âOh, hello, Meg,â he said calmly. âI didnât hear you come in. What did you say?â
I sighed and repeated my question for the third time.
âShe had a meeting with some of the ladies at church,â Luke murmured, turning back to his paper. âShe wonât be back for a few hours, so youâll have to take the bus.â
I always took the bus. I just wanted to remind Mom that she was supposed to take me to get a learnerâs permit this weekend. With Luke, it was hopeless. I could tell him something fourteen different times, and heâd forget it the moment I left the room. It wasnât that Luke was mean or malicious, or even stupid. He adored Ethan, and Mom seemed truly happy with him. But, every time I spoke to my step dad, he would look at me with genuine surprise, as if heâd forgotten I lived here, too.
I grabbed a bagel from the top of the fridge and chewed it sullenly, keeping an eye on the clock. Beau, our German shepherd, wandered in and put his big head on my knee. I scratched him behind the ears and he groaned. At least the dog appreciated me.
Luke stood, gently placing Ethan back in his seat. âAll right, big guy,â he said, kissing the top of Ethanâs head. âDad has to fix the bathroom sink, so you sit there and be good. When Iâm done, weâll go feed the pigs, okay?â
ââKay,â Ethan chirped, swinging his chubby legs. âFloppy wants to see if Ms. Daisy had her babies yet.â
Lukeâs smile was so disgustingly proud, I felt nauseous.
âHey, Luke,â I said as he turned to go, âbet you canât guess what tomorrow is.â
âMmm?â He didnât even turn around. âI donât know, Meg. If you have plans for tomorrow, talk to your mother.â He snapped his fingers, and Beau immediately left me to follow him. Their footsteps faded up the stairs, and I was alone with my half brother.
Ethan kicked his feet, regarding me in that solemn way of his. âI know,â he announced softly, putting his Pop-Tart on the table. âTomorrowâs your birthday, isnât it? Floppy told me, and I remembered.â
âYeah,â I muttered, turning and lobbing the bagel into the trash can. It hit the wall with a thump and dropped inside, leaving a greasy smear on the paint. I smirked and decided to leave it.
âFloppy says to tell you happy early birthday.â
âTell Floppy thanks.â I ruffled Ethanâs hair as I left the kitchen, my mood completely soured. I knew it. Mom and Luke would completely forget my birthday tomorrow. I wouldnât get a card, or a cake, or even a âhappy birthdayâ from anyone. Except my kid brotherâs stupid stuffed rabbit. How pathetic was that?
Back in my room, I grabbed books, homework, gym clothes, and the iPod Iâd spent a year saving for, despite Lukeâs disdain of those âuseless, brain-numbing gadgets.â In true hick fashion, my stepfather dislikes and distrusts anything that could make life easier. Cell phones? No way, weâve got a perfectly good landline. Video games? Theyâre the devilâs tools, turning kids into delinquents and serial killers. Iâve begged Mom over and over to buy me a laptop for school, but Luke insists that if his ancient, clunky PC is good enough for him, itâs good enough for the family. Never mind that dial-up takes flipping forever. I mean, who uses dial-up anymore?
I checked my watch and swore. The bus would arrive shortly, and I had a good ten-minute walk to the main road. Looking out the window, I saw the sky was gray and heavy with rain, so I grabbed a jacket, as well. And, not for the first time, I wished we lived closer to town.
I swear, when I get a license and a car, I am never coming back to this place.
âMeggie?â Ethan hovered in the doorway, clutching his rabbit under his chin. His blue eyes regarded me somberly. âCan I go with you today?â
âWhat?â Shrugging into my jacket, I gazed around for my backpack. âNo, Ethan. Iâm going to school now. Big-kids school, no rug rats allowed.â
I turned away, only to feel two small arms wrap around my leg. Putting my hand against the wall to avoid falling, I glared down at my half brother. Ethan clung to me doggedly, his face tilted up to mine, his jaw set. âPlease?â he begged. âIâll be good, I promise. Take me with you? Just for today?â
With a sigh, I bent down and picked him up.
âWhatâs up, squirt?â I asked, brushing his hair out of his eyes. Mom would need to cut it soon; it was starting to look like a birdâs nest. âYouâre awfully clingy this morning. Whatâs going on?â
âScared,â Ethan muttered, burying his face in my neck.
âYouâre scared?â
He shook his head. âFloppyâs scared.â
âWhatâs Floppy scared of?â
âThe man in the closet.â
I felt a small chill slide up my back. Sometimes, Ethan was so quiet and serious, it was hard to remember he was only four. He still had childish fears of monsters under his bed and bogeymen in his closet. In Ethanâs world, stuffed animals spoke to him, invisible men waved to him from the bushes, and scary creatures tapped long nails against his bedroom window. He rarely went to Mom or Luke with stories of monsters and bogeymen; from the time he was old enough to walk, he always came to me.
I sighed, knowing he wanted me to go upstairs and check, to reassure him that nothing lurked in his closet or under his bed. I kept a flashlight on his dresser for that very reason.
Outside, lightning flickered, and thunder rumbled in the distance. I winced. My walk to the bus was not going to be pleasant.
Dammit, I donât have time for this.
Ethan pulled back and looked at me, eyes pleading. I sighed again. âFine,â I muttered, putting him down. âLetâs go check for monsters.â
He followed me silently up the stairs, watching anxiously as I grabbed the flashlight and got down on my knees, shining it under the bed. âNo monsters there,â I announced, standing up. I walked to the closet door and flung it open as Ethan peeked out from behind my legs. âNo monsters here, either. Think youâll be all right now?â
He nodded and gave me a faint smile. I started to close the door when I noticed a strange gray hat in the corner. It was domed on top, with a circular rim and a red band around the base: a bowler hat.
Weird. Why would that be there?
As I straightened and started to turn around, something moved out of the corner of my eye. I caught a glimpse of a figure hiding behind Ethanâs bedroom door, its pale eyes watching me through the crack. I jerked my head around, but of course there was nothing there.
Jeez, now Ethanâs got me seeing imaginary monsters. I need to stop watching those late-night horror flicks.
A thunderous boom directly overhead made me jump, and fat drops plinked against the windowpanes. Rushing past Ethan, I burst out of the house and sprinted down the driveway.
I WAS SOAKED WHEN I REACHED the bus stop. The late spring rain wasnât frigid, but it was cold enough to be uncomfortable. I crossed my arms and huddled under a mossy cypress, waiting for the bus to arrive.
Wonder where Robbie is? I mused, gazing down the road. Heâs usually here by now. Maybe he didnât feel like getting drenched and stayed home. I snorted and rolled my eyes. Skipping class again, huh? Slacker. Wish I could do that.