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because YOU'RE earning he needn't keep the house any longer. No, all he has to do with his money is to guttle it. But I'll show him!”

      “Oh, mother, don't!” cried Paul.

      “Don't what, I should like to know?” she exclaimed.

      “Don't carry on again. I can't work.”

      She went very quiet.

      “Yes, it's all very well,” she said; “but how do you think I'm going to manage?”

      “Well, it won't make it any better to whittle about it.”

      “I should like to know what you'd do if you had it to put up with.”

      “It won't be long. You can have my money. Let him go to hell.”

      He went back to his work, and she tied her bonnet-strings grimly. When she was fretted he could not bear it. But now he began to insist on her recognizing him.

      “The two loaves at the top,” she said, “will be done in twenty minutes. Don't forget them.”

      “All right,” he answered; and she went to market.

      He remained alone working. But his usual intense concentration became unsettled. He listened for the yard-gate. At a quarter-past seven came a low knock, and Miriam entered.

      “All alone?” she said.

      “Yes.”

      As if at home, she took off her tam-o'-shanter and her long coat, hanging them up. It gave him a thrill. This might be their own house, his and hers. Then she came back and peered over his work.

      “What is it?” she asked.

      “Still design, for decorating stuffs, and for embroidery.”

      She bent short-sightedly over the drawings.

      It irritated him that she peered so into everything that was his, searching him out. He went into the parlour and returned with a bundle of brownish linen. Carefully unfolding it, he spread it on the floor. It proved to be a curtain or portiere, beautifully stencilled with a design on roses.

      “Ah, how beautiful!” she cried.

      The spread cloth, with its wonderful reddish roses and dark green stems, all so simple, and somehow so wicked-looking, lay at her feet. She went on her knees before it, her dark curls dropping. He saw her crouched voluptuously before his work, and his heart beat quickly. Suddenly she looked up at him.

      “Why does it seem cruel?” she asked.

      “What?”

      “There seems a feeling of cruelty about it,” she said.

      “It's jolly good, whether or not,” he replied, folding up his work with a lover's hands.

      She rose slowly, pondering.

      “And what will you do with it?” she asked.

      “Send it to Liberty's. I did it for my mother, but I think she'd rather have the money.”

      “Yes,” said Miriam. He had spoken with a touch of bitterness, and Miriam sympathised. Money would have been nothing to HER.

      He took the cloth back into the parlour. When he returned he threw to Miriam a smaller piece. It was a cushion-cover with the same design.

      “I did that for you,” he said.

      She fingered the work with trembling hands, and did not speak. He became embarrassed.

      “By Jove, the bread!” he cried.

      He took the top loaves out, tapped them vigorously. They were done. He put them on the hearth to cool. Then he went to the scullery, wetted his hands, scooped the last white dough out of the punchion, and dropped it in a baking-tin. Miriam was still bent over her painted cloth. He stood rubbing the bits of dough from his hands.

      “You do like it?” he asked.

      She looked up at him, with her dark eyes one flame of love. He laughed uncomfortably. Then he began to talk about the design. There was for him the most intense pleasure in talking about his work to Miriam. All his passion, all his wild blood, went into this intercourse with her, when he talked and conceived his work. She brought forth to him his imaginations. She did not understand, any more than a woman understands when she conceives a child in her womb. But this was life for her and for him.

      While they were talking, a young woman of about twenty-two, small and pale, hollow-eyed, yet with a relentless look about her, entered the room. She was a friend at the Morel's.

      “Take your things off,” said Paul.

      “No, I'm not stopping.”

      She sat down in the armchair opposite Paul and Miriam, who were on the sofa. Miriam moved a little farther from him. The room was hot, with a scent of new bread. Brown, crisp loaves stood on the hearth.

      “I shouldn't have expected to see you here to-night, Miriam Leivers,” said Beatrice wickedly.

      “Why not?” murmured Miriam huskily.

      “Why, let's look at your shoes.”

      Miriam remained uncomfortably still.

      “If tha doesna tha durs'na,” laughed Beatrice.

      Miriam put her feet from under her dress. Her boots had that queer, irresolute, rather pathetic look about them, which showed how self-conscious and self-mistrustful she was. And they were covered with mud.

      “Glory! You're a positive muck-heap,” exclaimed Beatrice. “Who cleans your boots?”

      “I clean them myself.”

      “Then you wanted a job,” said Beatrice. “It would ha' taken a lot of men to ha' brought me down here to-night. But love laughs at sludge, doesn't it, 'Postle my duck?”

      “Inter alia,” he said.

      “Oh, Lord! are you going to spout foreign languages? What does it mean, Miriam?”

      There was a fine sarcasm in the last question, but Miriam did not see it.

      “'Among other things,' I believe,” she said humbly.

      Beatrice put her tongue between her teeth and laughed wickedly.

      “'Among other things,' 'Postle?” she repeated. “Do you mean love laughs at mothers, and fathers, and sisters, and brothers, and men friends, and lady friends, and even at the b'loved himself?”

      She affected a great innocence.

      “In fact, it's one big smile,” he replied.

      “Up its sleeve, 'Postle Morel—you believe me,” she said; and she went off into another burst of wicked, silent laughter.

      Miriam sat silent, withdrawn into herself. Every one of Paul's friends delighted in taking sides against her, and he left her in the lurch—seemed almost to have a sort of revenge upon her then.

      “Are you still at school?” asked Miriam of Beatrice.

      “Yes.”

      “You've not had your notice, then?”

      “I expect it at Easter.”

      “Isn't it an awful shame, to turn you off merely because you didn't pass the exam?”

      “I don't know,” said Beatrice coldly.

      “Agatha says you're as good as any teacher anywhere. It seems to me ridiculous. I wonder why you didn't pass.”

      “Short of brains, eh, 'Postle?” said Beatrice briefly.

      “Only brains to bite with,” replied Paul, laughing.

      “Nuisance!” she cried; and, springing from her seat, she rushed and boxed his ears. She had beautiful small hands. He held her wrists while she wrestled with him. At last she