The rhythmic sound of the horses’ hooves on the gravel path seemed louder while she delayed her answer. How could she explain to him that she was not wanting a marquess’s money? She was wanting what every girl wanted.
Love.
She set her chin firmly. ‘Later perhaps we can speak of the marquess.’
‘But I ought—’ he began, but clamped his mouth shut. He blew out a long breath and continued in a resigned tone. ‘What do you wish to talk about, Rose?’
The knot inside her uncoiled. She could pretend a bit longer. ‘Oh, anything …’ She smiled at him, suddenly light hearted. ‘Things people talk about.’
Things she longed to know about him.
She took a breath. ‘Have … have you been in England long, Flynn?’
It took him a moment to respond. ‘Since I was eighteen.’
‘And how long is that, then?’ she persisted.
‘Ten years.’
She had discovered his age! Twenty-eight. ‘What brought you to England, then?’
‘I came to attend Oxford.’
‘Oxford? That is where gentlemen go, is it not? To become vicars and such?’
He laughed. ‘Yes, and other things.’
‘Your family was high enough for Oxford?’
He stiffened. ‘It was.’
She’d offended him. ‘I should not have spoken so.’ She blinked. ‘I hope you’ll forgive me.’
His expression softened. ‘My father is gentry, Rose, a fairly prosperous landowner. He was well able to send me to Oxford.’
Rose relaxed again. ‘And what after Oxford?’
‘I came to London in search of a position. Lord Tannerton took a risk hiring me.’
‘You must have impressed him.’
He gave a half-smile. ‘More like he took pity on me, I should think. But I have learned much in his employ.’
She felt bold enough to ask more. ‘Have you been back to Ireland, then?’
He shook his head, and the frown reappeared on his face.
Oh, dear. She’d made him unhappy again. She cleared her throat. ‘I’ve only been in England a few months.’
‘And why did you come, Miss O’Keefe?’ His response sounded more automatic than curious and, oh, so formal.
‘The school was willing to keep me teaching. The school near Killyleagh, I mean. But I had this desire to sing, you see.’ She paused. ‘Like my mother.’
‘Your mother?’
She nodded. ‘My mother sang in London in her time. She died long ago.’
He looked at her with sympathy, pricking a pain she usually kept carefully hidden.
She swallowed. ‘In any event, my father was working in London, so I came here.’ She glanced away. ‘He could not afford to keep me at first, but then Mr Hook hired me to sing.’ She skipped over a lot of the story, perhaps the most important parts. ‘And when I’m done singing at Vauxhall, I’ll find another place to sing.’
‘Where?’ he asked.
‘Oh, somewhere. I’m thinking there are plenty of theatres in London.’
‘There are theatres in Ireland as well,’ he said.
She shrugged. ‘Not like in London. London has King’s Theatre and Drury Lane and Vauxhall nearby. Plenty of places. My mother once performed in King’s Theatre.’
‘That is impressive,’ he said.
She laughed. ‘Not very impressive, really. She was in the chorus, but she did sing on the stage at King’s Theatre.’
‘Do you wish to sing in the King’s Theatre?’ he asked.
She sighed. ‘I do. More than anything. It must be the most beautiful theatre in the world.’
He smiled. ‘It is quite beautiful.’
‘You’ve seen it?’ She turned to him eagerly.
‘I’ve accompanied Lord Tannerton there on occasion.’
‘You have?’ She would have loved to just walk inside the building, see the boxes and the curtain and the stage. She sighed again.
He continued to smile at her.
She could not help but smile back at him, thinking how boyish he looked when he let his face relax.
A carriage came in the other direction and he attended to the driving again. They lapsed into silence.
She searched for something else to ask him. ‘What work do you do for Lord Tannerton, then?’
‘I manage many of his affairs—’ He cleared his throat. ‘His business affairs. Tend to his correspondence, arrange his appointments, pay bills, run errands and such.’
‘Ah, I see.’ But she really did not understand the business of a marquess.
He went on, ‘You might say I attend to all the tedious details, so the marquess is free for more important matters, and so his life runs smoothly.’
Such work would give Rose the headache. ‘Are you liking what you do?’
He nodded. ‘I have learned much about the world through it. About politics. Money. Power—’
Such things were mysteries to her.
‘I have even been to Vienna and Brussels and Paris with Lord Tannerton.’
Her eyes widened with interest. ‘Have you now?’
‘The marquess assisted in the diplomacies, you see. And I assisted him.’ He spoke proudly.
She liked seeing his pride. ‘Were you there for the great battle?’
‘In Brussels, yes, but we were not at Waterloo.’ His face became serious. ‘The marquess helped with the aftermath, assisting in the logistics of the wounded and in any other way of being at service.’
Rose did not know what ‘logistics’ were, but she knew there were many wounded in the battle. Many Irish soldiers had fought and died at Waterloo. She was glad Flynn had been there to help those who survived.
He gave a dry laugh. ‘But it must be tedious to hear of such things.’
‘Oh, no,’ she assured him. ‘I confess I do not understand all of it, but you were meaning, I think, that you were in important places, doing important things.’
‘That is it,’ he agreed. ‘In the centre of things. A part of it all.’
‘I’m supposing it is a little like being a performer, isn’t it? Performing is not so important, perhaps, but it is being a part of something. I mean, the singing is only one piece of it. There are the musicians, too, and the conductor and all. Everyone together makes the performance.’
He looked at her so intently her insides fluttered. ‘Yes, it is precisely like that. One feels good about one’s part in it.’
‘Yes.’ She quickly glanced away and spied a man crossing the park with a bundle on his shoulder. ‘And that man there is doing his part, too, isn’t he? We don’t know what it is, but without him it would not happen, would it?’
A smile flitted across his face, disappearing when he gazed into her eyes again. ‘Yes, I expect you are very right.’
Her breath quickened, like it