One thing that particularly impressed me during this first year of juniorate remaining to us at St Beuno’s was our participation in the liturgy, especially during Holy Week, and especially for the office of Tenebrae on the three days of the Sacrum Triduum (Thursday, Friday and Saturday). It was all directed by the above-mentioned astronomer, who also taught us maths, and who was also an expert in Gregorian chant. Thus it was that during those three days our Jesuit house was as though changed into a Benedictine monastery, and from my days in Wimbledon I had been extremely fond of that chant. Once we moved back to Manresa to join the novices, however, we had another priest to direct us in these ceremonies, who professed to be an expert in the Gregorian music of Solesmes in France. But his ideas clashed with mine, formed as I had been on the ideas of our astronomer. So I forbear to mention their names.
In the juniorate, as in the noviceship, we had a superior of our own under the Rector of the College. Just as the novices were subject to the Master, so the juniors were subject to the Prefect of Juniors. He was a stern man with bushy eyebrows, but with a fine sense of humor – unlike our first Master. According to the political situation, as he read it in the daily newspapers – though we weren’t yet allowed to enjoy the distraction of the daily press – he would wear his biretta at class tilted now forward, now backward. Forward was good, backward was bad. He taught us the Classics of Greece and Rome, but such was his teaching that I have forgotten everything he taught us – unlike our teacher of Church history. He had the odd habit of calling everyone “My dear”.
By way of relaxation, sometimes instead of going for walks, we had the opportunity of playing cricket, even in that hilly country. Even on the slope of the hill behind the College, the theologians of the past had levelled out a cricket pitch, with the ground rising on one side and falling on the other. As for the equipment for cricket, in our second year as novices we discovered what the theologians had left behind, and our new Master gave us leave to make use of it. At that time it so happened that I had been entrusted with the unimportant office of Mag.Lud. (for Magister Ludorum, in charge of games), and so it was I who now supervised the playing of cricket for the novices. I was by no means the one novice with an interest in cricket, but there were several others who were no less sold on the game than I was. Anyhow, I could claim to have brought about a revolution in the noviceship, which hadn’t been heard of since the old days of Fr Marmaduke Stone – though it was sadly discontinued by the novices once they had repaired to Manresa. But for us it provided a continuity between St Beuno’s and Manresa. At St Beuno’s it was merely one of many attractions in noviceship life, but at Manresa during our second year as juniors it proved to be a major distraction, which I remember when I have forgotten everything else. (Incidentally, isn’t that the very definition of “education”, what you remember when you have forgotten everything else?)
Thus it was that, all unwillingly, we also repaired to Manresa – I suppose by train from Rhyl to Euston, and then somehow or other to Roehampton, but I have completely forgotten. Here everything was different from what it had been at St Beuno’s. We approached the house by an L-shaped drive, going so far from the gate before turning due right. The house itself was classical in architecture, dating from the eighteenth century, in contrast to the imitation Gothic of St Beuno’s. Passing a Jesuit cemetery on the left, we came to the entrance at the ground level, without any steps. More impressive was the entrance from the other side, facing Richmond Park, with steps leading up from either side to a main hall. It had been the town residence of some earl or other before the Jesuits acquired it for their noviceship in the mid-nineteenth century. On entering the house as we did from the ground floor, we found a stone-flagged corridor leading in either direction, right to the refectory and left to an imposing baroque chapel.
What was most impressive for us, in contrast to our previous experience of life at St Beuno’s, whether as novices or as juniors, was the exceptional number of novices, who now far outnumbered us. We had mostly come from Jesuit schools and were still young in experience. But most of these new novices were men of experience, formed in the school of adversity as members of the armed forces, including even majors and colonels, now demobbed and seeking a new religious life. They numbered upwards of a hundred, whereas we second-year juniors were a mere handful. But as at St Beuno’s, we were kept separate from them in our own little community. At St Beuno’s there had been only rooms, and we had been two in a room, but here at Manresa we were relegated to cubicles lining a large dormitory, with desks in the middle for our studies.
All the same my memories of this year are for the most part outside the house. For our games of cricket, we had a much better cricket ground on the far side facing the trees of Richmond Park – with a “ha-ha” in between. (A “ha-ha” is a long trench dug in the ground and serving as a boundary, prompting the exclamation “Aha!” when one comes up to it.) Instead of afternoon walks, we had the opportunity of taking a bus from its nearby terminal all the way into London. There my favorite pastime took the form of visits to the National Gallery in Trafalgar Square, chiefly for my favorite paintings of John Constable and William Turner. Occasionally, I might get leave from the Rector to walk across the Common to visit the family in 11 Devas Road – though the permission was somewhat reluctantly granted. Those were the old days of the Society of Jesus before the renewal of the Church in Vatican II and the advent of Fr Pedro Arrupe as General of the new Society.
Finally, one thing I have forgotten up till this very moment was our summer “villa” at the end of our first year as juniors. Then we spent two enjoyable weeks at Hodder Place, the primary or preparatory school for the nearby College of Stonyhurst. There we had somehow to fit into the beds occupied by small boys during the term-time. The Lancashire countryside was green and lush with vegetation, and it was hilly. During the day we went out on bicycles, to explore this part of the Pennine Range. Often we had to get off the bicycle and push it uphill, before descending at full speed, relying on the quality of our brakes. One of us found his brakes weren’t working properly as he hurtled on the downward descent, and he came “a cropper”. Somehow word came to Hodder that I was the poor casualty, and from there the same word was relayed to my father in Wimbledon. On my safe return to Hodder I was informed that my father had been and gone. He had come all the way there out of concern for me, and he was so relieved to find it wasn’t me after all, that he had hastened home to relieve the feelings of the family. Indeed, it was just the sort of accident for which I might be blamed, in the way I had been run over by a car in my boyhood. And indeed, I had much the same experience at a subsequent villa in North Wales, when I was also hurtling down a hill at break-neck speed, only to find my brakes broken. Then I just missed hitting a cliff on one side before plunging into the thick vegetation on the other side – with more damage to my bicycle than to myself. I was quite irrepressible!
The Philosophy of Life
Such a strange thing is memory. It fixes on some items and omits others. I find it comparable to old Japanese landscape paintings, in which mountains and rivers appear in between clouds, with the sky above. Thus I remember all the details of the journey we originally took, all six of us, from Euston to Rhyl, then the taxi to St Beuno’s, and even the steps leading up to the entrance. But how we juniors made our way first to Manresa House for our second year, or how we made our further way to Heythrop College for our next stage of philosophy, I have quite forgotten. Nor do I remember much of how we spent our second year at Manresa. It wasn’t such a happy period in my life. It was too short, and I find that the