You’re frozen stiff,
you’re at his mercy,
you can see the fire in his eyes.
He has the eyes of both predator and prey,
sleek and lean like a hawk.
You’re mystified…
You want to reach out and see if he’s real.
Yet you can not move,
entranced with this enigmatic creature.
He’s staring straight at you,
straight through you,
and then he moves.
He pulls his long locks back for you,…
he’s like nothing you’ve ever seen in your life.
You realize how fragile you are,
and he’s everything.
He smiles like an angel,
let’s his hair fall back in his visage,
turns and walks away,
leaving you dazed and hazed.
You finally exhale,
he stops and looks back,
and you’re frozen again.
He turns and walks off,
never to turn back again,
and you’re left to dwell in the moment.
Angel of Torment
I’m an addict.
You’re my poison.
You’re my habit of disease.
You intoxicate me,
To the point of insanity.
I thought you were my angel,
A delusionary angel at that.
You were there,
but you were never present.
I shook from withdrawal with your absence.
You made my mind boggle and my guts go gooey.
Yeah, you gut me and strip me down,
to the point of delirium.
And with your every return,
I fell off the wagon.
I was almost over this pointless addiction,
but then you came,
gave me false hopes.
Then you turn your back again.
What the fuck are you?
You’re no angel,
you’re no guiding light,
I’ll pay the price for my habit,
Every time you turn away.
You know what you do,
but don’t even care?
If you do, why do you do it?
Do enjoy me when I’m enraged,
enflamed,
enraptured with you?
Do you really deserve me?
Why do I desire you so?
Oh just do it,
I don’t care what just do it.
pull me,
tie me down,
just do it.
I don’t care what just do it!
Take me as you can,
my precious angel of torment.
Forever Broken
I’m so scared to say,
“I don’t think I think…
I’ll ever be fixed.”
I’m seem to be forever broken.
There is no cure for this.
I carry it deep inside,
Where no one can ever see.
It’s the only place for it to hide.
So what if I can’t stop it?
What if I can never change?
Will I be left to be forgotten?
Simply left,
Forever broken.
I’ve been infected by a disease of more.
I never ever asked for this…
That’s for fuckin sure.
Will I ever be me again?
Can I ever be pure?
Or am I cursed forever more?
To be left and forgotten,
Simply left,
Forever broken.
Been screamed at for hours,
I can only shake my head.
I don’t know if I have the power.
Filled with doubts and all this fear,
I just want you to hold me,
But you don’t want me anywhere near.
Overtaken by guilt and shame,
I know it’ll go back together the same.
Can I ever be the same as I was?
Have I destroyed it all just because…
It’s all I’ve ever known how to do?
I don’t want this,
And you know that’s true.
I know you should leave,
Leave me to be forgotten.
Simply left,
Forever broken.
Lost & Never Found
Empty handed with nothing to show,
Down a dark and winding road is where I go.
What have I become?
A silent voice that no can hear,
A lonely man who’s full of fear.
What have I done?
Just a man made of flesh and bone,
Gone and thrown away all that was once my own.
What do I do now?
There’s no one left who seems to care,
I don’t know if they were really ever there.
Where do I go from here?
Blind and lost I drift through my days,
It’s hard to find my way through all of this haze.
Why is this anger burning in me?
It’s made me drive away all those I held dear.
The boy that they loved is now the man that they fear.
Human Safari
Sometimes,
we can fool ourselves the best.
Throwing