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Автор: Tracey Lind
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      As one who moves quickly, the art of photography does not come naturally to me. I must work at it. But I have discerned that photography is the work of my soul, not my ego, and I have learned the hard way that whenever my ego gets involved, it distorts the picture. Photography keeps me humble and often frustrated, but is an important metaphor for the rest of my life. Photography has taught me to slow down, wait for the moment, and open myself up to the Spirit so that I may experience God in unexpected people and places.

      Over the years, I have discovered that I can look for and find glimpses of the Holy through a camera lens, but I must be very respectful of what is found and seen. I don’t “take shots” and I don’t “capture the moment.” Rather, I enter into sacred relationship with the other, and with respect and permission I make a portrait of what I see, and then I pray that my photograph will honor the essence of what my eye saw.

      I have been amazed and awestruck by what I’ve seen and heard, and I have tried to be faithful in the rendering and interpretation. In working on this book, I have become convinced that if we allow them, the poor can be our wisest teachers, the wounded can be our most powerful healers, and the oppressed can be our strongest liberators. I now know for certain that the last can be first, the despised can be loved, the outcast can be welcomed, the dead can be raised, and that which the world deems to be garbage can be made holy if we are open to the unexpected grace of God.

      Interrupted by God has long been in the making and would not have been possible without the encouragement, love, and support of a great many people. I want to say thanks, and I ask you to accept my apologies for this long list of names and to feel free to skip over these pages and get on to the introduction and the stories. But if you do, please know that I am nothing without these individuals.

      I offer special thanks to those who took the time to read the very first draft of this book: Dan Schoonmaker, Angela Ifill, Robin Hitchcock, Richard Gildenmeister, and especially Jon Wakelyn, who told me to let it go and send it to the publisher. I am grateful to John Dominic Crossan, who looked at the photographs, read the first few pages, and whispered in my ear, “It’s a sacrament. Go for it!” I am most appreciative to Pamela Johnson for her editing, support, and inspiration. I thank Janice Brown and Robyn Henderson for photo editing, production, and design. To Michael Lawrence, Timothy Staveteig, and the rest of the team at The Pilgrim Press, thank you for having faith in my project and making this book a reality.

      I am especially indebted to my teachers over the years. I will never forget Janet Raleigh Smith, who in high school shared with me the love of books, music, and art, and encouraged me to ask hard questions and not accept easy answers. I offer special thanks to Phyllis Trible, Dorothee Soelle, Carter Heyward, Walter Brueggeman, James Forbes, Marcus Borg, James Cone, Raymond Brown, Ardith Hayes, Paul Henry, and Marge Lotspeich—scholars who before, during, and after my years in graduate school and seminary encouraged me to think critically and out-of-the-box.

      I am ever thankful for some wonderful bishops I have known, admired, and loved in the Episcopal Church. To Paul Moore, who told me on the morning of my ordination, “All you have to do is love them.” To Jack Spong, who challenges the church, encourages its scholarship, expects excellence from its clergy, and said to this young priest, “If you wait for a sabbatical to write, it will never happen. You have to get up every morning and do it.” To Jane Holmes Dixon, who has shown me the power of passionate truth telling in the name of gospel justice. To Clark Grew, Arthur Williams, and David Bowman, with whom I have shared ministry in the Diocese of Ohio. And to Richard Shimpfky, who taught me how to be a priest and still loves me unconditionally.

      I am grateful to some remarkable ecumenical and interfaith colleagues. Doug Fromm advised me to “dance at their weddings and cry at their funerals.” Joan Brown Campbell invited me to the summer pulpit of the Chautauqua Institution, thus opening new doors and avenues for preaching. Arthur Waskow helped me understand the sacred significance of the fringe, and Howard Ruben welcomed me home.

      I have been blessed with many friends and companions along the journey. I offer special thanks to the Women’s Sewing Circle for friendship, laughter, and support; and to the Gang of Four for wit, wisdom, and wisecracks. I will always be indebted to Diana Beach for patient listening, deep digging, and wise counsel over the course of two decades. The photographs in this book would not have been possible without Clelia Belgrado, Doug Beasley, Meg Meyers, and Jennifer Jones, who taught me how to see through the lens of a camera. I am grateful to Nancy and Bill Dailey for schooling me in the art of radical hospitality, to Joe Russell for the gift of storytelling, and to Jane Russell for teaching me about long-term loving. Special thanks go to my cathedral colleagues: Greg, Tina, Kurt, Joyce, Dan, Mike, Marcia, Tricia, Rebecca, Rufus, James, Roderick, KG, Melonie, Ed, Rosemary, Twanna, Agnus, and Joanne for being a great staff team, ever patient with my foibles. I also count my blessings for Lucinda, my sermon and shopping buddy; Kathleen, Annamarie, Jamie, and Eric, who helped me say “yes” to God; Fran, who accompanied me on the way; Bob, who taught me to hug trees; Michael, who sang a new church with me; Wiley, who introduced me to Village Cleveland; Kate, who showed me her Chautauqua; and Karen and Tracey for being good pals. To the rest my friends and companions along the way—you know who you are—thanks for teaching me about life and love.

      And who are we without family? Thanks to Kathleen for long walks in the cul-de-sacs; Tom and Jon for granting me the family memory; Jesse, Gillian, Jake, and Phillip—the next generation; Kathi for loving my brother; Missy and Bob for believing in me since I was a child; and Paul, Jean, Melanie, Margaret, Steve, and Anne for welcoming me into the Ingalls family.

      And finally, this book and its author simply would not have been without my parents, Stanley and Winne Lind, who gave me the best they had to give; my “second mother” Marge Christie, who shares my love of church and beach; Emily Ingalls, my partner on the journey come hell or high water; and the people of Christ Church, Ridgewood, St. Paul’s Church, Paterson, and Trinity Cathedral, Cleveland, who over the past twenty years have shared their lives, loves, and losses with me.

      This book is offered in love to those who are willing to receive it. I hope that this marriage of word and photograph will help you see glimpses of God with your own eyes and validate your own interruptions from the edge.

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      The Question | NEW YORK CITY, 1999

      Introduction

      the Question

      Thirty-five years ago I sat in a classroom with fifty other adolescents watching the movie Let My People Go. It was the first documentary of the Holocaust, and I’ll always be haunted by the memory of emaciated corpses being pushed down a slide in the Warsaw Ghetto. At the end of the film, a young rabbi tried to elicit responses from a stunned and silent class of usually loud and obnoxious ninth graders. I’ll never forget the moment when he looked at me, the only kid with a non-Jewish parent, and said: “Tracey, you don’t look Jewish. You could have passed. What would you have done? Would you have died for your faith or denied it?” I didn’t have an answer. I didn’t know what it meant to pass. I didn’t know what it meant to die for one’s faith. I didn’t really know what my faith was. I only knew that I was angry, embarrassed, confused, and alone. So I just stared back at him and finally said, “I don’t know.”

      That accusatory statement, “You could have passed,” followed by the probing question, “What would you have done?” has haunted me all the days of my life. It has permeated my dreams; it has kept me awake; it has stood with me in the pulpit; and it has influenced every major life decision I have made. And just when I think I have put the accusation to rest and answered the question, it reemerges as a beast from the deep recesses of the ocean called my unconscious. This question, “will I pass or will I claim who I am and what I believe regardless of its cost, even to death?” is the angel with whom I wrestle, causing me to walk with a limp. It is the burning bush in front of which I stand barefooted, the slow burning flame that keeps alive my passion but does not consume my spirit. Whenever I travel into the wilderness of my soul, I am tempted to avoid this question’s pain and confusion. It