The Caxtons: A Family Picture — Volume 10. Эдвард Бульвер-Литтон

a knock bullying—a knock ostentatious—a knock irritating and offensive— impiger and iracundus.

      But the step that came up the stairs did not suit the knock; it was a step light, yet firm—slow, yet elastic.

      The maid-servant who had opened the door had, no doubt, informed Vivian of my visit, for he did not seem surprised to see me; but he cast that hurried, suspicious look round the room which a man is apt to cast when he has left his papers about and finds some idler, on whose trustworthiness he by no means depends, seated in the midst of the unguarded secrets. The look was not flattering; but my conscience was so unreproachful that I laid all the blame upon the general suspiciousness of Vivian's character.

      "Three hours, at least, have I been here!" said I, maliciously.

      "Three hours!"—again the look.

      "And this is the worst secret I have discovered,"—and I pointed to those literary Manicheans.

      "Oh!" said he, carelessly, "French novels! I don't wonder you stayed so long. I can't read your English novels,—flat and insipid; there are truth and life here."

      "Truth and life!" cried I, every hair on my head erect with astonishment. "Then hurrah for falsehood and death!"

      "They don't please you,—no accounting for tastes."

      "I beg your pardon,—I account for yours, if you really take for truth and life monsters so nefast and flagitious. For Heaven's sake, my dear fellow, don't suppose that any man could get on in England,—get anywhere but to the Old Bailey or Norfolk Island,—if he squared his conduct to such topsy-turvy notions of the world as I find here."

      "How many years are you my senior," asked Vivian, sneeringly, "that you should play the mentor and correct my ignorance of the world?"

      "Vivian, it is not age and experience that speak here, it is something far wiser than they,—the instinct of a man's heart and a gentleman's honor."

      "Well, well," said Vivian, rather discomposed, "let the poor books alone; you know my creed—that books influence us little one way or the other."

      "By the great Egyptian library and the soul of Diodorus! I wish you could hear my father upon that point. Come," added I, with sublime compassion, "come, it is not too late, do let me introduce you to my father. I will consent to read French novels all my life if a single chat with Austin Caxton does not send you home with a happier face and lighter heart. Come, let me take you back to dine with us to-day."

      "I cannot," said Vivian, with some confusion; "I cannot, for this day I leave London. Some other time perhaps,—for," he added, but not heartily, "we may meet again."

      "I hope so," said I, wringing his hand, "and that is likely, since, in spite of yourself, I have guessed your secret,—your birth and parentage."

      "How!" cried Vivian, turning pale and gnawing his lip. "What do you mean? Speak."

      "Well, then, are you not the lost, runaway son of Colonel Vivian? Come, say the truth; let us be confidants."

      Vivian threw off a succession of his abrupt sighs; and, then, seating himself, leaned his face on the table, confused, no doubt, to find himself discovered.

      "You are near the mark," said he, at last, "but do not ask me further yet. Some day," he cried impetuously, and springing suddenly to his feet, "some day you shall know all,—yes, some day, if I live, when that name shall be high in the world; yes, when the world is at my feet!" He stretched his right hand as if to grasp the space, and his whole face was lighted with a fierce enthusiasm. The glow died away, and with a slight return of his scornful smile he said: "Dreams yet; dreams! And now, look at this paper." And he drew out a memorandum, scrawled over with figures.

      "This, I think, is my pecuniary debt to you; in a few days I shall discharge it. Give me your address."

      "Oh!" said I, pained, "can you speak to me of money, Vivian?"

      "It is one of those instincts of honor you cite so often," answered he, coloring. "Pardon me."

      "That is my address," said I, stooping to write, in order to conceal my wounded feelings. "You will avail yourself of it, I hope, often, and tell me that you are well and happy."

      "When I am happy you shall know."

      "You do not require any introduction to Trevanion?"

      Vivian hesitated. "No, I think not. If ever I do, I will write for it."

      I took up my hat, and was about to go,—for I was still chilled and mortified,—when, as if by an irresistible impulse, Vivian came to me hastily, flung his arms round my neck, and kissed me as a boy kisses his brother.

      "Bear with me!" he cried in a faltering voice; "I did not think to love any one as you have made me love you, though sadly against the grain. If you are not my good angel, it is that nature and habit are too strong for you. Certainly some day we shall meet again. I shall have time, in the mean while, to see if the world can be indeed 'mine oyster, which I with sword can open.' I would be aut Caesar aut nullus! Very little other Latin know I to quote from! If Caesar, men will forgive me all the means to the end; if nullus, London has a river, and in every street one may buy a cord!"

      "Vivian! Vivian!"

      "Now go, my dear friend, while my heart is softened,—go before I shock you with some return of the native Adam. Go, go!"

      And taking me gently by the arm, Francis Vivian drew me from the room, and re-entering, locked his door.

      Ah! if I could have left him Robert Hall, instead of those execrable Typhons! But would that medicine have suited his case, or must grim Experience write sterner prescriptions with iron hand?