shit after you were dead. You couldn’t let us know? Couldn’t even get a message to us? Something?”
“It wasn’t safe,” said Julian. “I was trying to protect you both.”
Jamie heard a growl rise from his throat, and felt a momentary surge of savage satisfaction as he saw his father take a frightened half-step backwards.
“That’s all right then, is it?” he said. “Everything’s cool, because you were trying to protect us. How well do you think that went?”
“I know,” said Julian. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, Jamie. I made a mistake, I understand that now. But I didn’t know what else to do.”
“Ask your friends for help?” suggested Jamie. “The ones who’d fought alongside you dozens of times, and who would have done everything they could if you’d just asked them.”
Julian nodded, and held his hands up. “You’re right, Jamie. You are. And I don’t blame you for being angry with me. I’m just trying to explain.”
“You can’t,” said Jamie. “There’s nothing you can say to make this OK. Don’t you get that? Mum cried herself to sleep every night after you died, and we had to move house every few months because the whole country believed you were a traitor. We had to leave our home, and our friends, and we just barely survived the chaos you left behind. And now you’re back, and what? You want me to tell you that I forgive you, that we can just put it all behind us and be a family again? Not a chance. Not a chance in hell.”
“I’m sorry,” repeated Julian. His face was ashen. “There’s nothing else I can say, Jamie. I’m truly sorry.”
“I believe you,” said Jamie. “But I don’t have time to give a shit about how sorry you are. Where did you go?”
“What?”
“When you pretended to die,” said Jamie. “Where did you go?”
“America,” said Julian. “There was a rumour about a vampire who’d been cured. When I heard about what happened to your mum, I went looking for him.”
The fury boiling through Jamie turned as cold as ice.
“You knew?” he asked, his voice low and full of menace. “You knew about Lindisfarne?”
Julian nodded. “I knew,” he said. “I heard about what you did. I was so proud, son, so proud of—”
“You knew your wife had been turned and your son had joined Blacklight, and still you didn’t come in? Even then, you couldn’t do the right thing?”
Julian winced, and said nothing.
“How did you know?” asked Jamie. “Who told you?”
“I can’t say,” said Julian. “I swore.”
The answer burst into Jamie’s mind like a bolt of lightning, filling him with white-hot clarity. He felt his stomach churn and his legs turn to jelly beneath him.
Oh no. Oh please, no.
He sought another answer, one that wasn’t so terrible, but knew instantly that he was wasting his time; there was only one person it could have been.
The one person he wished it wasn’t.
“I have to go,” he said, and turned towards the door.
“Hey!” shouted Julian. He stepped forward and took hold of his son’s arm. Jamie turned his head and stared down at the hand until his father released his grip and stepped back.
“What?” he asked. “What do you want from me?”
“This isn’t how I wanted this to go, son,” said Julian. “This isn’t what I wanted at all.”
Jamie laughed, incredulous. “Even now?” he said. “Even now, what you want is all you care about.”
“That’s not what I’m saying,” said Julian, his face reddening. “You know it isn’t. Why are you making this so hard?”
“And now you’re blaming me?” asked Jamie, his voice a low hiss. “You actually have the balls to stand there and blame me for this? You did this, Dad. You did it all on your own. I don’t know why you’ve decided to reappear now, and I don’t know what you want from me, but I have to go. Now.”
Julian stared at him. “Don’t you even want to know how I did it?” he asked. “How I faked my death?”
“I couldn’t give less of a shit,” said Jamie. “And I’ll tell you something else, something that you can think about when I’m gone and you’re on your own again. I’m ashamed to be your son. Do you hear me? Ashamed.”
The red in Julian’s face darkened. “That’s enough, Jamie,” he said, his voice low. “I don’t care what’s happened, or how angry you’re feeling right now. I am still your father and you will not speak to me like that.”
Jamie laughed again, a sharp grunt of derision, and turned to the door. Again, his father stepped forward and took hold of his arm, and Jamie felt heat burst into his eyes as his self-control finally failed him. He spun, eyes blazing, fangs gleaming, and shoved his father away, hard. Julian was thrown across the room, slammed against the wall, and landed in a heap on the floor. He stared up at his son with a face full of terror, the expression of a man who is watching his worst nightmare come true before him. Jamie stepped into the air and floated above the carpet, fixing his father with his terrible crimson gaze.
“I never want to see you again,” he growled. “Do you hear me? Never.”
His father’s face crumpled. Tears brimmed in the corners of his eyes.
“You’re my son,” managed Julian, his voice barely audible.
Jamie’s eyes darkened. “Fuck you,” he said, then turned and flew through the door of the cottage. He swept down the path, ignoring the sobbing sounds behind him, and flew back towards the idling SUV. He could see Frankenstein behind its wheel; the monster was staring through the windscreen, his face set in a stern line.
He knew, thought Jamie. He knew what I was going to find out, but he brought me here anyway.
For a moment, his heart softened towards the man who had sworn to protect him and his family, as he considered the position his father’s actions must have put Frankenstein in, particularly once the monster became acquainted with Jamie and his mother. But then the cold reappeared, freezing his heart solid.
He should have told me. I don’t care what he swore. He shouldn’t have left me in the dark.
Jamie reached the SUV and tapped on the passenger window. Frankenstein looked round, and wound it down.
“Is everything OK?” he asked.