At the end of the pier, Dylan asked, “Do you want to head back or sit down on one of these benches and people watch?”
“People watch, of course.”
Like an old comfortable couple, they sat together on the bench. Dylan put his arm behind her shoulder; she leaned in just a little bit closer.
“Do you have the photo album with you? The one from last night?”
Mackenzie put her hand on her tote. “Right here.”
“I’d like to finish looking at it.”
“Are you sure?”
“I want to know more about our daughter.”
Our daughter.
Dylan had never used that term before.
Dylan started at the beginning while Mackenzie told him the story behind each picture. Halfway through the album, they came to the pictures that chronicled Hope’s cancer journey.
“Her face is so swollen in this picture. She doesn’t even look like the same kid,” Dylan said. Hope’s face was puffy and round, her head completely bald, her eyebrows gone.
“Steroids,” Mackenzie explained. “She could never seem to get enough food.” Mackenzie pointed to the next picture. “This is when she first got her port put in for chemo. That was a...really bad day.”
Dylan flipped through the rest of the photographs and then went back to the first picture—the one taken the day Hope was born.
“You know that I love her now, Mackenzie.”
Mackenzie nodded. She did know.
“And, I’m...really worried about her. What if she relapses?”
Mackenzie didn’t like to think about that. She put the album in the tote. “Then we fight it. That’s all we can do.”
They stayed at the pier for another hour; before they headed back to the car, Dylan insisted that he take her to his favorite ice-cream shop, which was famous for its waffle ice-cream sandwich. After the ice cream, Dylan drove them back to his place. Climbing out of the low-slung Corvette, Mackenzie couldn’t remember having a better time with a man.
“Do you want to come in for a while? Or do you have to go?”
“I have to go. I pick Hope up at four. School tomorrow.”
On the way back to the car, Dylan made her promise to return the favor and let him drive her vintage Chevy the next time they saw each other.
“I had a really good time with you, Mackenzie. And I know this is going to sound kind of strange, because we have Hope, so I will be seeing you again...but I want to see you again.”
Dylan was leaning against her driver’s door. For the whole entire day, right up until this moment, Mackenzie had felt really good about her decision to deepen the connection with Dylan. But now that she was getting ready to return to reality, her life...doubt was starting to creep in fast and loud.
“Why do I get the feeling something just went wrong here?” Dylan asked suspiciously. Mackenzie’s body language, the expression on her face, had changed. Her eyes, which had been open and willing, were guarded.
“There’s nothing wrong, Dylan,” she lied. “It’s just time for me to get back to real life.”
He hadn’t believed the lie. “I think we should make a date right now. How about if the three of us drive out to Aunt Gerri’s house next Sunday? She’s been asking for both of you.”
“Um...let me check my calendar, okay? And I’ll get back to you.”
“Now, see...I feel like I need to get a commitment out of you...pin you down.” Dylan frowned. “It seems like you’re already having second thoughts about this weekend. I can feel you backing away from me...”
Mackenzie took a small step back. “I don’t think I’m backing away from you...”
“Actually, you just literally did back away from me.”
Dylan reached out, slipped his fingers through her hair to the nape of her neck and brought her lips to his. He kissed her until he felt her take a step back toward him. And he didn’t stop kissing her, until she melted into his arms.
“So...” His lips were still so very close to hers. “Do we have a date?”
“You don’t play fair, do you?”
“Not when it comes to you.” Dylan kissed her again. “Do we have a date?”
“Yes, Dylan.” He was a very persuasive kisser. “We have a date.”
“What do you think?” Mackenzie stood in the doorway of her room feeling naked in the short-sleeved purple blouse. It was Sunday, and they were scheduled to meet up with Dylan in an hour so they could all go out to his aunt’s farm together. She wanted to look presentable, and even though she had been having misgivings about her weekend with Dylan, she wanted to look nice for him, too.
“I picked that out.” Hope was a stylish kid. She loved jewelry and accessories; she cut pictures out of fashion magazines and couldn’t wait to wear makeup. “You look pretty, Mom.”
Mackenzie checked her reflection in the mirror again, tugged on the front of the blouse. It was strange seeing so much of her arms, and they still looked too round for her liking, but lately she’d started to think that she needed to force herself out of her baggy-fashion box. There was no doubt in her mind that Dylan’s regular compliments had boosted her body image. She still had work to do, but at least she was able to finally cut the tags off this blouse and put it on her body. Mackenzie pointed to her reflection in the mirror.
“You look good,” she said, then shut off the bathroom light and headed to the kitchen. She took a quick sip of her strong black coffee before preparing Hope’s morning medicine.
“Did you make your bed?” Mackenzie called out to Hope.
She knew that she was never going to be a complete neat freak like Dylan, but she was starting to think that a little more organization wouldn’t hurt. In fact, she was very proud of the fact that all their dinner dishes had made it directly into the dishwasher without their typical pit stop to the sink.
“Yeah.” Hope showed up looking cute as a bug in a sparkly butterfly T-shirt, cuffed jeans and lavender tennis shoes. “But why’d I have’ta start doing that now?”
Mackenzie held out the pills for Hope. “It wouldn’t hurt us to be a little neater around here...I made mine, too.”
Hope made a face at the pills.
“I know, kiddo. But you gotta take them. Down the hatch.”
Mackenzie handed Hope a glass of grape juice, watched her take her pills. When she was done, Mackenzie rinsed out the glass and put it in the dishwasher.
“You feeling okay today?”
“Uh-huh...” Hope nodded.
Mackenzie and Hope loaded into her Chevy and headed toward the bakery. She had agreed to meet Dylan there and she didn’t want to be late. During the short trip from their house to the bakery, Mackenzie couldn’t seem to get comfortable. She fiddled with the radio, the AC, her seat belt, the neckline of her blouse. She was fidgety