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Автор: William Jolliff
Издательство: Ingram
Серия: Poiema Poetry Series
Жанр произведения: Языкознание
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isbn: 9781498208413
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Cook—

      and discovered that the medium is almost,

      but not always, the message.

      And you wouldn’t have believed Miss Cook

      had the proof not been your own cameras,

      your laboratory, your 44 pictures

      of pretty Katie King,

      the most desirable of spirit guides.

      What did Philip think?

      You died a knight at 86.

      Some brothers live longer than others,

      but we all spend good years chasing the dead.

      Small College, Small Town

      Family genius? Your last term with me, you slumped

      in the back row with the damned-if-I-care crowd,

      your serious hair a coal black curtain between us.

      Has it been a dozen years? I’ve watched you

      push your strollers down the cracked off-campus walks,

      watched you walk your kids to school, watched them

      walk you to school, then run ahead, then go alone.

      Now I remember why I remember. It matters to me

      when students don’t engage—the classroom’s my stage,

      and I want you all to love the show. Your presence

      was spotty; your work regular, if not quite good.

      But when I click the years it all makes sense:

      You were sick. Your last semester was your first

      trimester. I’m sorry. You were listening to me

      babble through The Scarlet Letter, wondering if

      you were going to pitch your breakfast. Then

      halfway through exam week, you were married,

      the right thing to do in this little town, to a boy

      who aced my first-year comp, but never spoke.

      I hope he’s treating you better now—he was nice

      enough, but strangely quiet even then. It’s odd

      you bought that house on the edge of campus.

      For years I’ve given you my Winesburg nod

      as an old and kindly former prof should, but

      you’ve always dodged it, there, behind that veil

      of hair. So maybe you’re still trying to find

      the back row of town. Or trying to lose your A.

      Diet of Worms

      Holiness is a discipline. It demands attention.

      To begin, play games, but quit before winning.

      Touch a soft brown arm, but never, never kiss.

      Play heaven’s music, but never end a song.

      It’s like any other diet. Protein supplements

      will keep you alive, and you will learn, someday,

      to feel full. What must be beaten daily is

      that misbegotten longing for something sweet.

      Sunday Vigil on the Corner

      Four years into this war, a handful of us stand,

      herringbone-respectable, gray, well-trimmed,

      sober as bankers in mackinaws and new boots,

      not a shred of tie-dye in sight, our neat signs

      square as cartoon trees against the continual

      Oregon drizzle. It’s our First-Sunday Ritual.

      We try to mingle, abandoned to ourselves in public

      discomfort, stranded by hard old belief, right here

      at Second and Adams. Our fingers freeze with reason:

      “Invest in Peace,” “Children Matter,” “Peace is Patriotic.”

      We straighten red silk ties and rub clean chins,

      chapped against the wind. The cold keeps soaking in.

      Passersby honk Volvos. Some smile, some shake

      their heads, puzzled. Some flash our ancient holy sign,

      others flick us the finger. We wrap our scarves

      tighter. At last a rusty beater rumbles by, packed

      with acned teens, shouting as we knew they would:

      “Go back to Russia, you f*****g hippies.”

      And we laugh. Finally someone’s found us out,

      stared straight through what time and tweed cannot

      disguise. A car on fire with those most likely to die—

      few prospects, no money, sure of nothing but

      their own anger. We look around our aging crowd,

      remembering some of the ways a heart can break.

      Lunch with the Lord’s Anarchists

      At the Jesus Radicals Conference

      They walk through the line in an orderly way,

      taking enough, but not too much. No one laughs.

      They bring their own plates and cups. No Styrofoam.

      Potluck veteran though I am, I can’t make out the food,

      but I’m sure it’s deeply committed and fairly traded.

      It’s strange to hear such passionate talk in a church.

      We move to the lawn of the Mennonites who agreed

      to host the gathering. More accustomed to capitalistic

      market-driven hygiene, I’m glad we’ve come outside.

      Because I ask, some tell me outlines of their journeys,

      of where they came from, how they wound up here.

      There are many wrinkled ways to get to Portland.

      Finished, they slump in quiet piles of natural fiber,

      and at last I can read their bodies. Truths dangle

      from pierced flesh and cover every inch of visible skin.

      Jesus, I am old and academic, and I have much to learn.

      I would like to read the rest of them, the rest of their stories.

      Ramblin’ Seth Plays the Red & Black Cafe

      And when the day of Pentecost was fully come,they were all with one accord in one place. (Acts 2:1)

      Maybe they gathered in a room just like this,

      a coffee shop somewhere in Jerusalem,

      not on the outskirts exactly, but just

      on the seedier edge of downtown.

      Maybe some sweetly pierced Martha-like

      hipster was pulling fresh shots in the back,

      and her sister, Our Mary of the Many Tattoos,

      was already slipping the day-old scones

      to the masses, those unwashed and quizzical

      lovers