‘I’ve had my licence for years,’ he told her cheerfully. ‘Joe’s spending the day on the beach while I take over his machine. It’s economical,’ he said as she opened her mouth to protest—if she could think of the words she needed, which she couldn’t. ‘Two people instead of three. Lots of fuel saved. And don’t tell me I don’t need to come—Bond’s Bank has been financing these elephants for years, and I have a vested interest in inspecting our investment.’
And here was Bella, walking towards her, carrying her jacket. Bella, who spent every waking moment with Henry.
Had Matt lined this up with her Gran? Obviously yes.
‘Matt says he’ll take Henry and me to see them when Henry’s well,’ Bella told her, beaming. ‘But just knowing you’re visiting them today will do your Grandpa good. Give them our love.’ And she placed a paper bag into Allie’s limp hand. ‘Doughnuts,’ she said. ‘They’re very bad but Maisie and Minnie both love them. Sneak them some when no one’s looking.’
Maisie and Minnie. Mother and daughter, great, lumbering Asian elephants, third and fourth generation circus bred, docile and wonderful. Allie had loved them with all her teenage heart, and that was what this mess was about. She’d fought for them.
If she climbed into the chopper with Matt, she could see them in an hour.
But what if … and she should … and it wasn’t …
She had all sorts of protests and not one would come out.
Bella took the two dogs’ leads. ‘Come on, guys, your mistress is visiting past loves today,’ she said as Matt propelled Allie towards the chopper and Allie let herself be propelled because there didn’t seem any alternative. And Matt was large and commanding and he had everything sorted and she thought, just for a moment, wouldn’t it be great to put this whole mess in Matt’s hands and let him sort it out?
There was a dumb thought. Her mess was nothing to do with him—she’d told him that and she was right.
But right now?
Right now she was going to see some friends she hadn’t seen for years.
Where had her grandfather sent them?
Somewhere good, she pleaded silently. Somewhere to make this sacrifice worthwhile.
‘Let’s go,’ Matt said and he helped her into the cockpit.
She sat passive as he adjusted her harness and her headphones and closed her door.
She sat passive as he slid behind the controls, did what he needed to and lifted the chopper from the ground.
She glanced across at Matt and she saw that he was smiling, that faint devil-behind-the-smile glimmer she was starting to know.
It was a smile that made her feel being passive was her only protection.
THE JOB DESCRIPTION for a circus performer didn’t come with the label big earner, so a one-time commercial flight from Sydney to Melbourne was the sum total of Allie’s air travel. She’d never been in a helicopter.
Now she was in a tiny cockpit beside Matt, the cockpit seemed almost a transparent bubble, and she felt like …
She was flying?
She was flying, she told herself, trying hard not to cling to the edge of her seat and whimper. The chopper rose with a speed that took her breath away. She was in a bubble heading for the clouds.
She forgot to breathe.
Fort Neptune grew smaller and smaller. She was in a bubble in the sky with Matt Bond.
The floor beneath her was transparent. She could see miles of coastline falling away beneath her. She could see the Blue Mountains.
‘It’s safe,’ Matt said through her headphones and she tried really hard to catch her breath and act cool and toss him a look of insouciance.
‘I’m just …’ She saw where he was looking and carefully unfastened her white knuckles from the seat. ‘It’s just I’m always wary of inexperienced drivers.’
‘That would be pilots.’
‘Pilots,’ she snapped.
‘I’m very experienced.’
‘You didn’t hand me your CV as you got in the driver’s seat,’ she managed as the Blue Mountains loomed and the chopper started to rise even further. ‘I like first-hand knowledge of my … chauffeur.’
‘You want to radio for a reference?’ he asked. He grinned and she knew, she just knew, that if she took him up on his offer she’d radio and someone would tell her that this man was competent, no, more than competent, an expert, experienced, calm and safe.
Safe.
See, that was half the problem. He didn’t make her feel safe. Okay, maybe his piloting skills weren’t the issue. Flying above the Blue Mountains in a transparent bubble might make her feel unsafe with anyone, but she was settling, getting used to the machine, starting to be entranced by the landscape beneath—but underlying everything was the way this man made her feel.
Unsafe?
Just unsteady, she told herself and that was reasonable. He’d pulled the rug from under the circus she loved.
No. He hadn’t done that. Her grandfather had done it by taking out such a huge loan. Matt had every right to call it in.
And the unsafe bit wasn’t about the loan, either, she conceded. She sneaked a quick glance across at him. He was focused again on the country ahead. He looked calm, steady, in control, and she thought—that’s what the problem is.
He’s more in control of my world than I am.
Concentrate on the view, she told herself. On the scenery.
And on what was waiting to meet her?
‘Do … do these people know I’m coming?’
‘The park’s owners? Jack and Myra. Yes, they do. They’re good people.’
‘How do you know?’
‘We do thorough research before we foreclose,’ he said gently. ‘We wanted to know where our money was—whether there was any chance of us retrieving it. There’s not. Every cent your grandpa paid has been long spent. Jack and Myra are in trouble themselves, but not from mismanagement. It’s because they care too much.’
‘I’ll pay them back,’ she said tightly.
‘With a bookkeeper’s salary?’ He sounded amused and she winced. She thought about the amount she was likely to earn and the amount she owed and she could see why he was amused.
And she thought again … He’s more in control of my world than I am.
‘Don’t worry about it today,’ Matt said gently. ‘Today’s not for finance. Today’s for seeing your friends again.’
He focused on the machine again, on the myriad of instruments, on the scene ahead, and she thought—he’s letting me be. Like the picnic on the beach … he’s giving me space.
She felt, suddenly, stupidly, dangerously, close to tears.
This man was in control and she wasn’t. She had to be.
The majestic line of the Blue Mountains was receding now, opening to the vast tracts of grassland that grew inland for hundreds of miles, spreading until they gave way to the true Australian outback.
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