Oh shit. To Denver. Two hours’ drive. Ren texted her back: Wrk stuff. So sorry. Cld we meet b4 my meetng 4 5 mins? 2pm.
Y.
Y. I’m so sorry.
OK.
By the time Ren reached Denver, violent winds had been whipped up by storm clouds rolling in from Central Plains. Hail pounded the car – deafening and relentless. A Denver afternoon could move from sunbathing to drowning and back again in twenty minutes. The previous week, the skies had dumped enough hail to trap people in their cars and flood the viaducts.
Helen had been waiting for ten minutes. Two hours and ten minutes. Ren sat holding a coffee, wondering if she really was in the humor for Helen.
‘So, how’s work?’ she said.
‘Ugh,’ said Ren.
‘Come on,’ said Helen. ‘I haven’t seen you all summer, you’ve talked to me only a handful of times. Have you been quiet … or just too busy?’
‘Working.’
‘OK, working. But what else?’
‘Look, I’m fine.’
‘How’s Glenwood?’
‘Well, I’m in the wonderful position of having a different personality clash with each of my colleagues. And it’s a small office.’ It’s Tiny.
‘Hmm.’
‘I mean, it’s fine. But it’s not Safe Streets. In Glenwood, I just get in there, do my work and leave.’
‘Are you seeing Billy?’
‘No.’
‘Are you OK with that?’
‘Not really. But I was afraid it was going to screw things up for me. And him.’
‘Have you met anyone else?’
Ren shook her head. ‘No.’
‘Have you been going out?’
‘Kind of.’
‘With who?’
‘I’ve made a few friends, so I’m hanging out with them.’
‘New friends?’ said Helen.
Ren nodded. ‘Some guys, nice guys, I met.’
‘OK.’
‘Platonic.’
‘Think about what has happened to you over the last few months,’ said Helen.
‘What do you mean? I’ve solved a lot of Jean’s cases, I’ve worked hard –’
‘Can you hear yourself?’ said Helen.
‘What? OK, I worked. I love my job. Big deal.’
‘And what about everything else? It wasn’t long ago that you left your boyfriend, you slept with a C.I., you moved locations again …’
Ren said nothing. She raised her face to the ceiling and held her breath.
‘Part of you thinks you’re such a bad person, Ren, that bad things should happen to you, your relationships should be fraught, your decisions should bring pain, you should not be happy … I don’t know.’
Ren stared out the window, running her finger back and forth under her watch strap.
‘It may not be affecting your work now,’ said Helen, ‘but it will.’
Ren released a heavy, weary breath as she stood up. ‘I’m tired, Helen. I’m exhausted. I have too much on. Can’t I just have someone to talk to when I need it?’
‘Of course,’ said Helen.
‘Nice shoes, by the way.’
‘Thank you.’
‘I love shoes,’ said Ren, ‘But if I hear one more time “Oh, you’ve big shoes to fill” – meaning Jean Transom’s …’ She paused. ‘I’ve big feet, you know?’
‘Well most people have a perception of other people that comes from lots of different things,’ said Helen. ‘Yes, Jean sounds like she was a talented agent. But so are you. Just because she was – how do I put it? – more …’
‘Normal …’
‘Well, whatever you want to say, but I guess more what people would expect an agent to be. From what you’ve said, she was quiet, soft-spoken, earnest. And you’re more … out there. Doesn’t mean you’re any less professional.’
‘I know that. The importance of being earnest …’
‘Look, anyway, why do you care?’
‘I actually don’t know. Jean wore comfortable shoes. And maybe I don’t do comfortable shoes.’
‘You don’t do comfortable, period. You don’t like being comfortable, do you? It’s too boring. Your worst nightmare.’
‘OK,’ said Ren. ‘I don’t think I can listen to any more wisdom.’
Helen smiled.
‘But, thanks,’ said Ren.
‘OK,’ said Helen. ‘Look after yourself.’
In the Rocky Mountain Safe Streets office, Gary Dettling stood at the top of the bullpen beside a map of Jefferson and Summit Counties. Red pins surrounded the Denver metropolitan area and green pins stretched west along I-70.
Ren walked in. ‘Let me guess – red: places where Colin Grabien has been rejected by women in a bar. Green: places where Colin Grabien has been rejected by women in a bar.’
Colin pointed toward the board. ‘Red: places where Ren Bryce has …’ He paused.
‘Not quick enough,’ said Ren. ‘Thanks for playing.’
‘Your hair,’ said Robbie. ‘What did you do? I loved your long hair.’
‘Hate to break it to you,’ said Ren. ‘But you’re not at the forefront of my mind when I’m in the hair salon … Actually, neither was getting a good hair cut …’
‘What were you thinking?’ said Colin.
‘Guys, come on,’ said Gary. ‘The red pins here represent our random robbers – a mixed bunch of amateurs.’
‘So they’ve all been caught, obviously …’ said Ren, smiling.
‘Our Glenwood visitor appears to be mocking us,’ said Cliff. ‘Perhaps she feels that, without her, we are nothing.’
Ren nodded.
‘And to continue,’ said Gary. ‘The green pins represent the Val Pando crew. To recap – the first was Arvada, the second here in Denver on Colfax …’ The rest were off I-70 heading west.’ He moved his finger along the map. ‘In order of geographical location, east–west: Idaho Springs, Georgetown, Silver Plume, Grand Junction. But as we know, the robberies weren’t carried out in that particular order.’
‘Because that wouldn’t be very smart,’ said Ren. ‘So – six green pins since this all started back in January.’
‘It was bam, bam, bam at the start and now it’s slowed,’ said Robbie.
‘Excuse me for a moment,’ said Gary, checking his pager and walking out the door.
‘Why are you here?’ said Colin.
‘Because Gary asked me to be here,’ said Ren.
‘Secret meetings,’ said Robbie.