“But it’ll ground us,” he maintained. “It’ll give us a common base from which to work.” He swept his hand across her heated flesh to prove his point, watching as her eyes glazed and her breath exploded. “We were meant to be together.”
She managed to shake her head, but he could see the effort it took her. If he pressed, she’d cave. And though parts of him wanted her any way he could have her, the rational part of his brain preferred her willing, not fighting regrets. He leaned in and gave her another wickedly slow, thorough kiss before easing back.
She eyed him in open suspicion, while she probed her swollen lips with the tip of her tongue. “Are they smoking? They feel like they’re smoking.”
He choked on a laugh. How did she do it? How did she take him from overwhelming hunger to heart-melting amusement with one simple question? “Your lips aren’t smoking, but your tongue is. Just a little around the edges.” He leaned in. “I can show you where. Make it all better.”
Now it was her turn to laugh. “I’ll just bet.” She closed her eyes. “You make it impossible to think.”
“Then don’t.” He couldn’t keep his hands off her. “Just feel.”
“That’s not smart. Nor is it safe.”
“I won’t hurt you, Cate.”
He felt the tremor that shook her, the quiver of remembered pain. “You already have,” she whispered.
“Let me heal some of that hurt.”
His offer provoked tears and they glittered in her eyes like gold dust. He didn’t know if he’d said the right thing, or the wrong. He just knew it was honest, welling from the very core of him. Her arms slid up along his chest in response and she cupped his face. This time she initiated the embrace. It was her lips that sought his and slid like a quiet balm over his mouth. She probed with a delicacy unique to her, dancing lightly. Sweetly. Tenderly.
Just as he’d reacquainted himself with the dip and swell, the remarkable texture and scent, now so did she. Her hands cruised along his back, testing far harder planes and angles than those he’d examined. “This is where you carry it,” she told him between kisses. “The weight of your responsibilities.”
He trailed his fingers along her shoulders, scooping up the narrow straps of her nightgown and teasing them down her arms. “I’m strong. I can take a lot of weight.”
“Not right now. Right now I want you right here. With me. No responsibilities. No interruptions. Just the two of us.”
Didn’t she understand? “There’s nowhere else for me to be.” And he’d find a way to prove it.
He painted a series of kisses along the lacy edge of her nightgown where it dipped low over her breasts, and nudged the flimsy barrier from his path. He nearly groaned at the feel of satiny skin against his mouth and cheek. Her breasts were glorious, small, firm, and beautifully shaped, but then so was she. He caught her nipple between his teeth and tugged ever so gently, watching the wash of color that blossomed across her skin and turned her face a delicate shade of rose.
“Your eyes have gone dark,” he told her. “Like antique gold.”
“They haven’t gone dark.” Her breath escaped in a wispy groan. “They’ve gone blind.”
“You don’t need to see. Just feel.”
More than anything, he wanted to make this perfect for her. To heal some of what had gone before. As much as he wanted to take her, to bury himself in her warmth and create that ultimate joining, this first time would be for her. He’d give her slow. He’d give her gentle. And he’d give her the healing she so desperately craved.
He danced with her, danced with mouth and hands and quiet caresses, driving her ever higher toward that elusive pinnacle. The air grew thick and heavy with need, tightening around them until all that existed was man and woman and the desire that bound two into one. He drove her, ever upward, knowing just how to touch, just where to stroke until her muscles clenched and she hovered on the crest.
And then he mated their bodies, kissing away the helpless tears that clung to her lashes like a dusting of diamonds. Slow and easy he moved, sliding her up and up and up, before tipping her over and tumbling down the other side with her. For a long time afterward they clung to each other, wrapped together in a slick tangle of limp arms and legs.
“I can’t remember how to breathe,” he managed to say.
“Funny. I can’t remember how to move.” She opened a single eye.“ If I breathe for you, can you move for me?”
“I’ll get right on that.” He groaned. “Tomorrow, maybe.”
“Okay.” She fell silent for so long he thought she’d gone back to sleep. Then she asked, “Why, Gabe?”
“Why, what?” he asked lazily.
She opened her eyes, eyes clear and bright and glittering like the sun. “You were always a generous lover. But this morning…This morning was a gift.”
He grinned. “Then just accept it and say thank you.”
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.”
“It makes me wonder, though…” A small frown creased her brow, like a thundercloud creeping over the horizon. “Where do we go from here? What do you want from me?”
He answered honestly. “Whatever you’re willing to give.”
She absorbed that, turned it over in her mind, before nodding. “That’s easy enough. I can’t give you permanent, but I can give you temporary. We can enjoy each other these next few months. I don’t have a problem with that.”
His jaw tightened. “And then?”
Something about her easy smile rang false. “Then we go our separate ways, of course. We tried living together once. It didn’t work, remember?”
How could she lie beneath him and act as though what they felt was transient? Didn’t she feel the connection, the way their bodies fused one to the other? The way their minds and spirits were so evenly matched? “What if a couple months isn’t enough?” he argued. “It wasn’t last time.”
He watched her pick and choose her words and his suspicion grew. She was hiding something, keeping a part of herself locked carefully away. “We were different people then. We had different goals in life. You wanted a woman who would take care of the social end of your life. Someone who would nurture you and your home. At the time, I thought that would be enough to satisfy me, too.”
“Is this about your career?” Relief swept through him and he almost laughed. “You think I object to you running your own business?”
“No…at least, not yet. But I have a feeling the time will come when you’d expect me to set it aside in order to fulfill more pressing obligations.”
“More pressing obligations,” he repeated. His eyes narrowed. “Are you talking about children?”
She refused to meet his eyes. “I don’t want children, Gabe. I want a career. You made it crystal clear to me before I left that you were planning on a large family, just like the one you had growing up.”
He sat up and thrust a hand through his hair. “Is that why you left?” he demanded in disbelief. “Because you didn’t want to have a baby?”
“You were pressing for one.”
“Damn it, I asked you to marry me.”
“I remember,” she retorted.