Rendoza had been the eighth to die.
Three days ago, the hidden cache had disappeared. By then, four were left alive, and by yesterday it was only Amili and Lucia. Amili felt guilt that she had watched the others perish from lack of water. But she had made her decision early, when she saw past tomorrow and tomorrow that water would be a life-and-death problem. Had she shared there would be no one alive in the steaming container: there was barely enough for one, much less two.
It was a hard decision and terrible to keep through screams and moans and prayers, but decisions were Amili’s job: Every morning before leaving for the coffee plantation Amili’s mother would gather five wide-eyed and barefoot children into the main room of their mud-brick home, point at Amili and say, “Amili is the oldest and the one who makes the good decisions.”
A good decision, Amili knew, was for tomorrow, not today. When the foreign dentistas came, it was Amili who cajoled her terrified siblings into getting their teeth fixed and learning how to care for them, so their mouths did not become empty holes. When the drunken, lizard-eyed Federale gave thirteen-year-old Pablo money to walk into the woods, Amili had followed to see the Federale showing Pablo his man thing. Though the man had official power it had been Amili’s decision to throw a big stone at him, the blood pouring from his face as he chased Amili down and beat her until she could not stand.
But he’d been revealed in the village and could never return.
Good decisions, Amili learned, came from the head and not the heart. The heart dealt with the moment. A decision had to be made for tomorrow and the tomorrow after that, all the way to the horizon. It could seem harsh, but decisions made from a soft heart often went wrong. One always had to look at what decisions did for the tomorrows.
Her hardest decision had come one month ago, when Miguel Tolandoro drove into the village in a truck as bright as silver, scattering dust and chickens. His belly was big and heavy and when he held it in his hands and shook it, he told of how much food there was in America. “Everywhere you look,” he told the astonished faces, “there is food.” Tolandoro’s smiling mouth told shining tales about how one brave person could lift a family from the dirt. He had spoken directly to Amili, holding her hands and looking into her eyes.
“You have been learning English, Amili Zelaya. You speak it well. Why?”
“I suppose I am good in school, Señor Tolandoro.”
“I’ve also heard of your prowess with the mathematics and studies in accounting. Perhaps you yearn for another future, no?”
“I have thought that … maybe in a few years. When my family can—”
“Do it today, Amili. Start the flow of munificence to your family. Or do they not need money?”
Amili was frightened of the US, of its distance and strange customs. But her head saw the tomorrows and tomorrows and knew the only escape from barren lives came with money. Amili swallowed hard and told the smiling man she would make the trip.
“I work six months to pay off the travel?”
“You’ll still have much to send home, sweet Amili.”
“What if I am unhappy there?”
“Say the word and you’ll come back to your village.”
“How many times does that happen?”
“I’ve never seen anyone return.”
Amili startled to a tremendous banging. After a distant scream of machines and the rattle of cables the container began to lift. The metal box seemed to sway in the wind and then drop. Another fierce slam from below as the module jolted violently to a standstill. Amili realized the container had been moved to a truck.
“Hang on, Lucia. Soon we’ll be safe and we can—” Amili held her tongue as she heard dockworkers speaking English outside.
“Is this the one, Joleo?”
“Lock it down fast. We’ve got two minutes before Customs comes by this section.”
Amili felt motion and heard the grinding of gears. She drifted into unconsciousness again, awakened by a shiver in the container. The movement had stopped.
“Lucia?”
Amili patted for her friend’s hand, squeezed it. The squeeze returned, almost imperceptible. “Hang on, Lucia. Soon we’ll have the agua. And our freedom.”
Amili heard gringo voices from outside.
“I hate this part, opening the shit-stinking containers. They ought to make the monkeys not eat for a couple days before they get packed up.”
“Come on, Ivy. How about you work instead of complaining?”
“I smell it from fifty feet away. Get ready to herd them to the Quonset hut.”
Light poured into the box, so bright it stole Amili’s vision. She squeezed her eyes shut.
“Okay, monkeys, welcome to the fuckin’ U S of – Jesus … The smell … I think I’m gonna puke. Come here, Joleo … something’s bad wrong.”
“I smelled that in Iraq. It’s death. Orzibel’s on his way. He’ll know what to do.”
Amili tried to move her head from the floor but it weighed a thousand kilos. She put her effort into moving her hand, lifting …
“I saw one move. Back in the corner. Go get it.”
“It stinks to hell in there, Joleo. And I ain’t gonna walk over all those—”
“Pull your shirt over your nose. Get it, dammit.”
Amili felt hands pull her to her feet and tried to turn back to Lucia. “Wait,” she mumbled. “Mi amiga Lucia está vivo.”
“What’s she saying?”
“Who cares? Haul her out before Orzibel gets here.”
“Orzibel’s crazy. He’ll gut us.”
“Christ, Ivy, it ain’t our fault. We just grab ’em off the dock.”
Amili felt herself thrown atop a shoulder. She grabbed at the body below, trying to make the man see that Lucia was still breathing. The effort was too much and the corners of the box began to spin like a top and Amili collapsed toward an enveloping darkness. Just before her senses spun away, ten final words registered in Amili’s fading mind.
“Oh shit, Joleo, my feet just sunk into a body.”
One year later
It seemed like my world had flipped over. Standing on the deck of my previous home on Alabama’s Dauphin Island, the dawn sun rose from the left. My new digs on Florida’s Upper Matecumbe Key faced north, the sun rising from the opposite direction. It would take some getting used to.
On Dauphin Island the morning sun lit a rippled green sea broken only by faint outlines of gas rigs on the horizon. Here I looked out on a small half-moon cove ringed with white sand, the turquoise water punctuated by sandy hummocks and small, flat islands coated with greenery. Like most water surrounding the Keys, it was shallow. I could walk out a hundred yards before it reached my belly.
Which seemed a pleasant way to