She understood probably better than anybody how the need to fulfill your dreams was a vital part of life. But she was desperate to hold on to her own dream, and she needed James to do it. He couldn’t possibly have thought this through. He didn’t realize what he was leaving.
Shoving her wine aside, she stalked toward him. “Why a café? Hell, Starbucks is the wildest place in town.”
“My café will be more like a gathering place for the locals. You can read the paper. Exchange news and gossip. Maybe I’ll invite book clubs to meet in the evenings. I could learn to make bread and show off my famous cheesecake recipe.”
Lily darted around him and planted her hands on her hips. “You can make cheesecake?” she accused in a dangerous whisper. She was holding on to her temper by a thread. Fear was desperately trying to push its way through her body. And, at the core of it all, she just plain didn’t understand why. Why did he want to leave? How could he?
He glanced down at her, his eyes bright with affection. “I’ll make you the chocolate-turtle one before I go.”
The resolved expression on his face made her throat start to close, and not even the promise of cheesecake could cheer her. Her mind darted about for another logical argument. That was the way to get to him. She didn’t think he’d respond to tears or terror. “Why Connecticut?” she managed to ask in a strained voice. “You could open a café in the city. We could hire an assistant for you here. You could stay in charge but have more help.”
“The commotion of the city is what I’m trying to escape.” He lifted his hand as if he might stroke her cheek, then let his arm fall back by his side. “It’s not you, Lily, I promise.”
Her hands shook, but she grabbed his arm, turning him toward the windows. Tapping the glass, she asked, “Can you really leave that view, that energy, behind? God, James, I want to shake you. The city is the most amazing place on earth. When you have perfection, how could you possibly ask for more?”
“You grew up with trees and wide-open spaces. Stars you can see clearly at night. No subway or pollution in sight. How could you possibly ask for more?”
“I grew up in the boondocks! Have you ever tried to get a decent cappuccino on a farm?”
“I’ll make my own.”
“What about restaurants and takeout?”
“I’ll have those culinary-school classes to fall back on.”
“What about shoes?”
“I’d ask you to send them to me, but I really don’t think a pair of four-inch stilettos would suit me.”
Lily rubbed her temples. She certainly couldn’t outwit him, or outthink him. She had to figure out something else. And quick.
“You should get to your date.” He glanced at his watch. “Me, too. We’ll talk in the morning.” He started toward the door.
“What about watches?” she asked as she stalked after him. His calmness made her want to scream in contrast. “I bet they don’t sell cool watches on street corners in Connecticut.”
At the door, he turned back. “Maybe you’ll give me one—as a parting gift.” He reached out and grasped her hand, giving it a quick squeeze. “You look lovely tonight, by the way. That silver blouse really suits you. And, of course, it’s sparkly—perfect for the luminous Lily Reaves.”
He was out the door before she could respond.
And a good thing, too, since she wasn’t quite sure she could have resisted slugging him.
Sweet compliments as he destroyed her world by quitting? James Chamberlin had no idea how dirty she’d fight if she was pushed far enough.
No idea at all.
LIGHT-HEADED FROM her third glass of chardonnay and still depressed and frantic over James’s announcement, Lily sipped her wine and tried hard to focus on the elegant Manhattan restaurant where Brian had brought her. Black linen tablecloths, roses on the table, fine china and crystal, well-dressed patrons and spectacular service.
He certainly had excellent taste, though part of her worried about the expense. Brian’s business wasn’t nearly as successful and stable as hers.
“How are the preparations for the Spring Spectacular coming?” he asked.
Lily chewed a bite of salmon slowly to give herself time to prepare an answer to his question. She settled on a simple “Fine.”
What if this was the last big show she did? What if James’s L.A. contacts dumped her after he left? She really wanted to see a pair of her sparkly shoes on that red carpet again. What if—
She cut herself off in an effort to make coherent conversation. “How do your spring orders look?”
Brian shrugged. “Not sure. My business manager handles all that stuff.”
Though that was true for Lily as well, she certainly knew on a weekly basis how business was progressing.
“So the Spectacular preparations are going well?”
She sighed. “Yes. As usual, James has everything under control. We’re actually ahead of schedule.”
“But are you okay? You seem distracted.”
Lily laid her hand across her stomach. She was regretting this date more by the second. She should have called her friends and spent the night crying on their shoulders. “I think I’m just stressed. It’s been an…interesting day.”
“Oh.” Brian cleared his throat. “Sorry. We’ve had some great times together, don’t you think?”
Struggling to adjust to the change in conversation, she nodded slowly. “Well, yeah, I guess.”
He kicked his smile up a notch. “I think we should take our relationship to the next level.”
Lily suppressed a wince. “Well, I—”
“Will you marry me?”
Her jaw dropped. “Excuse me?”
“I think we should get married.”
This night was just too weird to comprehend. “You’re kidding.” She waved her hand as he opened his mouth to speak. “Doesn’t matter if you’re kidding or not. No.”
Cute, blond, but obviously hard-of-hearing Brian frowned. “No?”
“We’ve only been out a few times. Don’t you think it’s a bit soon to get married?”
He reached across the table and grasped her hand. His blue eyes softened. “When it’s right, why wait?”
Lily tapped her nails against the table. Do you want the whole list, or just the top twenty-five? “I’m not getting married, Brian.”
“We’ll have a long engagement.”
“Ever,” she finished.
“Of course you are, darling. You’re lovely and talented, and you need a partner who’ll support and understand you.”
“That’s what a manager is for.” With James running her life and business affairs, what did she need a husband for? She wouldn’t even think about the possibility that he’d really leave. She would find a way to talk him out of this crazy retirement thing.
Since this was the second time tonight she’d found herself dealing with a man who was dead set on pursing a really bad idea, she figured she’d give the logical argument another swing. “We don’t know each other well enough to get married.”
“I know you.”
“What’s my favorite color?”
“Uh…”
“What’s