‘You know, you’re the sort of woman who ought to be raped. It might do you good.’
And, whilst she had stood, speechless with anger and astonishment, he had added cheerfully:
‘I’d rather like to rape you myself—and see if you looked the least bit different afterwards.’
Then he had stepped out on to the high road, and giving up trying to sing had whistled cheerfully.
Naturally she had never spoken to him again and he had left Crayminster a few days later.
A strange, puzzling and rather disturbing incident. Not an incident that Joan had cared to remember. In fact, she rather wondered that she had remembered it now …
Horrid, the whole thing had been, quite horrid.
She would put it out of her mind at once. After all, one didn’t want to remember unpleasant things when one was having a sun and sand rest cure. There was so much to think of that was pleasant and stimulating.
Perhaps lunch would be ready. She glanced at her watch, but saw that it was only a quarter to one.
When she got back to the rest house, she went to her room and hunted in her suitcase to see if she had any more writing paper with her. No, she hadn’t. Oh, well, it didn’t matter really. She was tired of writing letters. There wasn’t much to say. You couldn’t go on writing the same thing. What books had she got? Lady Catherine, of course. And a detective story that William had given her last thing. Kind of him, but she didn’t really care for detective stories. And The Power House by Buchan. Surely that was a very old book. She had read it years ago.
Oh well, she would be able to buy some more books at the station at Aleppo.
Lunch consisted of an omelette (rather tough and overcooked), curried eggs, and a dish of salmon (tinned) and baked beans and tinned peaches.
It was rather a heavy meal. After it Joan went and lay down on her bed. She slept for three quarters of an hour, then woke up and read Lady Catherine Dysart until tea time.
She had tea (tinned milk) and biscuits and went for a stroll and came back and finished Lady Catherine Dysart. Then she had dinner: omelette, curried salmon and rice, a dish of eggs and baked beans and tinned apricots. After that she started the detective story and finished it by the time she was ready for bed.
The Indian said cheerfully:
‘Good night, Memsahib. Train come in seven-thirty tomorrow morning but not go out till evening, half past eight.’
Joan nodded.
There would be another day to put in. She’d got The Power House still. A pity it was so short. Then an idea struck her.
‘There will be travellers coming in on the train? Oh, but they go straight off to Mosul, I suppose?’
The man shook his head.
‘Not tomorrow, I think. No cars arrive today. I think track to Mosul very bad. Everything stick for many days.’
Joan brightened. There would be travellers off the train in the rest house tomorrow. That would be rather nice—there was sure to be someone to whom it would be possible to talk.
She went to bed feeling more cheerful than she had ten minutes ago. She thought, There’s something about the atmosphere of this place—I think it’s that dreadful smell of rancid fat! It quite depresses one.
She awoke the next morning at eight o’clock and got up and dressed. She came out into the dining-room. One place only was laid at the table. She called, and the Indian came in.
He was looking excited.
‘Train not come, Memsahib.’
‘Not come? You mean it’s late?’
‘Not come at all. Very heavy rain down line—other side Nissibin. Line all wash away—no train get through for three four five six days perhaps.’
Joan looked at him in dismay.
‘But then—what do I do?’
‘You stay here, Memsahib. Plenty food, plenty beer, plenty tea. Very nice. You wait till train come.’
Oh dear, thought Joan, these Orientals. Time means nothing to them.
She said, ‘Couldn’t I get a car?’
He seemed amused.
‘Motor car? Where would you get motor car? Track to Mosul very bad, everything stuck other side of wadi.’
‘Can’t you telephone down the line?’
‘Telephone where? Turkish line. Turks very difficult people—not do anything. They just run train.’
Joan thought, rallying with what she hoped was amusement, This really is being cut off from civilization! No telephones or telegraphs, no cars.
The Indian said comfortingly:
‘Very nice weather, plenty food, all very comfortable.’
Well, Joan thought, it’s certainly nice weather. That’s lucky. Awful if I had to sit inside this place all day.
As though reading her thoughts, the man said:
‘Weather good here, very seldom rain. Rain nearer Mosul, rain down the line.’
Joan sat down at the laid place at the table and waited for her breakfast to be brought. She had got over her momentary dismay. No good making a fuss—she had much too much sense for that. These things couldn’t be helped. But it was rather an annoying waste of time.
She thought with a half smile: It looks as though what I said to Blanche was a wish that has come true. I said I should be glad of an interval to rest my nerves. Well, I’ve got it! Nothing whatever to do here. Not even anything to read. Really it ought to do me a lot of good. Rest cure in the desert.
The thought of Blanche brought some slightly unpleasant association—something that, quite definitely, she didn’t want to remember. In fact, why think of Blanche at all?
She went out after breakfast. As before, she walked a reasonable distance from the rest house and then sat down on the ground. For some time she sat quite still, her eyes half closed.
Wonderful, she thought, to feel this peace and quiet oozing into her. She could simply feel the good it was doing her. The healing air, the lovely warm sun—the peace of it all.
She remained so for a little longer. Then she glanced at her watch. It was ten minutes past ten.
She thought: The morning is passing quite quickly …
Supposing she were to write a line to Barbara? Really it was extraordinary that she hadn’t thought of writing to Barbara yesterday instead of those silly letters to friends in England.
She got out the pad and her pen.
‘Darling Barbara,’ she wrote. ‘I’m not having a very lucky journey. Missed Monday night’s train and now I’m held up here for days apparently. It’s very peaceful and lovely sunshine so I’m quite happy.’
She paused. What to say next. Something about the baby—or William? What on earth could Blanche have meant—‘don’t worry about Barbara’. Of course! That was why Joan hadn’t wanted to think about Blanche. Blanche had been so peculiar in the things she had said about Barbara.
As though she, Barbara’s mother, wouldn’t know anything there was to know about her own child.
‘I’m sure she’ll be all right now.’ Did that mean that things