‘Keep managing the airway,’ the female intensive care paramedic instructed Billie, after Gareth had informed her of their medical credentials. She handed Billie a proper resus set—complete with peep valve and oxygen supply. ‘You okay to intubate?’
Billie nodded. She could. As a second-year resident she’d done it before but not a lot. And then there was the blood.
She took another deep, steadying breath.
Gareth continued compressions as one of the advanced care paramedics slapped on some defib pads and the other tried to establish IV access.
In the background several firemen dealt with the car, some set up a road block with the police while others directed a newly arrived tow truck to one side.
The automatic defibrillator warned everyone to move away from the patient as it advised a shock.
‘Stand clear,’ the paramedic called, and everyone dropped what they were doing and moved well back.
A series of shocks was delivered, to no avail, and everyone resumed their positions. IV access was gained and emergency drugs were delivered. Billie successfully intubated as Gareth continued with cardiac massage. Two minutes later the defibrillator recommended another shock and everyone moved away again.
The driver’s chest arched. ‘We’ve got a rhythm,’ the paramedic announced.
Gareth reached over and felt for the carotid. ‘Yep,’ he agreed. ‘I have a pulse.’
‘Okay, let’s get him loaded and go.’
Billie reached for the bag to resume respiratory support on the still unconscious patient but the intensive care paramedic crouched beside Billie said, ‘Would you like me to take over?’
Billie looked at her, startled. She’d been concentrating so hard on not losing her stomach contents she’d shut everything out other than the whoosh of her own breath. But the airway was secure and they had a pulse. She could easily hand over to a professional who had way more experience dealing with these situations.
Not to mention the fact that now the emergency was under control her hands were shaking, her teeth were chattering and she was shivering with the cold.
And her knees were killing her.
She looked down at her gloves. They were streaked with blood and another wave of nausea welled inside her.
Billie handed the bag over and then suddenly warm hands were lifting her up onto her shaking legs, supporting her as her numb knees threatened to buckle. A blanket was thrown around her shoulders and she huddled into its warmth as she was shepherded in the direction of her car.
‘Are you okay?’
Billie glanced towards the deep voice, surprised to find herself looking at Gareth. He was tall and broad and looked warm and inviting and she felt so cold. She had the strangest urge to walk into his arms.
‘I’m fine,’ she said, gripping the blanket tighter around her shoulders, looking down at where her gloved hands held the edges of the blanket together.
Dried blood stared back at her. The nausea she’d been valiantly trying to keep at bay hit her in a rush.
And right there, dressed to the nines in front of Gareth and a dozen emergency personnel, she bent over and threw up her fancy, two-hundred-dollar, three-course meal on the side of the road.
BILLIE WAS THANKFUL as she talked to the police a few minutes later she’d never have to see anyone here ever again. She doubted if any of these seasoned veterans blinked an eye at someone barfing at the scene of an accident and they’d all been very understanding but she was the doctor, for crying out loud.
People looked to her to be the calm, in-control one. To take bloodied accident victims in her stride. She was supposed to be able to hold herself together.
Not throw up at the sight of blood and gore.
Billie wondered anew how she was going to cope in the emergency room for the next six months. For the rest of her life, for that matter, given that emergency medicine was her chosen career path.
Mostly because it was high-flying enough to assuage parental and family expectations without being surgical. The Ashworth-Keyes of the world were all surgeons. Choosing a non-surgical specialty was not an option.
Unless it carried the same kind of kudos. As emergency medicine, apparently, did.
And at least this way Billie knew she’d still be able to treat the things that interested her most. Raw and messy were not her cup of tea but infections and diseases, the run-of-the-mill medical problems that were seen in GP practices across the country every day were.
But Ashworth-Keyes’ were not GPs.
And Billie was carrying a double load of expectation.
She glanced across at Gareth, who was looking relaxed and assured amidst a tableau of clashing lights. The milky phosphorescence of the moon, the glow of fluorescent safety striping on multiple uniforms and the garish strobing of red, blue and amber. He didn’t seem to be affected by any of it, his deep, steady voice carrying towards her on the cool night air as he relayed the details of the accident to a police officer.
Billie cringed as she recalled how he’d held her hair back and rubbed between her shoulders blades as she’d hurled up everything in her stomach. Then had sourced some water for her to rinse her mouth out and offered her a mint.
It seemed like he’d done it before. But, then, she supposed, an ER nurse probably had done it a thousand times.
Still … why did she have to go and disgrace herself in front of possibly the most good-looking man she’d seen in a very long time?
She’d noticed it subliminally while they’d been performing CPR but she’d had too much else going on, what with holding someone’s life in the balance and trying not to vomit, to give her thoughts free rein.
But she didn’t now.
And she let them run wild as she too answered a policeman’s questions.
Billie supposed a lot of her friends wouldn’t classify Gareth as good looking purely because of his age. The grey whiskers putting some salt into the sexy growth of stubble at his jaw and the small lines around his eyes that crinkled a little as he smiled told her he had to be in his late thirties, early forties.
But, then, she’d always preferred older men.
She found maturity sexy. She liked the way, by and large, older men were content in their skins and didn’t feel the need to hem a woman in to validate themselves. The easy way they spoke and the way they carried their bodies and wore their experience on their faces and were comfortable with that. She liked the way so many of them didn’t seem like they had anything to prove.
She liked how Gareth embodied that. Even standing in the middle of an accident scene he looked at ease.
Gareth laughed at something the policeman said and she watched as he raked a piece of hair back that had flopped forward. She liked his hair. It was wavy and a little long at the back, brushing his collar, and he wore it swept back where it fell in neat rippled rows.
She’d noticed, as they’d tried to save the driver’s life, it was dark with some streaks of grey, like his whiskers.
And she liked that too.
His arm dropped back down by his side and her gaze drifted to his biceps. She’d noticed those biceps as well while they’d been working on their man. How could she not have? Every time she’d opened her eyes there they’d been, contracting and releasing with each downward compression.
Firm