The month before, I had killed a cat and laid the stiff body out at the edge of the lake to see what would happen.
Don’t worry, it wasn’t someone’s pet, only a stray cat. A little tabby that lived in the forest. At least, that is where I found it. If the animal did, in fact, belong to someone, it did not wear a tag. If it was a pet and they allowed it to roam free without a tag, any blame for the creature’s demise should fall upon the careless owners.
The cat did not look well. It hadn’t for some time.
The remains smelled something awful the first few days, but that quickly passed. First the flies came, then the maggots. Something larger may have picked at it some night during those early days. Now, though, after only a month, nothing remained but bones. Wind and rain would surely take those. Then it would be gone.
I imagine a person would disappear just as quickly.
At first the noise startled me. In all the time I had been coming to the lake, I had yet to spot another person. Nothing is forever, though, and here one stood less than a hundred feet away at the lake’s edge, gazing out over the water.
I shuffled around to the side of my tree so as not to be spotted.
Although her angle prevented me from seeing her face, I immediately recognized her hair, those long chocolate curls at her back.
She glanced in my direction and I ducked back. Then she turned to her right, surveying her surroundings. Finally content she was alone, she reached into a large bag, pulled out a towel, and spread it on the shore.
After she looked one more time in all directions, her hand went to the back of her dress and untied it at the neck. It fell from her body and pooled at her feet in a puddle of white, flowered cloth.
My mouth dropped open.
She wore nothing else.
I had never seen a naked woman before.
She closed her eyes and turned her head up to the sun and smiled.
Her legs were so long.
And breasts!
Oh my. I felt my face blush. It blushes to this day.
I saw a tiny tuft of hair at that spot, that special little spot.
Mrs. Carter walked to the water and stepped in, hesitant at first. No doubt it was cold.
She went farther still, slowly disappearing with the increasing depth.
When the water climbed above her knees, she bent down, took a handful, and splashed it over her chest. She dove in a moment later and swam toward the center of the lake.
From the safety of my tree, I watched.
• • •
The night came and went and proved to be quite restless.
With summer also came the heat, and my room became rather toasty once spring shrugged off its coat.
It wasn’t the heat that had kept me up, though; it was thoughts of Mrs. Carter. I dare to say, they were most unpure and very new to me. When I closed my eyes I still saw her standing in the lake, the water glistening on her damp flesh in the bright light. Her long legs … so long and tender. It made blood rush to a place it never had before, made me feel —
Let us say for a young boy, I was smitten.
I woke the next morning to the sound of her voice.
At first I thought it was only another dream, and I welcomed it, wishing to watch her remove her dress and walk into the lake again and again in the theater of my mind. Her voice drifted through the air on a whisper, followed by Mother’s chuckle. My eyes snapped open.
“It was kinky,” she said. “I had never been tied up before.”
“Never?” Mother replied.
Mrs. Carter giggled. “Does that make me a prude?”
“It just makes you inexperienced. In time, you’ll be surprised by what your husband can come up with to get his rocks off.”
“Really?”
“Oh yes. Just last week …” Mother’s voice dropped to a whisper.
I sat up in bed. Now the voices were faint, somewhere else in the house.
I hastily dressed and pressed my ear to my door, but still I couldn’t make out the words.
With a gentle twist of the knob, I opened the door and made my way down the hallway, my stockinged feet noiseless on the hardwood floor.
The hallway ended at the living room, which in turn faced the kitchen. I smelled something baking: the lofty aroma of apples and bread. Pie, perhaps? I love a good pie.
Mother and Mrs. Carter burst out laughing simultaneously.
I crouched low against the wall near the end of the hallway. I was still unable to hear well but dared not enter the living room. This position would have to do.
“My Simon is not that adventurous,” Mrs. Carter said. “I’m afraid to say his bag of tricks is rather light. More of a satchel than a bag, really. Or perhaps one of those little paper lunch sacks.”
The refrigerator door opened with the jingle of bottles.
“Not my husband,” Mother replied. “Sometimes I’ll put on the game just to get his mind out of the bedroom. Or the laundry room. Or the kitchen table.”
“No!” Mrs. Carter cried out with a laugh.
“Oh yes,” said Mother. “The man is like an animal in heat. Sometimes there is no stopping him.”
“But you have a kid.”
“Oh, that boy is always off doing something. When he’s not, he’s in bed sleeping like a bear in the dead of winter. The earth could open up beneath him, and he’d sleep through the carnage.”
I eased my head around the corner without so much as a sound, immediately drawing it back so as not to be seen.
Mother was mixing something at the counter. Mrs. Carter sat at the kitchen table, coffee mug at hand.
“Maybe you should try something to spice things up,” Mother continued. “Missionary is for missionaries, I always say. Introduce a toy or bring some food into the bedroom. All men like whipped cream.”
I was not permitted to bring food into my room. Not since Mother had found a half-eaten tin of cookies under my bed.
Mrs. Carter giggled again. “I could never.”
“You should.”
“But what if he doesn’t like it, or thinks I’m some kind of freak? How would I survive the embarrassment?”
“Oh, he’ll like it. They always do.”
“You think so?”
“I know so.”
The women fell silent for a moment, then Mrs. Carter spoke. “Has your husband ever, you know, not been able to, well, you know …”
“My husband?” Mother shrieked with amusement. “My Lord, no. His plumbing is in top order.”
“Even when he drinks?”
“Especially when he drinks.”
One of our wooden chairs scraped against the floor.
I peeked around the corner for just an instant. Mother had sat beside Mrs. Carter and put a hand on her shoulder.