‘Why haven’t you been answering my calls? I had to find out from Vince that it was Edie, that’s she’s dead.’ He stops. Pain flashes across his face. ‘That she was murdered. One phone call, one, that’s all it would have taken.’
‘Do you know what it’s been like here? Police, press, I don’t even know what day of the week it is. You’ve absolutely no idea.’
‘Because you’ve not been speaking to me,’ he yells. ‘I’ve had to keep ringing Cassie.’
I check the kitchen door and hope Dad can’t hear.
‘I can’t deal with this right now, Max.’
He takes a deep breath.
‘Look, I didn’t come to argue,’ he says. ‘I came here because I’m worried about you. You shouldn’t go through this on your own.’
‘I’ve got Dad.’
‘How is he?’
I shrug. In truth, I am on my own.
‘He looks ill. Have the police interviewed him again?’
‘Not yet.’
‘What about you?’ Max asks.
‘Not properly. I have to go in sometime, go over my original statement.’
Max shifts his weight to his other foot.
‘I’ve got to speak to them tomorrow.’
‘You?’
‘They’re talking to everyone from Joseph Amberley who knew Edie, the boys’ and the girls’ schools. I’m only going to tell them what I told them before, that I knew her from the odd party. It’s just, you know…’ He shifts his weight again. ‘Going out with you, they might make a big deal about it.’
‘Why would they?’
‘I don’t know. But make sure they don’t twist it, to make our relationship seem odd. And tell them I had no reason to harm Edie. And me seeing you, it was just a chance meeting. I mean, it’s the truth.’
It’s the truth, the sort of expression people use when they’re lying, along with honestly and swear on my mother’s life, which wouldn’t count for much with Max, given that he hates his mother. I’ve never thought of our relationship as odd, imbalanced and dysfunctional, but not odd. I like that Max remembers Edie and understands when I say, ‘Edie would like this’, ‘Edie would hate that’. It’s always been something positive and held us together. Why would it be odd and why did Max just tell a lie, which I’m sure he did?
I think of another woman’s scent, lingering in his hair the night before I left.
‘Who’s the girl you’re seeing?’ I ask.
‘What are you talking about?’
‘I smelt her on you, that last night I spent in London.’
‘She’s no one. And you’d just dumped me…’
‘You dumped me,’ I say. ‘You told me it was over.’
‘That’s not true. I still want to be with you.’
‘If I move back here and have seventeen babies.’
‘Two would be fine.’
His face sets into its habitual sulk.
‘Now isn’t the time, Max,’ I say.
‘It’s never the time with you, is it, Tess?’
‘Not when I’ve just found out my sister’s been murdered, no.’
‘Why do you push everyone away? I came here to be with you. I’m upset about Edie because of the pain it’s causing you and you turn it into something else. I don’t know what I can do right for you, Tess, I never have. You think you don’t need anyone, then you end up in a mess and expect me or your dad to sort you out. Well, neither of us are going to be here forever,’ he says and stamps back into the house.
*
‘Do you mind me asking who that was?’ Craven asks when I come back inside. Max has disappeared and Dad must have gone upstairs. ‘We’re supposed to keep tabs on who comes to the house. Just procedure, you understand.’
‘That was Max,’ I say.
‘Max Arnold?’ Craven looks confused. ‘Do you mind me asking what he was doing here?’
‘He came to see me.’
‘Any particular reason?’
The police contacted me through Dad and can’t have noticed that I have the same London address as Max. I think about explaining that we’re not in a relationship, only we sort of are but we’re not together, even though we still live in the same flat, then decide that’s all too complicated. And I’m saved from answering by Dad crashing back into the room, waving a notebook in front of him. Craven takes a moment to recognise it as his.
‘I have to ask for that back,’ he says sternly.
‘Are you interrogating Tess now?’
‘Just asking a few questions. And I do have to insist you hand over my notebook. That’s part of an ongoing investigation.’
‘I’ve told you to leave her alone.’
‘I’m not a child, Dad.’
‘Don’t say anything to him, Tess,’ Dad says.
Craven looks bemused.
‘Don’t you want to know, Mr Piper? If it were one of my daughters who had been murdered—’
‘It’s not one of your daughters though, is it? Tess is my daughter too and I’m not having you lot harassing her. We’ve already had journalists poking around. Don’t you think we’ve been through enough? You say you’re here to help but look what I found …’ Dad holds the notebook at arm’s length and starts to read. ‘V. Piper – detached – two question marks. T. Piper reliable witness – three question marks. Aunt and uncle hostile – exclamation mark.’ He glares at Craven as he throws the book to the floor. ‘Here to help? You’re here to set us up.’
‘I can assure you that’s not the case, Mr Piper. However painful, there has to be an investigation,’ Craven says. ‘And we need to ask questions of everyone involved from that time, including the family, if we’re to get to the truth.’
‘You lot aren’t interested in the truth. I remember from before. How had I coped since my wife died? Wasn’t it awful to be a man on my own? Didn’t I miss having a woman around the place? Did I love my daughter? Did it make me jealous, knowing she’d started getting interested in boys? I knew what they were asking. Making me ashamed to admit I loved my own daughter, twisting it into something dirty and disgusting.’
I had no idea what Dad went through back then. I was shielded and kept safe. I had been a victim, but Dad had been a suspect.
Craven picks the notebook up and starts to speak in a slow, even-toned voice, no doubt some training manual calming technique.
‘As a father myself, I can’t imagine how awful it must have been for you,’ he says.
‘No, you can’t,’ Dad says. ‘No one can ever know.’
‘And we won’t be repeating those mistakes, Mr Piper.’
Dad steps towards Craven.
‘Get out,’ he says. ‘I’ve had enough.’
‘Mr Piper, please.’
‘Out.’
Craven looks to me.
‘Perhaps you could come back another