‘That I understand all too well.’ I smile back and let him into the studio.
From my corner, where I sit with a pile of mending that never seems to get any smaller, I have a good view of the painting Brigitta and Nicholas are working on. Because I’m sitting behind them, they have no idea I’m watching the lessons with such interest.
Sometimes, when I have time to stop and take stock, I think back on my reluctance to come to Amsterdam and smile. I couldn’t have made a better decision. From the first moment I set foot on the quayside, I felt the heart of the city beating and sensed her lust for life.
It’s infectious. The fact that I have to work hard for long hours doesn’t bother me. Whether I’m walking along Keizersgracht as the spring sun’s glittering on the water, diving into the hustle and bustle of the market, or looking around the harbour at the VOC ships, I savour every moment, revelling in the bustle around me. The weeks pass and it’s May before I know it.
On my day off, I walk out of the city to the countryside with its polder meadows and vegetable gardens. Whenever I see farmers sailing towards Amsterdam with barges full of milk cans and cheese, it brings a stab of homesickness.
I wrote a letter home and received a couple of words back, just the once. I will have to be satisfied with that.
On Sundays we go to church. The master and mistress sit in special pews reserved for patricians. The lower orders have to stand. Not that I mind. However painful my feet and knees, I stand motionless, my eyes fixed on the pulpit, and sing and pray.
Adriaan praises my piety. ‘You have to stand through the entire service, yet you’re always the last to leave the church. Many people would do well to follow your example.’
He and Matthias are originally from Delft, where their elder brother Evert still lives. Their parents had a pottery in Delft and did a fair trade. It was a smart move on the part of Conrad van Nulandt to invest in the first voyage to the East. The expedition hadn’t done that well but a second voyage brought enormous profits. The pottery was expanded to a second site, which also did brilliantly. After the death of their parents, Evert took over the largest pottery and the younger brothers sold the second one. Adriaan left for Amsterdam with his share of the inheritance and worked his way up to become one of the masters of the East India Company. Matthias, not yet twenty when his parents died, rapidly ran through a large portion of his fortune and went to work for his brother.
One windy day in June, Adriaan announces he’s going to Delft to pay a visit to his oldest brother.
‘I’ll be gone for a week. Take good care of my wife, will you?’ he says.
‘Of course, sir. There’s no need to worry.’
‘How are her painting lessons going?’
‘Young Master Maes gives useful advice.’
‘So it’s going well. Is he satisfied with her progress?’
‘Her work is getting better and better.’
‘Good. You may go, Catrin. Thank you.’
I rush up to the living room, which is in need of a good clean. Greta can wash the furniture and scrub the floor, but she has to steer clear of the porcelain.
I take dusting cloths and move all the objects arranged on the dresser onto the table. Then I wipe away the dust, polish the silver and clean the pair of porcelain decorative vases. They aren’t as big as the vases in the parlour but they are just as beautiful. Relieved not to have damaged anything, I take a step back. As always, I allow myself a minute or two to admire the cobalt-blue motifs.
Looking at the vases is like looking into another world. Every time I find myself hypnotised by the tiny figures with their long, pointed beards and baggy robes, the landscapes with mountains and birds I don’t recognise and the strange buildings.
All the patterns are painted with such hair-fine lines I almost can’t believe they were made by a human hand. You’d need a steady brush to work with such precision. The lines, curves and loops are exactly the same all over. Nowhere has the line been broken or applied too thickly; these are masterpieces. It’s strange to think that someone on the other side of the world sat hunched over these vases and that they spent months after that in the hold of a ship before winding up here on the dresser.
‘Catrin?’
I jump and turn around. Brigitta is standing at the door, her hair sticking up around her head. She has a weary expression on her face. ‘Will you help me mix some paint? I’m up to my ears.’
‘Shouldn’t I finish my work first, madam?’
Brigitta flaps her hand impatiently. ‘This room isn’t important, I need you.’
‘I’ll just give Greta her instructions and then I’ll be right there, madam.’
Grinding pigment. As if I have time for that. With a sigh I go to the kitchen and tell Greta what she needs to do, then walk to the studio.
Brigitta stands waiting at a table of little bowls.
‘I’ll show you how to do it.’ She holds up a pestle and a piece of ivory.
‘I know how to make paint, madam. I’ve done it before.’
‘Very good. I only need blue and black. Go steady with the lapis lazuli, it’s expensive. Don’t knock over the bowl.’
‘No, madam.’
We get to work, grinding chunks of black ivory and lapis lazuli to powder by crushing them with the pestle. Eventually a splash of linseed oil is added and mixed with the powder to make a smooth paste.
When Adriaan comes to say goodbye, he finds his wife with a blue-and-black-powdered apron and hands. He laughs. ‘Are you sure you won’t come to Delft? Will you manage for the whole week on your own?’
‘Of course I’ll manage,’ says Brigitta sweetly. ‘Have you got the painting I did for Evert?’
‘It’s with my things. You’re not working too hard, are you, my dear? You look very pale.’
‘I feel fine. I’ll see you next week, darling.’ Brigitta stops grinding to give her husband a kiss, but not for long. As he goes out the door, Adriaan turns back. When Brigitta doesn’t look up, he leaves.
For most of the morning we work side by side in comfortable silence. After a while, Brigitta puts a canvas on the easel and wanders around the studio in search of objects to paint.
‘I don’t want flowers,’ she says. ‘Nicholas wants me to paint a single object with as little colour as possible.’
‘You could take one of those beautiful vases from the dresser.’
Brigitta considers this and nods. ‘Yes, that’s a good idea. Fetch one, will you?’
I wipe my hands on my apron. In the kitchen I wash them thoroughly with soap and go to the living room. I pick up the vase with care and walk with it to the studio.
‘Put it down there.’ Brigitta nods towards a side table across from her easel. ‘Don’t drop it.’
Delicately, I place the vase on the little table. ‘Hard to believe it’s come all the way from China. I don’t even know where that is.’
‘There’s a map of the world on the wall in the living room, have a look at it some time. It really is ludicrously far away. It would take a ship at least six months to get there.’
The vase is stable and I take a step back. ‘How much is something like that worth, madam?’
‘That? I think about a hundred