“I dunno about you, Jordan, but I’m starving,” Christina said.
“Have I got a dinner for you.” Jordan took her back to the kitchen, and together they filled plates and sat on the rump-sprung couch to eat.
“I’ll have to give some of this away or it’ll go bad. There’s enough here for twenty people,” Jordan said.
“We can put some of it out in the clinic for a free lunch tomorrow. There’ll be a crowd around—everybody will want to size up the new doc.”
That should have unnerved her, but Jordan was far too tired. By the time she’d finished a slice of blueberry pie, she was yawning.
“Excuse me,” she apologized, and then yawned again.
“Why not go to bed?” Christina gathered up their dishes and stacked them in the plastic dishpan in the sink. “These’ll keep till morning, dirty dishes always do. We’ll just stow the meat and salad in the fridge— I’ll take Roberta a plateful. I’m gonna set up a cot for her beside Louie’s bed. That way she can keep an eye on him for us during the night. I’ll check the drip and make sure there’s no bleeding.”
“Bless you. I’m absolutely wiped out. It must be the sea air.”
“Or it could have something to do with a major emergency your first day on the job. I meant to ask, are you planning on having office hours every day? A couple of Roberta’s relatives were asking.”
“Every day except Sunday. I didn’t come here to laze around, I’m used to the pace in the E.R. I’ll put a sign on the door with the hours. What do you think is reasonable? Eight to twelve, and then two to five?”
“You can try that.” Christina laughed. “People here don’t go much by the clock, we run on what we call Indian time. That means people will turn up when it suits them. But they also don’t mind waiting, so it evens out. There’s also a lot of extra stuff that won’t fit into rigid office hours. Like the well-baby clinic once a week and Community Care where we go out to whoever needs us. There’s also a drug education program for teens and a prenatal group. You sure don’t have to attend all those things all the time, but it would be great if you’d come once in a while.”
“I wish now I’d gone into general practice. Until I get the hang of it, I’m going to have to rely on you to keep me on track.”
“It shouldn’t take that long, you strike me as a reasonably bright woman.”
“Gee, thanks.”
They both grinned. Today they’d worked together as a smooth, efficient unit. As if they’d done it for years.
“We’ll grab time tomorrow to work out a sort of timetable,” Christina said. “You go on to bed. If anybody needs you, they know where to come.”
“Thanks, Christina. For everything. And tell your mom thanks for the lunch, I sort of ate and ran.”
“No kidding, I wonder why? I’ll tell her.”
After Christina went back into the clinic, Jordan covered the remaining food, turned out the lights, and made her way into the bedroom. Groaning when she realized her suitcase had been flopped onto the double bed, she wrestled it to the floor so there’d be room for her to sleep. She put on the worn flannel nightgown she’d had since her intern days, and after a quick wash in the bathroom, tumbled into bed. She’d unpack in the morning.
The mattress was firm, the sheets soft, and Jordan burrowed into the fluffy comforter. The window she’d opened let in the smell of the sea with a distinct tinge of pine, mingling with wood smoke, maybe from her own kitchen stove.
She really had to learn how to light that thing—she’d probably even have to learn how to use the oven. Unless the women took pity on her and kept bringing food, she’d also have to learn to cook. There was so much for her to learn here. It felt as if she’d been catapulted to a different planet. One where Garry couldn’t find her.
But it wasn’t Garry’s face that came to mind as she began to relax. It was the lean, hard-edged features of Silas Keefer.
You’re out of it, Burke. You’re so tired you’re hallucinating.
With a sigh of exhaustion and something closer to contentment than she’d felt in a long while, she closed her eyes and fell asleep.
LESS THAN A MILE AWAY, Silas slumped in front of his laptop, struggling with the lengthy article he’d agreed to write on ideological differences toward healing between native and white culture. It was for the University Press, to be included in a book on many diverse healing modalities. It had been assigned by a professor he’d come to respect during his student days, and Silas was being well paid for it—the main reason he’d taken on the contract.
Living in Ahousaht was definitely a low-rent proposition, but even the simplest lifestyle required an income.
He ran a hand through his hair. This wasn’t going well at all, and it should be a piece of cake. He knew the material, he lived the material.
He deleted a couple of paragraphs, scowling at the screen. Why couldn’t he keep his mind on what he was doing?
Because I’m thinking about the blue-eyed doctor. The answer surprised him. He hadn’t been consciously thinking about her, but she was definitely there, just under the surface, distracting him.
His body had reacted to her today. He’d tried to pretend it hadn’t, because he liked to believe he was in control of himself, his thoughts, his responses.
He’d been celibate for a long time—by choice. Several attractive women in the village had made it plain they’d welcome him in their bed. And he’d been tempted. It would be a lie to say he hadn’t.
But he wanted someone to share his ideas with, a woman he could trust enough to open up to, dream with, laugh with—and, yeah, take to his bed. He was strong and healthy, with a hale and hearty libido. He was also solitary, preferring to watch people rather than engage with them. It wasn’t a trait that endeared him to women when the lovemaking was over, and there hadn’t been many who intrigued him enough to risk sharing more than sex with them.
The problem was there were no secrets on this island. Everyone would know before noon who he’d bedded. Not that there was anything wrong with that, either. But as a healer, he had a certain status. He wasn’t obliged to embrace celibacy, except during the periods of purification necessary for certain ceremonies. But there was a personal moral code he felt obliged to sustain.
“And now you’re laughing at me, Grandmother,” he whispered. He could almost see Sandrine in the corner of the room, as she used to be, sitting in the rocking chair she’d given him long ago. “You’re right, I’m a stuffed shirt. I take myself way too seriously. You always told me I needed to laugh at myself more.”
“Love more, too. The opposite of man is woman, and we all need to know our opposite and embrace it. You will only find the other half of yourself in another person, Grandson. It’s the only way we ever really see ourselves.”
He turned and looked directly at the chair.
“Help me, Grandmother.” He wasn’t sure what he meant, exactly. He only knew that he suddenly felt vulnerable.
But Sandrine wasn’t there.
He had to escape outside. He saved his document and got to his feet, grabbing his jacket from the wooden peg by the door.
Outside, the woods were alive with night sounds. Silas stood and listened, separating them, naming them. Owl. Coyote. The scurrying of a small animal, maybe a marmot. The twittering of birds, settling in for the night. The faint scent of skunk, somewhere off to the west. The tang of the evergreens, the salt of the sea.