When the mare bucked in protest, he twisted the reins around his hand and felt the cut of leather across his palm as he fought for control of both his horse and the memories threatening as low as the dark clouds above his head.
Icy rain had poured that night five years ago, only he hadn’t been on his ranch; he’d been trapped in the hallway of the county hospital fifty miles away. His son had lain at one end, fighting for his life, and reporters had huddled just beyond the entrance at the other end, hollering for news.
All they’d cared about was that the kid’s grandfather was a United States senator. No one had cared that Staten, the boy’s father and only parent, held them back. All they’d wanted was a headline. All Staten had wanted was for his son to live.
But, he didn’t get what he wanted.
Randall, only child of Staten Kirkland, only grandchild of Senator Samuel Kirkland, had died that night. The reporters had gotten their headline, complete with pictures of Staten storming through the double doors, swinging at every man who tried to stop him. He’d left two reporters and a clueless intern on the floor, but he hadn’t slowed.
He’d run into the storm that night not caring about the rain. Not caring about his own life. Two years before he’d buried his wife, and now he would put his son in the ground beside her because of a car crash. He’d had to run from the ache so deep in his heart it would never heal.
Now, five years later, another storm was blowing through, but the ache inside him hadn’t lessened. He rode toward headquarters on the half-wild horse. Rain mixed with tears he never let anyone see. He’d wanted to die that night. He had no one. His wife’s illness had left both father and son bitter, lost. If she’d lived, maybe Randall would have been different. Calmer. Maybe if he’d had her love, the boy wouldn’t have been so wild. He wouldn’t have thought himself so invincible.
Only, taking a winding road at over a hundred miles per hour had killed him. The car his grandfather had given him for his sixteenth birthday a month earlier had missed the curve heading into Ransom Canyon and rolled over and over. The newspapers had quoted one first responder as saying, “Thank God he’d been alone. No one in that sports car would have survived.”
Staten wished he’d been with his boy. He’d felt dead inside the day he buried Randall next to his wife, and he felt dead now as memories pounded.
He rode close to the canyon rim as the storm raged, almost wishing the jagged earth would claim him, too. But, he was fifth generation born to this land. There would be no more Kirklands after him, and he wouldn’t go without a fight.
As he raced, he remembered the horror of seeing his son pulled out of the wreck, too beat up and bloody for even a father to recognize. Kirkland blood had poured over the red dirt of the canyon that night.
He rode feeling the pounding of his horse’s hooves match the beat of his heart.
When Staten crossed under the Double K gate and let the horse gallop to the barn, he took a deep breath, knowing what he had to do.
Looking up, he saw Jake there at the barn door waiting for him. The rodeo had crippled the old man, but Jake Longbow was still the best hand on the ranch.
“Dry him off!” Staten yelled above the storm as he handed over the mare to Jake’s care. “I have to go.”
The old cowboy, his face like twisted rawhide, nodded once as if he knew what Staten would say. A thousand times over the years, Jake had moved into action before Staten issued the order. “I got this, Mr. Kirkland. You do what you got to do.”
Darting across the back corral, Staten climbed into the huge Dodge 3500 with its Cummins diesel engine and four-wheel drive. The truck might guzzle gas and ride rough, but if he slid off the road tonight, it wouldn’t roll.
Half an hour later he finally slowed as he turned into a farm twenty miles north of Crossroads, Texas. A sign, in need of painting and with a few bullet holes in it, read simply “Lavender Lane.” Even in the rain the air here smelled of lavender. He’d made it to Quinn’s place. One house, one farm, sat alone with nothing near enough to call a neighbor.
Quinn O’Grady’s home always reminded him of a little girl’s fancy dollhouse: brightly painted shutters and gingerbread trim everywhere. Folks sometimes commented on how the house was as fancy as the woman who owned it was plain, but Staten had never thought of her that way. She was shy, had kept to herself even in grade school, but she was her own woman. She’d built a living out of the worthless land her parents had left her.
He might have gone his whole life saying no more than hello to her, but Quinn O’Grady had been his wife’s best friend. Even after he’d married Amalah, she’d still have her “girls’ days” with Quinn.
They’d can peaches in the fall and take courses at the church on quilting and pottery. They’d take off to Dallas for an art show or to Canton for the world’s biggest garage sale. He couldn’t count the times his wife had climbed into Quinn’s old green pickup and simply called out that they were going shopping as if that were all he needed to know. Half the time they didn’t come back with anything but ice-cream-sundae smiles.
Quinn hadn’t talked to him much in those early years, but she’d been a good friend to his wife, and that mattered. Near the end, she’d sat with Amalah in the hospital so he could go home to shower and change clothes. That last month, it seemed she was always near. The two women had been best friends all their lives, and they would be to the end.
Staten didn’t smile as he cut the engine in front of Quinn O’Grady’s house. He never smiled. Not anymore. For years he’d worked hard thinking he’d be passing on the Double K to his son. Now, if Staten died, the ranch would probably be sold at auction to help support his father’s run for the senate or, who knows, the old guy might run for governor next time. Even though Samuel Kirkland was in his sixties, his fourth wife was keeping him young, he claimed. He’d never had much interest in the ranch and hadn’t spent a night on Kirkland soil since Staten had taken over the place.
Quinn caught Staten’s attention as she opened her door and stared out at him. She had a big towel in one hand as she leaned against the door frame and waited for him to climb out of the truck and come inside. She was tall, almost six feet, and ordinary in her simple clothes. He couldn’t imagine Quinn in heels or her hair fixed any way except the long braid she always wore down the center of her back. She’d worn jeans since she started school; only, there had been two braids trailing down her back then.
Funny, Staten thought as he climbed out and tried to outrun the rain, a woman who wants nothing to do with frills or lace lives in a dollhouse.
After he reached the porch and shook like a big dog, she handed him the towel. “When I saw the storm moving in, I figured you’d be coming. Tug off those muddy boots while I dip up some soup for supper. I made taco soup when I saw the clouds rolling in from the north.”
No one ordered any Kirkland around. No one. Only here, in her house, he did what she asked. He might never have another drop of love in him, but he’d still respect Quinn.
His spurs jingled as his boots hit the porch. In his stocking feet he stood only a few inches taller than her, but with his broad shoulders he guessed he probably doubled her in weight. “Any chance the clouds made you think of coconut pie?”
She laughed softly. “It’s in the oven. Be out in a minute.”
They watched the stormy afternoon turn into evening, with lightning putting on a show outside her kitchen window. He liked how he felt comfortable being silent around her. They sometimes talked about Amalah and the funny things that had happened when they were growing up. He felt as if he and Quinn were the