V. PATIENCE AND IMPATIENCE
PATTY had been searching for eggs in the barn chamber, and coming down the ladder from the haymow spied her father washing the wagon by the well-side near the shed door. Cephas Cole kept store for him at meal hours and whenever trade was unusually brisk, and the Baxter yard was so happily situated that Old Foxy could watch both house and store.
There never was a good time to ask Deacon Baxter a favor, therefore this moment would serve as well as any other, so, approaching him near enough to be heard through the rubbing and splashing, but no nearer than was necessary Patty said:—
“Father, can I go up to Ellen Wilson’s this afternoon and stay to tea? I won’t start till I’ve done a good day’s work and I’ll come home early.”
“What do you want to go gallivantin’ to the neighbors for? I never saw anything like the girls nowadays; highty-tighty, flauntin’, traipsin’, triflin’ trollops, ev’ry one of ‘em, that’s what they are, and Ellen Wilson’s one of the triflin’est. You’re old enough now to stay to home where you belong and make an effort to earn your board and clothes, which you can’t, even if you try.”
Spunk, real, Simon-pure spunk, started somewhere in Patty and coursed through her blood like wine.
“If a girl’s old enough to stay at home and work, I should think she was old enough to go out and play once in a while.” Patty was still too timid to make this remark more than a courteous suggestion, so far as its tone was concerned.
“Don’t answer me back; you’re full of new tricks, and you’ve got to stop ‘em, right where you are, or there’ll be trouble. You were whistlin’ just now up in the barn chamber; that’s one of the things I won’t have round my premises,—a whistlin’ girl.”
“‘T was a Sabbath-School hymn that I was whistling!” This with a creditable imitation of defiance.
“That don’t make it any better. Sing your hymns if you must make a noise while you’re workin’.”
“It’s the same mouth that makes the whistle and sings the song, so I don’t see why one’s any wickeder than the other.”
“You don’t have to see,” replied the Deacon grimly; “all you have to do is to mind when you’re spoken to. Now run ‘long ‘bout your work.”
“Can’t I go up to Ellen’s, then?”
“What’s goin’ on up there?”
“Just a frolic. There’s always a good time at Ellen’s, and I would so like the sight of a big, rich house now and then!”
“‘Just a frolic.’ Land o’ Goshen, hear the girl! ‘Sight of a big, rich house,’ indeed!—Will there be any boys at the party?”
“I s’pose so, or ‘t wouldn’t be a frolic,” said Patty with awful daring; “but there won’t be many; only a few of Mark’s friends.”
“Well, there ain’t goin’ to be no more argyfyin’! I won’t have any girl o’ mine frolickin’ with boys, so that’s the end of it. You’re kind o’ crazy lately, riggin’ yourself out with a ribbon here and a flower there, and pullin’ your hair down over your ears. Why do you want to cover your ears up? What are they for?”
“To hear you with, father,” Patty replied, with honey-sweet voice and eyes that blazed.
“Well, I hope they’ll never hear anything worse,” replied her father, flinging a bucket of water over the last of the wagon wheels.
“THEY COULDN’T!” These words were never spoken aloud, but oh! how Patty longed to shout them with a clarion voice as she walked away in perfect silence, her majestic gait showing, she hoped, how she resented the outcome of the interview.
“I’ve stood up to father!” she exclaimed triumphantly as she entered the kitchen and set down her yellow bowl of eggs on the table. “I stood up to him, and answered him back three times!”
Waitstill was busy with her Saturday morning cooking, but she turned in alarm.
“Patty, what have you said and done? Tell me quickly!”
“I ‘argyfied,’ but it didn’t do any good; he won’t let me go to Ellen’s party.”
Waitstill wiped her floury hands and put them on her sister’s shoulders.
“Hear what I say, Patty: you must not argue with father, whatever he says. We don’t love him and so there isn’t the right respect in our hearts, but at least there can be respect in our manners.”
“I don’t believe I can go on for years, holding in, Waitstill!” Patty whimpered.
“Yes, you can. I have!”
“You’re different, Waitstill.”
“I wasn’t so different at sixteen, but that’s five years ago, and I’ve got control of my tongue and my temper since then. Sometime, perhaps, when I have a grievance too great to be rightly borne, sometime when you are away from here in a home of your own, I shall speak out to father; just empty my heart of all the disappointment and bitterness and rebellion. Somebody ought to tell him the truth, and perhaps it will be me!”
“I wish it could be me,” exclaimed Patty vindictively, and with an equal disregard of grammar.
“You would speak in temper, I’m afraid, Patty, and that would spoil all. I’m sorry you can’t go up to Ellen’s,” she sighed, turning back to her work; “you don’t have pleasure enough for one of your age; still, don’t fret; something may happen to change things, and anyhow the weather is growing warmer, and you and I have so many more outings in summer-time. Smooth down your hair, child; there are straws in it, and it’s all rough with the wind. I don’t like flying hair about a kitchen.”
“I wish my hair was flying somewhere a thousand miles from here; or at least I should wish it if it did not mean leaving you; for oh. I’m so miserable and disappointed and unhappy!”
Waitstill bent over the girl as she flung herself down beside the table and smoothed her shoulder gently.
“There, there, dear; it isn’t like my gay little sister to cry. What is the matter with you to-day, Patty?”
“I suppose it’s the spring,” she said, wiping her eyes with her apron and smiling through her tears. “Perhaps I need a dose of sulphur and molasses.”
“Don’t you feel well as common?”
“Well? I feel too well! I feel as if I was a young colt shut up in an attic. I want to kick up my heels, batter the door down, and get out into the pasture. It’s no use talking, Waity;—I can’t go on living without a bit of pleasure and I can’t go on being patient even for your sake. If it weren’t for you, I’d run away as Job did; and I never believed Moses slipped on the logs; I’m sure he threw himself into the river, and so should I if I had the courage!”
“Stop, Patty, stop, dear! You shall have your bit of pasture, at least. I’ll do some of your indoor tasks for you, and you shall put on your sunbonnet and go out and dig the dandelion greens for dinner. Take the broken knife and a milkpan and don’t bring in so much earth with them as you did last time. Dry your eyes and look at the green things growing. Remember how young you are and how many years are ahead of you! Go along, dear!”
Waitstill went about her work with rather a heavy heart. Was life going to be more rather than less difficult, now that Patty was growing up? Would she he able to do her duty both by father and sister and keep peace in the household, as she had vowed, in her secret heart, always to do? She paused every now and then to look out of the window and wave an encouraging hand to Patty. The girl’s bonnet was off, and her uncovered head blazed like red gold in the sunlight. The short young grass was dotted with dandelion blooms, some of them already grown to huge disks of yellow, and Patty moved hither and thither, selecting the younger weeds, deftly putting the broken knife under their roots and popping them into the tin pan.