Three
I HAD BEEN PLANNING to practise some of my scales, but Hank was already hogging the piano, wrestling with his pieces for the competition. Typical. He always seemed to get there first. Always practising, practising, practising.
“Nerd,” I muttered under my breath, kicking my battered satchel aside, wishing it was Hank.
I tugged my hair out of its ponytail and got changed, chucking my school uniform into the corner with my schoolbag. Most of my clothes were scrunched up under my bed or on the floor or shoved into whichever peeling cupboard or drawer they would fit, but I always folded my Calvin Klein T-shirt along the seams and placed it neatly in my top drawer.
It had been my favourite shirt ever since I wore it to school on civvies day last term, and everyone noticed and admired me. Even Kean looked envious. Actually, it was just an ordinary white Mr Price shirt, but I carefully stencilled over the CK logo in a Seventeen magazine, then had it imprinted on the shirt for R40, and nobody knew the difference.
When I wore it, my freckles seemed to fade, and I imagined that it magically transformed my arms and legs so that they were no longer matchsticks but curvaceous, like those of Marilyn Monroe in the poster above my bed. I dreamt that one day I’d look like her. She’d started out as a redhead too.
I had another picture on the back of my door, the famous one of her standing in a billowing dress over an air vent, but my favourite was the one above my bed, with her gingery hair frizzing in the wind and the sea in the background. She looked really happy.
“My family would often go down to the beach in Humewood, and I would stretch myself out on the sand and close my eyes, pretending to be Marilyn. We don’t go to the beach any more now.”
“Perhaps I’ll look like you one day,” I told Marilyn. The poster was crinkled just over the corner of one of her eyes, and as it reflected the light, I imagined she was winking at me.
In the background, I could still hear Hank playing. He was practising a Debussy piece, a nocturne, starting like the lightest wave of a wand as his hands floated several octaves up the keyboard in broken chords, and then letting the real magic emerge: an intoxicating, mournfully beautiful melody that made Mom want to cry on days when she was too tired even to say hello.
“It makes me want to puke,” I said to myself, but actually, I felt more like crying too.
Dad had been working late, so he only picked Mom up well after 7de Laan had finished, and I’d already switched off the TV and started getting things ready for supper. Not that I wanted to, but after a day as long as hers, she’d probably snap if I didn’t. I hauled out a tin of spaghetti, rinsed and chopped the tomato and onion, and then put it in the fridge with the defrosted mince.
“Thanks, Helen love,” she said, kissing me briefly as she walked in later and headed straight for the fridge, automatically pulling out the tomatoes and the mince and switching on the stove with her free hand.
Already, I was about five centimetres taller than her, and on long, hard days like these she seemed to shrink, rather than me growing. Her hair, always straight, lay lank and flat against her head, a dull grey broken by faded reddish streaks, and I noticed that her work shirt seemed to hang more loosely than normal on her pale arms as she plodded tiredly around the kitchen. She stood for a moment, with the fridge door open, as Hank played the final notes of his Debussy, and sighed a little, as though for a second she’d forgotten she was a cashier.
Then my brother came in.
“Sounds good, Hank,” Mom commented, half to him and half to my dad, who was banging the layers of dust from his shoes at the door.
Dad rubbed his bald head so that a thin sprinkling of grey brick powder fell onto his overalls and nodded to Hank. “You’re doing well, son,” he said, placing his hand on my head in greeting as he sank into his chair. Mom had covered it in plastic because no matter how hard Dad tried, he still left a trail of dust on it which slipped into the cracks in the leather. I would hate to sit in that chair every day and not be able to feel its coolness against my skin, but he didn’t even seem to notice. He took out the free paper that was delivered every week and pretended to read it, his head nodding.
“There are the dishcloths,” I said, pointing to the neatly folded pile on the work surface.
Mom smiled for a second, her faded face momentarily beautiful, the same smile that had been directed at Hank when he walked in. It made her look like a young Mia Farrow, exotic and enchanting.
I was going to tell her where I got the dishcloths, but she’d already turned her back and was rummaging in the cupboard for the frying pan.
I gingerly shared my dad’s chair with him for a few minutes, reading with him until I couldn’t bear the artificial smoothness of the plastic any longer, and I slipped onto the carpet beside him.
“We’re doing a project on pregnancy and babies in class,” I said to Dad as he continued to pretend he was reading by turning another page.
He nodded and ruffled my hair absently to show he’d heard me, although I wasn’t sure he really had.
“I’ll be working with June, the girl that you met today before your lesson, Hank.”
“That reminds me, do you need to be practising some more, son?” asked Mom, looking up. “Madame Pandora said that you should do at least two hours a day.”
“How much have you done so far?” asked Dad, putting down his paper for a moment.
Hank turned to go. “I’ll practise another half hour or so,” he muttered and added what sounded like, “Will that be enough for you?”
Dad glanced at Mom, who shrugged and turned back to her cooking.
The haunting music started up again, the top notes of the melody each sounding like a voice on their own, trying to express something that no one was hearing.
“So anyway, June from my class and I walked home together, and she has some cool ideas for our project,” I tried again, talking over the music. “We’re going to the library next week because the school’s internet time has been used up for the month.”
I turned to look at my dad, but his head was on his chest, and my mom could not hear me over Hank’s playing and the spattering of frying onions.
She smiled in my direction. “What’s that, Helen?”
“My project with June,” I said, getting up to join her. “We’re using the internet at the library.”
Mom tossed the spaghetti in with the fried onions and added the mince, stirring automatically. “Maybe someday we’ll be able to get internet,” she said, glancing around the tired kitchen, giving it a makeover in her mind. “Who knows how things could change?”
When Hank has won the competition and has his own practice one day, I thought.
“Has Hank always wanted to be a doctor?” I asked.
Mom passed the spoon to me so I could stir while she wiped her hands. “I remember how he used to bandage everything in sight when he was a little boy. Dad’s arm, my head, even the table legs.” I smiled politely to keep her talking to me, although I had heard the story enough times to put me off my spaghetti bolognaise. “And when you bumped your head, he wound so much bandage round it that he covered your entire mouth and we couldn’t even hear what you were saying.”
After supper Hank went back to the piano and I wandered off to his room, which was completely off-limits to me, making it all the more fun. Walking into his room was like going to school. On his wall, he’d stuck theorems that he taught the high school kids at Maths Magicians, and lots of them were covered in little sticky notes saying stuff like Remind re Pythagoras or Recap–tricky one to help him make his tutoring more effective.
My brother’s role was to assist Mrs Meintjies, the