She forgot everything—where she was, what she was supposed to be doing. All she could think of was Luca and how he felt and how badly she wanted him back deep inside—then it would all be right, right, right.
The tips of his fingers stroked over the lace and silk. Close, so close and yet not touching her heat as hard as she needed. His other hand cupped her breast. His thumb worked back and forth over her tight, jutting nipple. And from behind he rubbed against her, pressing his erection against her rounded, hungry flesh.
Sandwiched between his fingers and his aroused pelvis she rocked, seeking satisfaction from both. Wanting the barriers of their clothing gone so she could feel everything fresh and raw.
‘Do you want me, Emily?’ he muttered, mouth hard against her neck.
‘Yes.’
‘Shall I bend you over that bench and just—?’
‘Oh, yes…’ she panted, knees buckling. ‘Now. Now!’ She was so close she’d climax as soon as he thrust in—she knew it and she wanted it. As hard and fast and as animal as he liked. She couldn’t fight her hunger any more, couldn’t fight him.
But his hands left her body. He stepped away so fast she staggered—his hands came back again, steadying her.
‘Emily,’ he panted, more breathless than she’d ever heard him. ‘You’re right. We can’t.’
‘What are you doing?’
‘Torturing us both.’
‘Why?’
He didn’t answer directly. She felt his head resting on her shoulder, but he held the rest of him away from her. ‘I want you like I have never wanted before.’
There it was again—want. And there was an unmistakable note of agony in there as well. She closed her eyes. He didn’t want to want her like this.
‘I’d better get back to the others.’ He pulled away.
‘I need a minute.’
‘Of course.’ He took another couple of deep breaths and left.
She made it to the bathroom but there was no way she could disguise the colour in her cheeks or the redness of her mouth. It had only been minutes—maybe three? But everything had changed.
LUCA watched her walk into the lounge. Head high, cheeks flushed. He could almost hear the thunder as the lightning look flashed from her eyes—on fire and unforgiving. It wasn’t missed by the others either in a moment of utter silence.
She went to the piano.
‘Do you play, Emily?’ Francine asked.
‘A little.’
‘You’ll play for us now?’
She nodded. He was relieved because it meant the end of having to hear her conversation for a while and he wouldn’t have to meet her eyes again either. That look made him feel worse and he already felt like a jerk. He hadn’t meant for it to happen, to get so far out of control. But all through dinner he’d watched her discomfort, listened to her put herself down. He didn’t give a damn about whether she’d been to uni or not—nor did the others. Didn’t she understand that he knew how hard she’d worked? She’d achieved something far more important than a few choice grades at university—she’d taken on a workload and level of responsibility many people with PhDs wouldn’t cope with and she couldn’t have done a better job of building her sister’s confidence and independence.
But at what cost to herself? Her own life, her own ambition had been put on hold and he wanted to see her take charge of it. Just then he’d wanted to reassure her—let her know how beautiful she was, how bright, how giving—and the simplest way to do that was by showing how much he wanted her. Big mistake—once he’d touched, he’d almost lost complete control.
She played a few chords experimentally. ‘I don’t have the voice of my sister.’
He tensed, damn her defensive downplaying again.
‘And while I love classical, I must be honest and admit I prefer a little blue with my tunes.’ Her fingers slid on the keys, adjusting a note here and there and the result became a jazz standard.
Her voice was lower and had a husk to it and he was almost in a puddle. And as she hit her stride there was a raw quality he almost couldn’t stand to listen to.
While she didn’t have the brilliance of her sister’s tone, she had a far greater emotional depth. Luca knew first hand the reservoir of feeling within Emily. It intrigued him, aroused him and scared him.
She kept it short and he was glad because he wasn’t sure he could take much more—this looking but not touching was just about killing him. Then Francine asked her to play another. He gritted his teeth.
‘Only if you sing this time.’ Emily’s huskiness was more apparent.
He shifted in his seat, recognising that she was wrung out and frustrated with his inability to do anything about it. Fortunately Francine smiled and sat beside her and did the singing and Luca watched as Emily won her over completely. And then he just watched her. The light played on the diamonds at her wrist just as he’d imagined it would. He would never regret buying her the gift. She did deserve spoiling. It was stunning, elegant and classical—just like her. And also like her, it shone bright with an internal fire. Only now he regretted that he hadn’t chosen handcuffs. Then he could chain her to his bed and have her as much as he liked—and keep her from invading other areas of his life. But she was like this force barrelling into him, challenging the things in the world he’d worked hard to establish—like peace, solitude and isolation.
‘You find her very beautiful.’ Pascal’s tone was low and Luca started.
Hell, he’d forgotten the old man was right beside him. He’d forgotten—
‘You can’t take your eyes off her.’
‘I find her frustrating.’ As was his attraction to her—uncontrollable, insatiable, undeniable. Even now, right now, he wanted her.
He turned to Pascal, blinked as he looked into those brown eyes that held understanding and just a tinge of sadness—brown eyes that were so familiar and yet for a few moments there had been forgotten. Desolation washed through him. Despair. How could he have forgotten? Guilt seized his heart and he looked quickly away. He’d tried so hard to make eyes just like those happy. And a long time ago, for a few magical moments, he’d succeeded. But then there’d been nothing and there could never be anything again.
‘I’m sorry, Pascal.’ Sorry for the past, sorry for tonight. Sorry for his failures both then and now. He stood, wanting to end this line of conversation before it even got started. ‘Let’s go out to the balcony. I’ll concentrate better there.’
They could talk work and avoid the personal and Luca could try to go back to denial. But he suspected it was too late. He hadn’t been able to control the way she got to him, certainly hadn’t been able to hide it. And now he felt his guilt grow. He hadn’t wanted to bring pain to anyone.
Pascal and Francine didn’t stay late. Pascal explained that he had too much work to do in the morning before flying back to Paris. Emily had sat quietly listening for that last half hour as Luca had taken over the conversational duties and he and the others had talked money and markets and things she had no idea about. She hadn’t even been able to look at Luca, had been too wobbly for words.
As Luca was helping Francine with her coat Emily found Pascal standing near her. He spoke softly. ‘Don’t let him stamp out your