Charging Elk lay back on the pillow and closed his eyes. He had been proud to be an Oglala then and he thought they would never surrender. The young boys talked about Crazy Horse and how he would lead them far away from the longknives. They would grow up to be hunters and to make war on their enemies. They would kill off the soldiers when they got old enough. Meanwhile the people spent the summer and fall moving from place to place, at first high up in the Bighorns and the Wolfs, then when the weather changed and the snows capped the peaks they moved back onto the plains. Sometimes they would camp for six or seven sleeps, sometimes only one or two. The scouts kept track of the longknives and they were never far away. But the game was plentiful during those warm times and the people didn’t suffer. Wakan Tanka, the Great Mystery, rode with them. The Oglalas seemed almost exhilarated, as though they knew this was to be their last time together as a free people and they were determined to make the most of it. They had won a great victory and they were prepared to face the consequences, even if death came to live with them. Charging Elk, in spite of his youth, felt this spirit and had never been so close to his family, his people, the land. He hung on to every experience, every change of country, every night under the stars or in his father’s lodge.
But when the weather changed, everything changed. The buffalo seemed to disappear soon after the first snowfall, the deer and elk, even the rabbits and prairie hens, grew scarce, and the winds blew bitterly and constantly. Many of the people grew sick, some died, and they became frightened of what lay ahead. When the soldiers finally caught up with Crazy Horse’s band on the Powder River that winter, the people escaped into a blizzard with few casualties but the sentiment around the meager fires now was more about coming in to the fort on the White Earth River rather than remaining free, which amounted to running and running. But Crazy Horse refused to listen to this talk. He began to spend more time away from the camp, riding off by himself into the surrounding hills—some said he was searching for a vision that would save the people; others thought he didn’t like to be around their suffering. Charging Elk’s own father said that Crazy Horse was too stubborn to be a good leader, that he put his own pride before the welfare of the people. Still, Charging Elk and his friends vowed to follow Crazy Horse, even to death if he wanted it that way. Like most of the young ones, they idolized Crazy Horse and thought he could bring forth a miracle when spring came. He would lead them somehow to a land where there were no white people, a land filled with blackhorns and berries and good water. There would be plenty of enemy horses to be taken, many enemies to be struck.
But that spring Crazy Horse led the weary, ragged people to Fort Robinson and Red Cloud Agency. They surrendered their horses and weapons, everything but their garments, cooking utensils, and lodges. The piece of paper that the leaders marked was dated May 6, 1877. Four months later, in the Moon of the Black Calf, Crazy Horse was killed by the soldiers with the help of some of his own people.
Charging Elk sighed and opened his eyes. The tray and the woman were gone, but two men in suits stood at the foot of the bed, looking at him.
“Bonjour,” said one of them.
“Hello,” said the other.
Charging Elk recognized both greetings but he said nothing.
The one who had said hello said, “Charging Elk?”
Charging Elk considered a moment. He knew it would be futile but he asked how long he had been in the sickhouse. Both men just exchanged glances. The one who had said hello was dressed in a bulky brown suit. He had a mustache that curled down around the corners of his mouth. The other wore a dark neat suit. His tie was neatly knotted between the collar points.
“Canyou speak English? American?” The man in the brown suit leaned closer, and said again, in a loud voice, “American? Do you speak American?”
Charging Elk gestured toward himself with his hand. “American. Lakota.” As he thought of something else to say, he remembered how he had gotten there. “Pahuska. Buffalo Bill.” Then he remembered the Lakota who had been appointed the chief of the show Indians. He had no power over the Indians—only the white bosses did—but the wcbticuruf, the fat takers, liked him because he was very handsome and his buckskins were heavy with beadwork. Surely these men would know him. “Rocky Bear,” he said. “Big medicine. Oglala. Wild West.”
“Buffalo Bill, yes. But you are Charging Elk.” The man spoke slowly and loudly.
“Charging Elk. Yah.” But it was becoming clear that he would not be able to communicate with these men, even though he knew of their languages. He could do nothing but look at their suits, even though his eyes took in their somber faces.
After Crazy Horse’s death, the Oglalas were taken from the Red Cloud Agency to their own agency at Pine Ridge. The children were put into the white mans school, and so Charging Elk became a student and learned some of the American words. But less than a year later, when he was thirteen winters, he and Strikes Plenty ran away and went to live with Strikes Plenty’s people at the Whirlwind Compound, far from the agency and the school. Later they would move again, when the wcwichud threatened to come get them, along with the other children. They moved to a place in the badlands called the Stronghold, a long tall grassy butte with sheer cliffs on three sides that could be easily defended. But the white men, soldiers and settlers alike, were afraid of the Stronghold. The Indians out there were considered bad Indians, even by their own people who had settled at the agency and the surrounding communities. Charging Elk and Strikes Plenty lived off and on at the Stronghold for the next nine years, hunting game, exploring, learning and continuing the old ways with the help of two old medicine people. Sometimes they rode into the Black Hills, Paha Sapa, and stole things from the gold miners. They visited Bear Butte, a lone cone-shaped holy hill where many Oglalas had sought their visions in the past but which was now surrounded by settlers and mining claims. Charging Elk had had his hanblechia in the badlands surrounding the Stronghold. He had been prepared well by his wiccua wakan, an old man who made many prayers in the sweat lodge, and when he turned sixteen he went out and made many prayers to Wakan Tanka to help him dream his power animal. He never told anyone what the animal was, not even Strikes Plenty, but he later killed a badger and made a small necklace of its claws.
Now Charging Elk tried to ask the two men what happened to the necklace, and he suddenly remembered the holy card the white woman had given him in Paris, which became his wasichu medicine, but he knew it was impossible. For the first time in his life, he wished he had stayed in school and learned the brown suit’s language. “Buffalo Bill,” he said, without hope. “Wild West.”
After the two men left, Charging Elk sank down into himself. He was alone, and the enormity of what that meant hit him hard. He had no friends here. He couldn’t tell the men in suits where his home was. But they had to know that he was an Indian and he came from across the big water as part of the Wild West show. He was an Indian, an Oglala from Pine Ridge, his home.
Even in his despair, Charging Elk found his mind clearing and he remembered more things. It was like waking up after a night of drinking mni wakan, the white mans holy water, but this night seemed to have lasted a long time.
Charging Elk almost felt the impact again as he remembered falling from his horse and landing on the packed earth. That was the last thing he remembered before he was brought to this healing house. He had been chasing the small buffalo herd around the arena with his friends, an act he had performed hundreds of times since coming to this country of the Frenchmen. They liked to see the wild Indians chase the buffalo because it was one of the few acts in the show that was dangerous. And the Indians themselves made it more dangerous by eventually catching up and riding at headlong speed among the thundering animals. Charging Elk remembered a young bull, one that he had become familiar with in the several moons they had performed in the big Paris arena, suddenly swerve and swing